my school is @#$% >-*

buses need wait, lunch dinner need wait, use cicit need wait, wifi need wait...i know the world is make to wait, but, buses wait, and not enough space to sit even to stand or even to go inside; lunch dinner wait, but not enough,is not tasty is not delicious at all, and is not for normal ppl eat, i am very easy contented,like tat also feel suck! see, how suck was the condition is?cict har?in malaysia book record,slow and yet cannot loading of the page,not enough pc, wait here and ther and yet cant get 1; wifi?altot wan make whole campus like a wireless broadband place, pls la,update abit, spent more abit,make more quality la,cannot access u lauch for wat? some more charge hundred something for student to use the suck facilities, all the blood sucker!
i been rather pay money for all the good facilities,rather than u give it free but cannot use at all.wat for?wasting every1's spirit and money only...SUCK !!!

cry like the baby sky

a fren said she like to cry,use to cry, but duno why now stop crying d, so she feel san fu...
another fren keep crying, until duno wat she cry for, so she wan stop crying,cz feel san fu...

act me either, long time not cry d.lastime i cry because kek sim, swear not to cry after 20s time, but now duno n time liao because of the stupig idiot,haih,so silly,act man not longer sked when a women cry,because they are weird.so girl, stop crying for a man,is not worthy,yes,not worthy,he will not appreciate,and yet will hurt you again,indirectly,again and again...

wind blow so fierce,so sked...but dun be expected,on a guy,jz be fair to ownself,no body worth an "i love you" more den own.but i will also accept if u wan to tell me,haha

sigh...i really duno myself either, so grey and blue now,jz like the weather, haha...i feel like wan eat sushi now,long time no eat a GOOD sushi d

to all of you,wish everything will come true,may god bless you...

green sunday

sunday, a happy and lazy and creppy day
wake up and plan to havng lunch, rainning, so so big...2nd time accident bang with a good van.Lucky just some injury of the car, but think deeply if abit slowly in the path, if taking motorbike,i think i m really shit that time,and he will also more sui siao then now...now the car went to hospital, but my heart still pik pok pik pok jumpy jumpy

~...miss...~

Thinking the time if i am alone, i just discover i got a lot of free time leave for my own, for my self, for own space, if without anyone else besides me around...around...around....i miss when i am cheers, i miss when i being protect, i miss when i being concern by other, i miss being hug, i miss...
i think i should never put so many time on other, i think i should put more concern into my self, make me cheer always, happy always, joy always, without any worries. Last night i have alot of dream, very smash, very pieces and pieces, very blur and untidy, very don's know what to do, who to call, where to run, so it make me brave and face every thing by myself, concern other, protect other, by using my own hand...
i am so BLUE today, if there are 50% of my room full of water, i think i am in the place of 0.05% down on the bottom. know who appear in my mind now?

strunk and white's element of style

recently i feel so miss direction, so tui fei and tuo luo...are my life enthusiasm jz toward drama?..yesterday i eat bakchang, my dear darling say my bakchang got open stall so he buy me...i saw some ants in my room, they also like miss direction, walk here and there like don't know where wan to go and what want to do...just like me...sigh...
can someone tell me what related between strunk and white's element of style link with electronic and communication?...argh,kek sim r...what's wrong with me?i feel so alone,may be i need friend, i feel so long time no see him,but than jz couple day before, what happend to me?!?
look like i need find something new in my life, activities, friend, game, anything may be...jia you lpq, life is full of colour and energy, just depend how you decorate them...GO GO GO!!!

Trust and believe

wat a day...jz to attend 1hour class.like bee bumble around ear,cannot listen clear,cannot remember well..."did trust same as believe?"...he said believe is giving whole your heart, but trust is not...well,i do not know...feeling abit adnormal,is it my life is jz about movie?iz tat is all?...so funny...what my life is?...what my life was?...huan zu life is more colorful comepare blue fish...cannot,mz live more colorful den him,so he will envy...girl like to know d love 1 being suffer because of she,she will happy...sound weird right?...but is not...becuase when she know there are someone who willing to suffer for her,she feel xinfu and sweet in heart...haha...every girl is same la...when fall in love trap...guy?...hmm...odd and strange and logic mechanic brain thinking...can anyone tell me what is "strunk and white's elements of style relevant to electronic marketing and communication?"...teh say cheong ar teh say cheong...i m very boring n tuo luo...pull me up from the water to outside air...

