breathable life

change ba, instead of remain, you need to change, to achieve thing

i want everyday wake up will smell the taste of happiness, 'hang fuk', or great

even is sunny days or rainny day or borign day

because it was under the same sky with my loves, feel breathable

breathable sky, hahahaha

1st step 1st to get it :P

feeling great after all

you will getting more thing, because give always better than take

i am letting go $ to get RM

this is not stupid, but is honest to me, you, family and other

new life, new me --- awating me ahead

countdowning --- <50days:D

发现自己很颓废很失败

太久了，忘记自己为什么会在这里
是时候彻底面对自己的未来了
会在近期内，回魂
然后恢复bluefish的身份，回到马国
shan shan的新国，身边存了很多爱我关心我体谅我任性的人

为了长大，面对还有梦想
第一步很重要
其实在那里都无所谓，信念是很重要的
没有了，连活着是为了什么而奋斗都没了意义

我是不是太缺少安全感了

原来人被骗了一次，就很难再相信回

说过要坦诚相对却不能控制的情绪怀疑猜测

是要怎样现在？

之前就是毫无警讯的完全信任不理

怎知被告知原来这是忽略？

现在是要理还是不理

理，就讲被管

不理，就讲忽略

我看我还是要理时管，不理时不管

是你给的安全感太少，还是我不够聪明？

又或者，我太善良无条件的被利用？

为什么看似容易的东西，自己却很迷惑？

还是我应该自私一点，让你头痛我？哈哈哈哈

Ambition

To make myself clear enough, i have some questionaire to answer:

1. Who are you?
i am a little girl yet to become a women, who is quiet & nearly become a 'zai nv', but like to travel to gain knowledge, drawing to express feeling, photosnapper, love to be love & care by other, cry when sad, BIG laugh when happy

motivate other but demotivate ownself, follower, lead when needed

can cook can work (*pandai-nya)

LOVE him, indeed alot lot of

will support him to achieve what he want and succeed in life (this is very important cause will indirectly bring to my suceed in life :P)

want to spent on family, to improve their life, but they seem happy with current :(

2. What you want to achieve:
own career, own home, own love, own $$$, own happiness (*sound normal and no ambition)

3. Future?
have husband have kids have home, normal family, no need worry about $$$, do whatever i want, care whoever i love :P

Summarize:
sound i pretty clear of what i want and who i am, Yay! not yet losing myself, still tracable

least, want to become her successman's behind, the one and only's most VIP in life (at least must be balance up same line with human, not dog, hahaha!!!)

Fwd: 我要飞

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From: Bluey <bluefish_918@hotmail.com>
Date: June 1, 2011 12:36:58 PM GMT+08:00
To: "bluefish918.life@blogger.com" <bluefish918.life@blogger.com>
Subject: 我要飞





最近比较正常了 算一下 有一个多月了
发生一些事
人 其实很脆弱 也很不坚强
有些 会为了那没分的空头承诺 守候一辈子
有些 会一半放弃
面对问题 又想逃避
幸福是简单
但人总会往复杂的地方 迷失
一些人 忽然间 会变成 完全的另外的一个
生疏 心痛 害怕 恐惧 不能呼吸 什么都做不了
所以 一起 决定了 一些 决定
我也 是时候 放弃 一些 本应该 提早放手的
不属于我的 人生停留点
各位 我要回家了
心肝在等着宝贝回去

Not Yet Ready

i am so Not get into mood

please forgive my laziness of update my blog

Kathy's Wedding (Part 2, Food! & Surrounding)

i love India Cursine, alot of spices and nice fragrance, and very appetizer :)

It serve only with choice of coke/ orange soft drink

if have red wine will be perfect

Yummy buffet style

Nasi Beryani with the cracker (forget the name),Tandori chicken, Fish Fillet

Beef Rendang, Fake mutton gravy, vegetable gravy

nice ^^

i love this two type of vege gravy (that why i having twice :P)

i think this call 'BUBU-CHA CHA'

very strong constant milk and fresh milk taste

with Pinocchio nut and mango slice with sago serve

Than i have a quick walk of the surrounding area, inside room was decorated full of Arabia stylish lamp and wall picture

i love this lamp

so glassy & colurful :D

Food arrangement also very Indianian

See the outdoor on the next door? it was a swimming pool with 2.1metre deep, imagine having dinner out there will be so nicely, especially during sunset

See the room inside? is the dinner space in there

Door gift

The tea table decoration beside the entrance hall

tea table

is really square cusion with really Eastern style

the viewing from the top

outside the hall entrance

Overall? i love that vegetable gravy with that crispy cracker and those glassy lamp :D

Kathy's Wedding (Part 1, Congratulated Couple)

Forget to introduce,

Kathy was my clg, get to know her about 1+ or 2year ago.

