发现

下雨，手/脚/心/都很冷，原来也只有我一个，所以没觉得温暖

葡萄们，都在游泳~

因为，自由的离开家了，到了没有亲爱人的地方

吃什么？如果不是自己一个，吃什么都无所谓 :)

如果是自己一个，吃什么也都是无所谓了

is there any god out there?

Send someone to love me, i need to rest in arm, keep myself from harm, in pouring rain
派一个人来爱我，我需要一个肩膀，在雨中保护我

Give me endless summer, Lord i fear the cold, feel i'm getting old, before my time
给我无限的夏天，我害怕冷，觉得自己还没到已经老了

As my soul heal the shame, i will grow through this pain, Lord i'm doing all i can, to be a better man~
当我的灵魂痊愈尴尬，我会从痛苦长大，我会做全部，只因成为更好的一个人

哈哈哈，太好笑了，我的翻译
因为我实在很闷哪

今天是九皇爷初2，你们有吃斋吗？

我要开始吃了，因为我有愿望要祈祷，很多个一下，重要的也有几个 :D

虽然我会长大，但 还是希望永远是你的小女人

他妈的一年！

昨天看见新闻报告说，菲律宾狭持香港人质一周年，又一年了，为什么我还在这里？

他妈的辞职信也丢了三次 （严格来说只有一次，因为两次被退回，最后一次收下了，却说要掉我去其他的职位，但我到现在还在做一样的东西）

之前到这里，一半是为了他，一半是为了钱。年轻的，做什么都为了钱。

现在还在这里，一半也是为了他，一半是为了时间。老了，做什么都很多顾虑和逃避。

逃避够久的了，虚度呀~虚度！

其实没什么大不了的，人生如果你是个聋子，就会成功，因为其他人不敢实现梦想，而出言影响你。

我是个半聋子，和整个自私鬼。

磨练也算够了吧！当做受罪也不为过。起码愿意面对自己的罪行，说忘记了，是骗人的。过程只有自己和神最清楚。

old me

太多人，嫁，娶
让我怀疑，是自己还很年轻，还是太老了？
女人为什么要于青春并为一题？
有没有人心甘情愿的让我依赖
放心的当一个没有社会价值的
做一个对家有贡献的女人？

其实，坚强的女人
并不容易，因为越是成熟，越是坚强，越会寂寞

当然，我还是喜欢无聊的自己
起码，不需要，伪装自己

男人

Recently i very sentimental. Saw a post link link and doubt for that

一個男人如果真的愛你的話，就一定會做出下面這些事：

一、願意為你掏錢
虽然没钱

二、願意聽你訴苦
安慰你

三、願意為你讓自己受苦
玩乐时会想你在干吗，吃了吗？

四、願意為你收場
帮你吃你吃不完的

五、在關鍵時候，總會護住你
不管在什麼情況下，都願意盡量減少給你帶去的傷害。

一個好男人，是需要一個好女人好好把握的，但是他只要是真心對你好的，你就應該去珍惜，

一個女人對男人最大的珍惜，就是好好的去愛他，心裡只有他一個，願意和他一起去承受生活中要面對的

out of 5 item, how much he will get?

yup! we will treat them a whole heart,but will him?

i will definitely 与他分担痛苦，分享快乐，that why i will expect the same, it was not hard thing right?

haih~~girl, it was complicated animal in this world. some time i also doubt why i am so complicated? am i?

am i think too much???

老了

i have cut my hair shorter

from that LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONG, cut till this SHOOOOORT

boy cut hair, use to be more tidy and handsome look

girl cut hair, other than make herself pretty, is also got other reason

feel tired and even more tired, because no place for me to rest

change? what is change?

bersih 2.0 is change? that is history

i hate history, use to hate it since young

but now, i tense to like history more, china history, movie history, song history, his history

mum said, when u start to think pass, and felt more emo, and stress, and listen to old folks song

mean you already O.L.D

perhaps today i suit to go to Old Town, having a cup of double white coffee, look back my pass, what have i done, what should i do

forgive me, for getting older (JUST ONE DAY!)

haha, of course, i year year 18 :)

i am just temporary mind stuck! that all...

我是不是太缺少安全感了

原来人被骗了一次，就很难再相信回

说过要坦诚相对却不能控制的情绪怀疑猜测

是要怎样现在？

之前就是毫无警讯的完全信任不理

怎知被告知原来这是忽略？

现在是要理还是不理

理，就讲被管

不理，就讲忽略

我看我还是要理时管，不理时不管

是你给的安全感太少，还是我不够聪明？

又或者，我太善良无条件的被利用？

为什么看似容易的东西，自己却很迷惑？

还是我应该自私一点，让你头痛我？哈哈哈哈

Not Yet Ready

i am so Not get into mood

please forgive my laziness of update my blog

会是乱想吗？

“我猜你变了”

“是不是太忙才忽略我”

“为什么你不会像一开始这样”