Today i am very happy, feel abit relief, course my lec finally come and visit me d,haha...act is not my lec la, is other course lec, he say i m pass leh...hopefully la
so,i m here to thanks especially to my Pek Pek, he help me alot when the lec interview my" supervisor", and my dad, he very sked to meet my lec, hehe, but he an pai me to "work" here for him,and paiseh to my mum oso, she not dare to eat when hear my lec wan come,haha...
Well, hope he not come and visit me again la, since he got ask me do my internship until when...and thanks again to my pek pek,cz lec ask him i got ponteng o not, he say no la.haha, but the reality i like holiday everyday, acompany my family almost 2 month liao...hehe...
phew~lpq free abit d,hehe

Happy Bak Chang Day

Today is "bak chang" day...i eat alot of bak chang...and since alot people forget why we eat bakchang, so i m here to share a real history of china,the history of bakchang...

Bak chang is use to remember china dinasti "da chen" name " Qu Yuan"..."Qu Yuan" is a very clever and helpful "da chen",always give the "china king" briliant idea to rule the kingdom....DA DA DA DA...day by day,the castle added more briliant and bad person, there is a person,very very very bad,tat china king use to trust him very very very muc compare to Qu Yuan...So,day by day, the China King begin to forget Qu Yuan, and always listen to this bad da chen's idea...This bad da chen wan to "xian hai" the china king,to steal away his kingdom, so, he make alot of delicios food, that add alot of sugar, make it sweet sweet. ya la, as we know, eat more sweet can cause us lazy ma...so this china king become lazy to rule his kingdom...Qu Yuan very sad...he tell the china king " you cannot eat sweet,must eat abit of salt everyday"...but this lazy china king refuse, he say to Qu Yuan, that Qu Yuan is bad guy, want to steal his kingdom..of course,is the bad da chen's idea...Qu Yuan very sad, the king he use to pay for his whole life royalty is misunderstanding him,so sad so sad...The king not understand him,he feel very sad and sorry to the people,bacause cannot wake stupid king up from the control of the bad da chen...so he jumpy into the river commit suicide...so,he die...the china people is very angry the lauzy and stupid king, they also feel sad cause lost a clever and loyalty da chen...so they make "bak chang",throw into the river,hope the fish dun eat Qu Yuan body...and the guy take the dragon boat, row row row on the river,hope can "lau" and get Qu Yuan body...

So,this story pas pas pas so many year, and become to day's " bak chang day" and during this "bak chang"festival, got dragon boat competition held in Penang, also include international competition invite Thailand, Singapore, Indonesia, German, so on so on...see,Qu Yuan so "wei da"...we must proud of him...

wat a b o r i n g day..

wakeup 10.05am feel s u c k!!!
streamxy damn s l o w forget my c i m b password+id can't reload my t m net
he say his ama n a g g i n g now eating c h i c k e n rice miss my 1 9 3 4 r so muc
feeling abit " t h i n g not go s m o o t h "
ama is making bak chang d...hehehe...but lpq prefer 113 bakchang, if +delivery feel more nicer.kakaka.yesterday get result.old ppl not understand is noting about 4.00.all stupid idiot.blzw duno wan to do wat today.me either.F day seem like nothing day for family.culture not same,thinking not same,everything not same.hard to communicate sometime."yi qie jing zai bu yan zhong" la...madam yeoh calling lunch d,sound like must taking this order...anywhere.if u today got dota,u shud check ur mail d,u mail got alot alot alot msg i think.cz mine also same, dam lot from peltac.haha...blzw mb shud come out an idea for the sae program lo,leader teh??well,sound like slzw oso mus come out idea about the logo and the slogan lao..#@~!&%^* &%$ wat a lauzzzzzy day....if jb now,sure run out watch muvie enjoy spending aircond eat nice2 and sleep sweet beside some1,hehe...gogogolpq...cheers...