She is Philippines Muslim, her husband, i think like India Bollywood

that why we have this sort of Indian+Muslim+Arabia style wedding invitation

at Landmark Village Hotel, Riverwalk Tandoor Restaurant for this Fine Indian crusine

*i love Spices, lot of fragrance* (Look forward for Part 2, is about the FOOD! and surrounding)

Bride change 2 set of wedding dress, she so beautiful & awesome

wish you have a marry life and happy always :)

会是乱想吗？

“我猜你变了”

“是不是太忙才忽略我”

“为什么你不会像一开始这样”

“以前你会哄我开心”

“不如我变成你的手机”

“为什么每次打给你都会一直通到断线没人接”

“不如我变成你的电脑”

“我想变成你家的小狗还比较幸福”

“ 我已经不想再在细心了”

“好像自私会没酱痛”

“为什么有你好像没有一样”

“其实是不是我钻牛角”

“除非我的感觉出卖我”

“相信好像不太能信”

“为什么会这样”

“我为什么会变成这样”

“其实有未来是假的”

“回忆太少了”

“干嘛好像永远都不够”

“为什么我猜不到你在想什么了”

“是不是没有缘分”

其实还有很多，是你把我变成霸道的

人如果分开太远太久，心与脑还会黏在一起，是假的

是不是用完了，面对面也好像很远

期待都会变成失望，然后生气，过后绝望，剩下的是没有灵魂的驱壳

在期望你变回来的同时，我也希望我能变回去

"Sampat"

"SAMPAT" mean- boring, waste of time making Huu-Haa around busy people, not valuable, not sense of appreciation

funny, i have alot 'Sampat' friend, but we are nice

i have alot 'Sampat' client, but most of them are bad

Today it happend to be 'So-Not-My-Day-Seriously' !!!

i was so NOT into reporting/ complaining my job in my blog, but this time really must split it out!

Singapore legally, you can hire Foreign Domestic Worker-so call 'maid'

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here is a funny story base on true experience:

A said B work for them for 3 weeks, unfortunately on the 3rd week bring her for a hair cut, sakib stylist said B got lice's egg.

So A very angry call to the employment agency to question this issue. A said employment agent should MAKE SURE B is totally free of hair lice, double check before handover.

A want a clear answer regarding 'how if my kid get influent to lice too, who will bare the responsibility?' if A not get a 'happy' answer, he threaten that will make it a BIG HUUUUUU-HAAAAAAA toward media

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here is the question (as me, a writer, to you, a reader):

1. B work for A coming to 4 weeks time, have wash her hair frequent (claim by A's wife, but A deny said he cannot confirm B truly wash or not, or lie)

2. if the lice get thru this employment agency, how come need to wait until 3 week only hatching egg? (so, i take this as an alien's lice's egg)

3. if you buy a electric equipment, or house, or other thing, even a piece of pork from a butcher, is the buyer need to verify the condition/ quality or the seller? (don't simply said you don't know, because you was a educated consumer, especially in here)

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MORAL of the Story?

If you want to hire a worker, and you need to be prepare the worker will runaway some time in future, most of the time is not related of ill-treat of employer, is because they are tired, you cannot blame anyone regarding this issue

if you really want a worker, all the problem should not be consider, because once it happend, you will know it, and you already be prepared (mentally) and you face it (financially & physically)

maybe you just said this as a wonderful 'AAARRRGGGHHH! bird shit all time and kena me this time' !!! Fxxx & Sxxx @#$%^& !!!

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My answer is :

"SO SORRY, I NEED TO TELL YOU, IS NOT EVEN WHO'S FALSE, BLAMING, IS A BIG NO NO, BIRD SHIT ON YOU THIS TIME!"

"who need to bare for that responsible? B, because she never take care own cleanliness well"

"ok lo, you claim you are not a 无理取闹 person, than who was?"