“以前你会哄我开心”

“不如我变成你的手机”

“为什么每次打给你都会一直通到断线没人接”

“不如我变成你的电脑”

“我想变成你家的小狗还比较幸福”

“ 我已经不想再在细心了”

“好像自私会没酱痛”

“为什么有你好像没有一样”

“其实是不是我钻牛角”

“除非我的感觉出卖我”

“相信好像不太能信”

“为什么会这样”

“我为什么会变成这样”

“其实有未来是假的”

“回忆太少了”

“干嘛好像永远都不够”

“为什么我猜不到你在想什么了”

“是不是没有缘分”

其实还有很多，是你把我变成霸道的

人如果分开太远太久，心与脑还会黏在一起，是假的

是不是用完了，面对面也好像很远

期待都会变成失望，然后生气，过后绝望，剩下的是没有灵魂的驱壳

在期望你变回来的同时，我也希望我能变回去

"Sampat"

"SAMPAT" mean- boring, waste of time making Huu-Haa around busy people, not valuable, not sense of appreciation

funny, i have alot 'Sampat' friend, but we are nice

i have alot 'Sampat' client, but most of them are bad

Today it happend to be 'So-Not-My-Day-Seriously' !!!

i was so NOT into reporting/ complaining my job in my blog, but this time really must split it out!

Singapore legally, you can hire Foreign Domestic Worker-so call 'maid'

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here is a funny story base on true experience:

A said B work for them for 3 weeks, unfortunately on the 3rd week bring her for a hair cut, sakib stylist said B got lice's egg.

So A very angry call to the employment agency to question this issue. A said employment agent should MAKE SURE B is totally free of hair lice, double check before handover.

A want a clear answer regarding 'how if my kid get influent to lice too, who will bare the responsibility?' if A not get a 'happy' answer, he threaten that will make it a BIG HUUUUUU-HAAAAAAA toward media

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here is the question (as me, a writer, to you, a reader):

1. B work for A coming to 4 weeks time, have wash her hair frequent (claim by A's wife, but A deny said he cannot confirm B truly wash or not, or lie)

2. if the lice get thru this employment agency, how come need to wait until 3 week only hatching egg? (so, i take this as an alien's lice's egg)

3. if you buy a electric equipment, or house, or other thing, even a piece of pork from a butcher, is the buyer need to verify the condition/ quality or the seller? (don't simply said you don't know, because you was a educated consumer, especially in here)

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MORAL of the Story?

If you want to hire a worker, and you need to be prepare the worker will runaway some time in future, most of the time is not related of ill-treat of employer, is because they are tired, you cannot blame anyone regarding this issue

if you really want a worker, all the problem should not be consider, because once it happend, you will know it, and you already be prepared (mentally) and you face it (financially & physically)

maybe you just said this as a wonderful 'AAARRRGGGHHH! bird shit all time and kena me this time' !!! Fxxx & Sxxx @#$%^& !!!

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My answer is :

"SO SORRY, I NEED TO TELL YOU, IS NOT EVEN WHO'S FALSE, BLAMING, IS A BIG NO NO, BIRD SHIT ON YOU THIS TIME!"

"who need to bare for that responsible? B, because she never take care own cleanliness well"

"ok lo, you claim you are not a 无理取闹 person, than who was?"

Seriously, is not my day, ok, bird shit everywhere -_____-!!!

normal, lamron

Recently nothing to update, cause it was like couldn't be more normal than now. Normal as in: wake up, shower, work, follow by work again, dinner, work, bath, sleep. Have google my title "NORMAL" adversing "LAMRON". Meaning "The act of being adnormal, excuding abnormalities, breaking the status quo". What the @#$%^&*. Resignation news spreed out fast, in here (company). News will be faster as u couldn't imagine. :P. But i not yet tender letter. Same time, alot advise me not to resign. Is it the market really that bad now? Scared me cannot find another job? Reason? Just tired. That's all. 我可以有很多理由留下. 但是要走的原因只有一个，就是再也不能压低底线来让你们无理的轰炸. 幸福，是可以很简单. 但我却找不到。

’显’

最近我真的超废的

身边的人，总好像很灰，很忙，很累，很痛，很苦，很笨

时间很多，想做的事太多，没能做，因为那时间不属于我的

可是有个人，时间太少，想做的事太多，没能做，因为一天也只有那么的一个

我很‘显’，酱下去我应该会无聊到爆

其实，我不喜欢这样的自己

感觉很不实际

我。。。果真是个米虫，在浪费生命

我。。。又再一次，找不到自己，唉。。。

幸福。时间

那么久，那么久了，我忘记我的幸福摆在哪？

可能心已经麻木不堪，才会把那熟悉的感觉忘了

身体累了不及心的累

“时间就像一张网，你撒在哪里，收获就在那里”

当然如果已确定那个地方没有你要的鱼了，就要换地点了

所以呀，我现在要学会聪明和自私，把我幸福的感觉找回

人啊，活着没有幸福，是很悲哀的

p/s: 快乐可以很容易很简单，只要你有一颗‘活’着的心，喝一杯水就可以很幸福了，所以大家都要珍惜快乐哦 :)

at last...