try not so stupid,about everything he use to told me,friend always advise me.But i use to believe blindly everyword he use to say or write.Friend say this is slowly suicide,when wan to save the life,bo body will help me,include myself...haha,this line,i totally believe.
today is another new week,i started to ask him something,after he bzing weekend,sked he said me add mafan at his bz time.although he givind answer,but kind of not my type.anywhere,like usual,i accept wat he say.
today is another new week,two huankat customer come and go,empty hand.
"he today sure walk and stand whole day,again" this morning wake up i told myself.it do happend,i am happy for my correct guessing,so i reward myself with an internet afternun...
he not like me to guess.but he dun understand,i always guessing and predicting,because i am sked.and he not like me to sked,and yet cannot stop and help me stop guessing.cause everytime he just will answer me in cold manner"dun think too muc la.."14alphebet wan me to stop thinking,kind of hard leh tsc.but nvm,i not blame him,cz he dunno wat the punca making me guess guess guess(i think that y he not like me watch guess,hahhaa)
i not like to go find him,becuase"cz ur lgc no transport ma".altough i like to do so.it make me kind of not fair.
while,i think i am kind of unbalance.and maybe not a good lover.but i am sure although he is "experienceS",but suck den me,haha.and he always make dumb.feel like i am walking and he is slowing cing around dunno wan to do wat,and i m stand far infront him,yelling at him,and he smile at me,waving hand.i duno wat he think,he duno wat i think.This is wat make me thinking,this is wat causing u always tell me"dun think too muc la"
and i am always telling u something that not"surface",tat is not"good from outside but inside empty".but he always make fool when i tell him,say me stupid.
and yet,hehe,i am "stupid".that y i now i m lgc' lpc

stop acting like this.let me tell you wat is goiong on,the time v spent togther is meaningless.u keep wan more space for yor own,more space with your friend,more this more that,hope me understand,hope me do this hope me do that,u spent ur time playing game,doing gym,study,planning acivities,planning your xtra time.y not you try n understanding me that y i need more time from you,is not you keep want me understanding that u wan more private time form me.ifevery weekend is happend like this,is meaningless,time spent 2gether meaningless mean staying together is meaningless at that point.did you understand.if thing keep like this,i not wish to come n see you forcing yourself spenting those time for me that is meaningless.i more prefer previously that every weekend that got meaning to memory,unlike now,u make me feel that we staying together is meaningless.

Don't know since when i stop coming this web page,but now coming again.i guess only if i m really happy so i will forget all the unhappy...but now,mab thing not happend as my inspiration,that y i m here...
now i feel really tired and hopeless and energyless and breathless...i m not mean to add ur burden,is really not...i though u know y i actin gso,but u don't...i feel i being treaten,i feel so dangerous,and so unsecure,untrustable to you,you are the causes of make me unsecureable.me now duo't know still want to continue or not,i feel this relationship so fragile,so cant being test...
i know if i let go,you will not do anytghing,even say nothing to rescue it...
mayb i just not tough enuf to let go.or mb just wif one of your word can make a change,but i know,you even wan to do just a single minimum try to grab my loose hand...
if can,i just donwan it to be happend...

i really hate you right now.
you always do thing without understanding my condition. And you keep expecting me to do this and that, but you never fullfill the expectation to me...
the thing happend today is not just today only...example,you don't like me show yuo that kind stupid face, same as me, i don't wish to see any stupid gong2 face in you, how you feel, what in you mind, you can just tell me, you never think of sharing, everything keeping just in you?is that a thing a sucessman do meh?
2nd, you keep telling me that must understanding in you, must encourange and support you. but y don't you do thing using you time effeectively and wisely, if got something not understand, find out find the fastest way la,keep wasting time. Game is not the thing you do when you got time.
After you seperate half of you in another sector, you keep ignoring me! d0 thing never consider about my feeling, truly.
3rd, is not i baudering you in doing all the thing you want.But you keep ignore me, keep careless in me! since when you have change until like that? the time you give me already reduce and reduce and yet reducing...and me already try very hard not to care bout the time that you can give to me, but can you plz don't waste any time that can spent with me?
sometime i really feel that what i do you really not care at all, not appreciate the sacrify i had make for...i really doubt about the thing you say, that sentence about " i really love you very much, much more than you can feel"...what else that i can feel?