Seriously, is not my day, ok, bird shit everywhere -_____-!!!

normal, lamron

Recently nothing to update, cause it was like couldn't be more normal than now. Normal as in: wake up, shower, work, follow by work again, dinner, work, bath, sleep. Have google my title "NORMAL" adversing "LAMRON". Meaning "The act of being adnormal, excuding abnormalities, breaking the status quo". What the @#$%^&*. Resignation news spreed out fast, in here (company). News will be faster as u couldn't imagine. :P. But i not yet tender letter. Same time, alot advise me not to resign. Is it the market really that bad now? Scared me cannot find another job? Reason? Just tired. That's all. 我可以有很多理由留下. 但是要走的原因只有一个，就是再也不能压低底线来让你们无理的轰炸. 幸福，是可以很简单. 但我却找不到。

’显’

最近我真的超废的

身边的人，总好像很灰，很忙，很累，很痛，很苦，很笨

时间很多，想做的事太多，没能做，因为那时间不属于我的

可是有个人，时间太少，想做的事太多，没能做，因为一天也只有那么的一个

我很‘显’，酱下去我应该会无聊到爆

其实，我不喜欢这样的自己

感觉很不实际

我。。。果真是个米虫，在浪费生命

我。。。又再一次，找不到自己，唉。。。

de BALI

Initially, i was thinking each year at least go for one country

back packing, budget, free & easy

Arrggghhhh~miss those Taiwan time with Carol, stupid 2 silly little girl 2 year back ago :D hee~hee

Last year? i think Batam, Indonesia can consider once, if die die want to count in :D

and Universal Studio, Singapore too count as 1 :P

~B.A.L.I 2011 ?~

MISSION: spent less & play full ;)

OK, let's make it real ba, here was some assignments. Arrrggeehhh! miss my Uni time :(

Step 1: (consider 4P in marketing :P, lecturer, i still remember leh)

Person- check!

Place- Ubud, Kuta, Bali

Price- budget, free & easy, flexi

Product- TOUR! hee~hee~

Step 2:

Ticket & Hotel booking - done!

Step 3:

Print out map & highlight attraction - check!

Step 4:

Information-Tour guide, Restaurant, Transport detail, entrance fee - pending

Step 5:

Final Schedule & Mood preparation- still on the go ....

p/s: Thing to do: Snap as much photo as i could, snap snap snap, wee~ Travel just nice, life couldn't better than this, hahaha

unbalanced life

like 金卓求 & 楊美順 at my previous blog (love, bread and dream)

hehe, they at last be together

i like those relationship: serious and playful at the same time

where they will make funny, bully and sayang each other, just sweet for me :D

ok, is simple a update post, remember, please flower me with love :P

p/s: off tomorrow!

p/s2:going to have a own cook healthy diety meal, a beauty long day sleep, mask, nail mani-padi, and watch my favourite show "Running Man", hmm...life will not better than this. Ever!!! haha...

THIS IS MINE!!!

ok, i am part of Apple now

i have my ipod shuffle and now i have my iphone :)

i not even go to shop and Q like @#$%^& long to wait for it

i do it by online purchase, of course, with sign up a mobile line

Step 1: Log on to local mobile communication website

and select the electronic device you want

See that 'click to chat'?

you actually can chat with the technical support for query

They will reply you promptly as like when u do msn with your friend

step 2: you may select type of line you wish and phone storage you want

after you register it mentioned that they need '3 working days' to process

surprisingly, they call me the next day whether to confirm this deal, select phone number

i was doubting about the payment, they told me 'upon delivery'

totally very fast, fast and FAST, i should said is EFFICIENCY!

step 3: wait your phone to come, wait wait wait

the next day i already have my iphone delivered to me FOC!

yup! the delivery is free, and you just need to pay for the so call upfront phone price when u collect your phone on the spot

the courier deliver carry a portable visa/master machine with them

Cool, as i first time do this kinda online purchase especially apple product leh...hahaha

TA-DA-DA! this is mine

This is all the thing inside this tiny box

Guide book

Sim lock

USB socket, USB cable and earpieces

i like this earpieces, it have a really good sound

different like Sony

but i like both, Sony & iphone, music sound is super awesome nice!

