why i can't make up my mind?

*Seriously, this is an emo article of me, it just a stress release and do not have any point of it (might be) *

i am the only person who most understand myself, suppose

i am the one who know what i need and want, suppose, too...

"Actually i want to leave, but yet i stay; actually is a lie, but i said it as true; actually cannot turn back anymore, but i still kept it"

what the he** i am thinking?

i bet next time i will just dump letter 'handsomely' can?

but of course, i know this cruel world, so i won't scrath off both side's face's skin la

Life is a cycle, where we need to responsible for what we do

what i mean is, we are the one who need to determine what is the best for ourselves, right?

indeed i hate it when Bunny told to my new clg: earn here is 4x compare to your country

where got 4x? you think outside world wages just 1k?

i think he got point of insulting, haha

but, 3years is more than enough for me, and yet it ruin my original plan

ok, perhaps i should not use the monetary toward study and as invest to property?

but wait, i don't have that much of $$$ la wei, don't think i am rich leh

ok, future plan need to change, that why it just call it 'plan' right?

just that fish is tired of swim back each month or catch up every reunion and farewell like never ending

tired of all this stuff, big bluff each days, meeting same group of people each days (is not friend, is job & those funny person)

anyhow i ever wake up at night figure out have i settle my job yet? silly right?

and i wish one day rain here and the flood fly me back to where i want to be :P

Seriously, felt like this life is taking away my hapiness :P