Hi everyone,

I PROUDLY ANNOUCED THAT:

I HAVE MAKE UP MY MIND

(monday 20022011)

AT LAST...

DO YOU SUPPORT ME? :D

From: Bluey Pang

why i can't make up my mind?

*Seriously, this is an emo article of me, it just a stress release and do not have any point of it (might be) *

i am the only person who most understand myself, suppose

i am the one who know what i need and want, suppose, too...

"Actually i want to leave, but yet i stay; actually is a lie, but i said it as true; actually cannot turn back anymore, but i still kept it"

what the he** i am thinking?

i bet next time i will just dump letter 'handsomely' can?

but of course, i know this cruel world, so i won't scrath off both side's face's skin la

Life is a cycle, where we need to responsible for what we do

what i mean is, we are the one who need to determine what is the best for ourselves, right?

indeed i hate it when Bunny told to my new clg: earn here is 4x compare to your country

where got 4x? you think outside world wages just 1k?

i think he got point of insulting, haha

but, 3years is more than enough for me, and yet it ruin my original plan

ok, perhaps i should not use the monetary toward study and as invest to property?

but wait, i don't have that much of $$$ la wei, don't think i am rich leh

ok, future plan need to change, that why it just call it 'plan' right?

just that fish is tired of swim back each month or catch up every reunion and farewell like never ending

tired of all this stuff, big bluff each days, meeting same group of people each days (is not friend, is job & those funny person)

anyhow i ever wake up at night figure out have i settle my job yet? silly right?

and i wish one day rain here and the flood fly me back to where i want to be :P

Seriously, felt like this life is taking away my hapiness :P

改行会怎样？

i am tired, really not kidding

'a person treat you how as she/he expect the same return from you'~Bluey Pang (that is me :P)

change career is referring to change another job in the other line toward the other industries

what i can do?

Hence, i list up whole list of thing i can do:
1. Teaching?
2. Tutoring?
3. Camering?
4. Petting?
5. Housewifing?

base on the 5, which i don't have any professionalis into it, but is what the thing i wish to do and expect some joy after i join it

but it seem like not so .... so...professional title

can i have a job which will fullfill my dream at the same time fullfill my interest and also my pocket $$$?

Do you have any?

Damm it,i think i really need a break!

i also want to spent a Valentine day with him, but i really don't have time, who ask him dump me here so far, last minute only plan, so sorry, i give my time to my office liao

累

什么样儿的标题，2011年刚开始，就累？？

突然想用华语写blog, 原谅我，本来华语就比较容易带出语感---语言感觉！

一口气读完20多篇由世界各地的网记

喂！我真的很想冲回马国啦。。。

放过我自己吧！

为什么要把自己关起来？

身边的人都觉得我宅到不行，又闷到不行，我整个人生，规律到不行，只差少一个‘娱乐癫疯到不行’

宅到我自己都想把自己拖出去晒太阳，赶懒虫子

‘你有什么打算？’这句很容易明白，却很难回答（对我啦~）是因为我不懂我要什么吗？

我要什么？你知道你要什么吗？我不知道，笑话了

我为什么会这样？

My Christmas Nail Color

Sweet milky chocolate color for hand :)

Glittering Dark Purple Red color + pink for toe :)

*tada* that is the combination

OK, i admit it look weird...

hehehe ^^

i think i am out of mind too

请你吃蕉！

你对我不好，休想我对你好！

原谅我，我以前不是这样的咯
里所当然的，可恶的，讨人厌，大话精，死变态，自私的，凶狠的
曾几何时，我也是个温柔可爱贴心的笨好人

不会再这样了，谢谢你 (非人也)

不要再expect我会怎样怎样

严格说起，也是因为这里的环境，导致我变态的人格分裂
当你要求别人时，试想看如果是你的话，你会怎样对付这种种

我并不是天生的王八蛋

我也想开心的生活，无忧的，面对多虑的人生

其母之! 其人者何乎如此‘这恶’也？

... again

recently don't know what happened to me

felt so tired~frustrated

even clicked on a FB application regarding 'what is your Stress Level'

=_____= |||

really silly me

clearly i know, what my problem is, i need C.O.L.O.R+F.U.N+H.A.P.P.Y

most of my time is 12 hour working, 7 hour sleeping, 5 hour personal

what i can do for this 5 hours?

i slack, i lie down on floor like worm (yup! :P), i sing, i mushrooming on my head

See, this is my life, big portion of it is working

so i think i get 'work virus'

it make me hate my job, and yet still doing that, and yes, it make me piss off & -ve thinking

don't like it that way

GOSH! i really need to live life, live my kinda life