I have being so LONG, really long time never update my blog d. Wonder where i swim to, not even one photo upload
he hurt she again today, yesterday, n last yesterday...
It sound so shaky to a LDR
he not the 1st one who call her since they depart
he know that she will have flying mind & though after LDR
she know he is focus on his relaxing time with his friend
he cared, but he has no time to care. she though. this had make her a conslusion is, he lazy to care
he know she is keen on a holiday, she know he is not able and don't want to, instead, she still put in a hope that sincerely asked, putting a way that he might be interest, although she know the answer is -- NO
he know she is interest in any vocation, but he asking in the way that hoping & make sure she not able going to follow
he is giving excuses that don't know she could or could not make it, he is making her decision
she had burry a thousand unknown which expecting answer from him, down in depth in the bottom of her heart
he make it such way that want her to reborn all those burry uncertainty feeling
unpredictable or uncertainty make her hard to breath
she still believe he is concern (toward lpc), she want to and she need to ...
but he is slowly make her think that all those is bull shit and unnecessary ...
this had started make she feel not safe, cause he is still like old time, protecting himself toward people, even toward her
she is not people, she is ...
but he make her feel that she wasn't sure what she mean to him
he make her feel like she is just 'people', normal to him, easy for him
All this thing, make her feel so [P.A.I.N] ...