long time not drop here d...almost a year d this board acompany...suppose you know more about...understand...more...
today is 06 oktober 2006 8:26pm,time fly so fast...sad,happy sour,sweet,everything...almost try all in a semester...don't know why,he make her feel so uncertain,unpredictable...mayb stick too much d she think,but she still cant manage to get use when he is not around...time pass,he want and more understanding from her,she think this is reasonable,silently support him,however thing like getting more worst and blur,how to say,he seldomly get to know welll what actually she need,she want,she care...is she change?or he?is it being stable?or not?getting good?or bad?
honestly say,she think too much?or just make every thing simple,understanding make her suffer,and yet he is not understanding enough toward her understanding to him.......
it is not all about giving and receiving,sacrify and getting back...is all about considerating and understanding...
big man hope small lady nonstop to support,care him...small lady hope she nonstop in sayanging and sweetlove living happy ever after...the way of communicating is a problem,she hope he can help her,help himself,help this relationship.and yet he don't know how to help,accidentally make thing worst...

i don't wish everything getting bad and bad...

...lIfE Isn't smOOth As yOU thInk...

Life?wat is that?it not happend,wat u think not happend,wat u xpect not happend,wat you wan never happend,wat you hope never happend,wat you wish never don't know when can realise...
sometime you make me duno wat to do,sometime you really treat me so nice,treat me so warm,treat me so sweet,make me wan yi lai i n you...but sometime yuo really treat me so wierd,mayb jz myself sensitive,mayb i look myself inside you more important den you are,the caring manner can change to careless,ignorent,coldness,even not paying attention when we are spenting time together...
i feel like you not longer appreciate what i have done for you,mayb i do many so many thing until you already ba for all the thing i do for you...you not longer hug me in your arm,you not longer care me how i feel what i feel when i need you to be by myside,you not longer apreciate with my understanding and xpecting more n more,sometime i really wish that time would not fly so fast,perhaps i m more happy when the time we use to be together,before...y i have such feeling...
sometime really sad when think about this,it make my tear come down when i write this,i really hope that you can read this(but i think you don't know,cz you still sleep like pig),may b,perhaps you don't know,mayb i shoud send to your mail...

today is my birthday,yesterday lgc bring me go buffey o,eat till v 2 stomuch big big,hehe.(tat stupid idiot eat till like having a baby liao.)
chung ling also celebrate with me,but seem like me more xpert compare to them,they cant manage to play me,hahaha,but abit diappoited lo,lgc cnt with me...duno monday he got come n find me not?
to day 1030 cm gona celebrate,gofi tell me not hav present,but got a big surprise,really surprise leh,c my own lgc taking a birthday cake 4 me,really wan hug him n kiss him tat movement...i tough will hav a bday hug,duno he such a bit idiot la,haha,stand still still duno what to do like a puppet...lgc r,u rmb o not?lpc got tell u,i m with you all the time,so u can come n find me,whenever wherever whatever happen and you are,next time anyting happend don't jz do noting stand still2 k?
actually lpc really seriously happy to c u just now,if ltr can hear from you sure be wonderful,look forward to your bday surprise?lpc make it bigger like a boom,k?i know you like a surprise,me too like a surprise,but surprise that arange by you own n by other is not same ma,rite?n different surprise happend different timing ma,k?
ltr tmb sleep early ya,do you love me.yala,i sure wan ask every day la,cannot meh?u rmb drink lot water k?bbgal love u many many much,u shold know tat v3ry clear,rite?

