breathable life

change ba, instead of remain, you need to change, to achieve thing

i want everyday wake up will smell the taste of happiness, 'hang fuk', or great

even is sunny days or rainny day or borign day

because it was under the same sky with my loves, feel breathable

breathable sky, hahahaha

1st step 1st to get it :P

feeling great after all

you will getting more thing, because give always better than take

i am letting go $ to get RM

this is not stupid, but is honest to me, you, family and other

new life, new me --- awating me ahead

countdowning --- <50days:D

发现自己很颓废很失败

太久了，忘记自己为什么会在这里
是时候彻底面对自己的未来了
会在近期内，回魂
然后恢复bluefish的身份，回到马国
shan shan的新国，身边存了很多爱我关心我体谅我任性的人

为了长大，面对还有梦想
第一步很重要
其实在那里都无所谓，信念是很重要的
没有了，连活着是为了什么而奋斗都没了意义

我是不是太缺少安全感了

原来人被骗了一次，就很难再相信回

说过要坦诚相对却不能控制的情绪怀疑猜测

是要怎样现在？

之前就是毫无警讯的完全信任不理

怎知被告知原来这是忽略？

现在是要理还是不理

理，就讲被管

不理，就讲忽略

我看我还是要理时管，不理时不管

是你给的安全感太少，还是我不够聪明？

又或者，我太善良无条件的被利用？

为什么看似容易的东西，自己却很迷惑？

还是我应该自私一点，让你头痛我？哈哈哈哈

Ambition

To make myself clear enough, i have some questionaire to answer:

1. Who are you?
i am a little girl yet to become a women, who is quiet & nearly become a 'zai nv', but like to travel to gain knowledge, drawing to express feeling, photosnapper, love to be love & care by other, cry when sad, BIG laugh when happy

motivate other but demotivate ownself, follower, lead when needed

can cook can work (*pandai-nya)

LOVE him, indeed alot lot of

will support him to achieve what he want and succeed in life (this is very important cause will indirectly bring to my suceed in life :P)

want to spent on family, to improve their life, but they seem happy with current :(

2. What you want to achieve:
own career, own home, own love, own $$$, own happiness (*sound normal and no ambition)

3. Future?
have husband have kids have home, normal family, no need worry about $$$, do whatever i want, care whoever i love :P

Summarize:
sound i pretty clear of what i want and who i am, Yay! not yet losing myself, still tracable

least, want to become her successman's behind, the one and only's most VIP in life (at least must be balance up same line with human, not dog, hahaha!!!)

Fwd: 我要飞

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From: Bluey <bluefish_918@hotmail.com>
Date: June 1, 2011 12:36:58 PM GMT+08:00
To: "bluefish918.life@blogger.com" <bluefish918.life@blogger.com>
Subject: 我要飞





最近比较正常了 算一下 有一个多月了
发生一些事
人 其实很脆弱 也很不坚强
有些 会为了那没分的空头承诺 守候一辈子
有些 会一半放弃
面对问题 又想逃避
幸福是简单
但人总会往复杂的地方 迷失
一些人 忽然间 会变成 完全的另外的一个
生疏 心痛 害怕 恐惧 不能呼吸 什么都做不了
所以 一起 决定了 一些 决定
我也 是时候 放弃 一些 本应该 提早放手的
不属于我的 人生停留点
各位 我要回家了
心肝在等着宝贝回去