Sim adapter

Micro Sim, yup! you need to install this to your iphone using the sim lock

here is it, can i name my iphone a name?

step 4: activate your phone

install the micro sim, follow the instruction manual to activate the card

to activate the phone, you need to use your USB cable connect to your pc/laptop, download itune

and follow the simple registration

and you can go to online appstore in itune both using your pc, download and sync to your iphone

alternatively you may use your iphone to download the app (but i think i bit slow)

step 5: fun with your phone

now, is a routine for me to play the app in the phone until the battery is totally empty only i will stop and went to bed, hahaha

p/s: yup! thing happend fast and like magic! hehehe

p/s 2:faster go and get yours, i am not advertise it, but everyone really should have a smart phone, if you really afford it, really useful :D

幸福。时间

那么久，那么久了，我忘记我的幸福摆在哪？

可能心已经麻木不堪，才会把那熟悉的感觉忘了

身体累了不及心的累

“时间就像一张网，你撒在哪里，收获就在那里”

当然如果已确定那个地方没有你要的鱼了，就要换地点了

所以呀，我现在要学会聪明和自私，把我幸福的感觉找回

人啊，活着没有幸福，是很悲哀的

p/s: 快乐可以很容易很简单，只要你有一颗‘活’着的心，喝一杯水就可以很幸福了，所以大家都要珍惜快乐哦 :)

Funny

i think i become crazy liao

have you ever work continue without stopping your mind to think of way to solve problem

and the problem arrise one after the other

or one or two at the same time?

cannot imagine?

put it this way, think like "IP MAN, give me 10" "叶问，给我十个"

i not so clever, i just fight continuously 6 customer, haha

oh ya, just want to share with, saw this on FB posting :D

云顶的风水让所有的赌徒都输定的。KL到云顶，车的时速是58（不发）。 要经过清水岩（清完所有的水/钱），后来赌徒抗议，改成蓬莱仙境。 其实还是一样的。要‘奉来’、要‘献进’ 要经过Awana（啊！完啦!）Gotong Jaya ( 梧桐成功)，genting highland（肯定害人），resort（勒索），第一世界（地狱世界)

don't know who make such big joke :P

面包王 金卓求 Bread, Love & Dream

haha, i am busy lately, recently keep 加班

as in i addicted to a drama show, hehe

love the title of 'Bread, Love & Dream', not even your life can absent one of it

Story start with:

70年代面包富商开创 ‘巨城’ 为名，富商具一中与老婆徐仁淑生了连续2女，老夫人重男轻女。

具一中与女佣保姆金美顺情不自禁发生一夜情，怀了私生子金卓求

徐仁淑得知后便买通昔日情人韩室长，让金美顺堕胎，可让她逃离，一人努力养活金卓求，辛苦可幸福快乐，开朗

徐仁淑为让老夫人抱男孙，加强地位，不惜于情夫韩室长通奸，怀有一子具马俊，下令追杀金美顺母子

结果，承续者具马俊其实是别人的孩子，而自己正统私生子却身无名分

12年后重逢，具一中与金美顺相见并于金卓求相认，徐仁淑不满丈夫，下令追杀金美顺母子。

金卓求被迫与母分离，12年过着寻母的生活，并激发面包学，与小时青梅竹马申侑京相认

具马俊过宠于母，高傲。为了的到具一中的认同，不惜认命学做面包，遇见昔日小时12岁见面的异母异父的哥哥金卓求，和八峰面包店具一中的师傅的孙女杨美顺

具一中寻找多年，终于盼见了金美顺与金卓求，要纳入族谱，徐仁淑担心儿子地位不保，与具一中争‘巨城’

具马俊不忿从小样样不比金卓求，具一中与八峰老师傅较欣赏金卓求奋斗不放弃开朗精神，不管‘巨城’，申侑京都要抢到手

当然少不了韩室长听命于徐仁淑，不断陷害金卓求于死地，可徐仁淑最终爱的是具一中

还有甜蜜痛苦的爱情 :P

金卓求，尹施允 饰

具馬俊，朱元 饰

楊美順，李英雅 饰

申侑京，柳真 饰

ok, typing chinese is really hard for me

so i give up, but it really a good plot even it don't have a fancy story line, but it true have the classical drama item: family secret, fight, love, money, smart brain

at the end? i think most likely good guy will win everything and forgive bad guy

cause me now still on the way, ep12 :P

listen said got total ep40 leh

and, i do love to have a ending where 楊美順 & 金卓求 be together

cause it both look really 'sampat' rather than 'serious' 申侑京 & 具馬俊

why not? drama make me free of mind :D