hmm...yesterday so tired,but still manage to listen the thing he wan share with me,hehe,lucky be can be with him share the thing he wan to say 1st minute 1thinking 1person,that is me..hehe
but,the boss tell him i m d one who make him success and cause him down..huh,haih..duno,m i so super meh??i jz one of the element of his life lo...don't woprry,i m not going to stop wat ever u are going to do,as long as you happy,as long as you still remember you have me!...c,i m so ez contented person nia,so no demand...LOVE,is true,is not all about romantic,gain and lose,is aboutacptance of all that is,has been,will be,and not will be...peace is seeing a sunset and knowing who to thank and appreciate..cause the happiest people don't have the best in the world,but they just make the best with all the thing they best,so they have the best!...
i know,start from 0 is far far more than 'hard'...considerate and understanding can be the main to support...sometime i wonder i have this both or nt?did i?sometime i think i m farly not enough understanding for him...just tell if there are some place to add on,dun let me alone mong seng seng at there,k?

love u.

time 7:41pm weather:mizing him
make sense if keep give lot time 4 u 2 do all the thing that 4 yourown good?after sacrify yourself to fullfill his dream?like him love him want him need him,so gotta let him go?(hmm...auther of book say 1,hm...not deny it)

wah...so many homework o...i can predict wat lgc wana tell me if i complain this with him.."who tell you don't want to do?"...or..."do now la,don't waste time anymore"...or...

if i tired,can i lie in your hug?

now time 7:29pm,jz finish read couple page my book...hehe,jz now wan do my fm homework 1,sorry o(lgc tell me mz do alot hmwrk la,cz i eat a lot magi jz now...)^-^
now eye stop at d crystal u bid 4 me....stupidear use rm6 2 bid it 4 me,after i say pretty he ask me like it not=)...)thanks ya,use left 2nd finger touch it,feel very cold,hehe,cz i put it lot water,from the paip..=p
RealPlayer:track6 7:32pm...room very queit,ur hm go out d,leave ur pity lpc alone here,got fan sound,got keyboard sound,got justin song...same time,i miss you so m u c h m u c h . . .
"Do you love me?" "why you love me?" i use to ask you,i also don't know y,gal always do silly thing,jz like me,hope to get a certain answer,from a very clear yet blur question..."you say leh..."you use to answer me like that...
wat is love?you feel not secure when not hear from him.wat is love?you feel uncomfordtable when you don't know where are him.wat is love?smell lonely when can feel him.wat is love?i know wat is love...some sort like wana die,when time is without you...

^h a p p y n a t i o n a l d a y^

merdeka,1st time can so happy...lgc bring lpc tp c firework in danga bay,hehe,gofi need wait one day to back home,i fast fast tok can happy happy play go kai kai with my dear dear lo after test...after goin back change n eat,v finally reach there d...got a very good policewomen(lgc say 1 lo,hehe),ask 4 direction...we walk..chat...laugh...eat 'mang jiang kuih'...but 'chipmore'...play boat(yeah~lpc like sam pa lau,never play b4)...can c fire work later,on d lake,with d paradel boat,n of course with my lag(is lgc idea la,he say can c firework up there near near mz b fun 1..hehe)...so i take my 1st paradel boat,with my lgc...EH,got fish leh..WAH,d fish can fly leh,wah,n fly inside our boat...
finally,the firework...eh,wait a minute,y so small n so far..(lgc very disappointed le...)and then got a fire work at land site,wah firework nearer and nearer lpc...so happy,altot so small but me ald so happy d....
suddenly,we hear a huge sound,come from a very near,when v still playing with that fish flying into our boat jz...WOW..lgc,i cant believe it,is a firework,fall rite infront my eye,so sos ososososososoososo big,so huge,so round,more more more beautiful,coming up next,side...so so like huge mushroon in d sky,and become tiny tiny star(act is fire bug)fall down like a snow rain,so beautiful....and "PING PANG PING PANG",i watch till lying on my life jacket,lgc even sked me fall into d water,i like him so much when he holding me tide tide ^-^...but d fire snow become bigger when d fire work become bigger,n drop into the water(damn d person say at the other side,where got,no side,is up side!)...RUN,lgc,lpc very sked leh tiny2 fire fall into boat...
haha,finally finish d firework d...wah really amazing,d big mushroom fall rite infornt my eye,one den one time nearer and nearer....2day is d wonderful day,i m d most xinfu small lady in d world,i have my big man beside me,we do many thing together,n 4 d 1st time,,,,merdeka,i love you so much...