shall i rest? 0.o

Yesterdat spending 2 hour typing for my thesis, the results was i nearly fight 2 page for that...sound proud of myself but actually wasting of time...but i manage to feel something like, i m back or i finally can blurly find my track of the day...haha

and i discover something meaningfull and not pointless words, that actually make myself proud:

Morning is God Way of Saying:

One more time, Live Life.

Make a Different,

Touch One heart.

Encourange One Mind,

Inspire One Soul.

But Night is LPQ Way of Saying:

Dark is Coming,

Doesn't let life stop.

Is time to have a GOOD REST,

So can fight for better morning!

Ha Ha Ha!!!

Besides, a friend so down cause all the thing not happend acording to plan...everyone not like that to happend. Since we like to wonder of " if one day xxx will happend?", wondering for tomorrow is never end, so why not use the time doing something that usefull or at least can make own feel better, rather than wasting time wondering? Future cannot predict, because it is too much uncertainty.

I use to plan my time and life, but discover that everytime suffer disappointed when thing not happend acording to what i plan. i told myself i am expecting too much.So now, i not like to plan, even planning for me, is just a roughly plan. A simple and not detail plan can make me feel better in dealing with uncertainty if the thing not happend like what i plan. So, i choose to become flexible and linear, like teacher said when in school, plastic ruler is flexible, can bend the shape when you need...

And i recover that i become more and more selfish, and centralize. i use to be a good and nice and helpfull person, offer anything they want, without caring is tat hurting me or not? But i discover that this is a world full of alot of mankind. be a nice person, doesn't mean that people will appreciate.instead, they trying to misunderstand all the thing in negetive way.backstap me.what are their brain make from??so instead, i becom more selfish person, and centralize, and self defent. To protect myself to be harm from other. I can do thing own, you do yours. as long as u do in your area, just don't over area until my space. so i will let you alone, and just live me alone.