sometime i just cannot understand, the are a man kind of creature, if people not follow what they want, they will not happy. they tot they are god of everything, wan to control everything. if like tat, why not everything just do it by own, why u need other people sumore?

life very busy, living in it feel so cannot breath. sometime just need to face alot of people, but they are not understand in you. Sometime there are people who like to order around, stated clear that is out of her/his business, but still wan to control everything, everyone have own job description, doesn't mean that you cannot give idea of thing, but mean once you give the authority to other people, you just need to trust them, if they are wrong, u give idea, if not just follow them.
you are who?if want every thing to do like the way you want, the person you need is a person who do the job as what you order to, what in your mind. but that one is not me.

usm

Just finish my report, sit totally more than 2 hour jz to type it out, really cant understand where is the point I doing such thing until finger pain of typing…
Today I saw USM bus in UTM, basically I should feel ‘got home’ when say plat start with P, but the 1st thing flash in my mind, was another thing.
USM make me think of a girl, that I still feel sorry to her until now… That is why I ask u what u feels if u saw the bus? I wonder she still contact you, this make me think that if one day the situation happened to me, do you still will remember me?still will contact me?or still will think of me? Think of her if she contact u, I will abit not hapi.
i wonder how are we if one day long distant, I not like tat kind of relationship. I wonder why ppl can survive one week not contact each other. But I just know I cant tahan tat kind of feeling…
iz giv wat she wan is being nice to her? But someone said that guys prefer accompany her, but if cant make it, give what she wan is the only way.but sometime is not can or cannot, is wan to not.
Tat day watch something, make me know something, guys keep wan a gf that can understanding him, but act guy is very easy to understand, but jz duno y sometime thing is not hard to understand, but hard to make understanding…
but now i learn to think hapi thing rather remember not hapi thing...but still hard to forget all the thing that have done...i think i m evil and guilty

...Last night i have a lot of nightmare, i dream of "PSM" drop on my head, all my assignment paper become mushmaro and jumpy jumpy on my desk i can't wait to chew them up, and i break up with my dear darling liao...may be recently got too much pressure from my academic..yiks...i don't like assignment discussion report assignment discussion report and TEST, keep repeat and repeating...

just now surf to sakae sushi's web page, rm16.80++ weekday from 3pm-6pm, but i think got lunch and dinner buffet,people say suki not bad, some say tei sushi also...i think will much more better compare to sushi king...kakaka i think i need to depress liao, cause my brain started to stuck already...i need fresh air for my entire new idea for my project..y-e-a-r-k~~i still can feel my mouth so tasteless after recover from my sickness...steamboat,wakaka,so bad, timing is not good enough, i like food i want fun, i can't just every minute thinking about those paper work, that will make me crazy, break break break,just give me a break i will come back soon k...

maybe i need a new hair style, thinking want to cut it and make my hair curly but messy, look more trendly and pretty smart and yet cute and stubborn head..haha,just like my style...

i want go out and play, i can't live just facing all the paper and typing "formal" thing all day long...feel so stuck and suck!where is my buddy!!! hey buddy i need you, where are you???

today i invent a new theory, call " want simplify complicated stuff, but in the end will mess it into more complicated" the right ways is just open one eye and close one eye, remain all the thing as it normal(actually like this is ad normal, like kinda complicated relationship)...perhaps it will back to normal automatically,who knows?

a bonding trip eee-eark

i experience an ok, jz ok bonding trip this year, act is juz a boding trip, why d yong tau fu wan make it so serious? activities no pack enuf, tentatif not follow goood enough...bla bla bla...y she cant learn wat is fleaxible,is jus a relax trip, what she thinking?wan make it like a trainning camp?
"previouslu previously previosly"keep compare previously, but y not learn from pass and make all the accident keep renew and renew...so so not understand...
and after complaint this is a LUXURY trip, wat wat wat already 35 + hep sponshor bus and budget 300...den why u still eat over 10 chinken wing and yell not enuf?sumore tapao back all the rambutan? like san pa lao...sam pat!
without her will be more enjoyable...hahaha..everyone also say so, and tuk on her back...kakaka,so evil me!hehe
but can say ok la this trip,at least gain something and know some thing more clearly,but one thng for sure that act can be improve better...who knows ya!..

i feel sad,and mad,and tl...some how people not understand me,keep 'wat' me...is not say i not help,is when i ask u keep quiet,ignore and pretend not listen,and now blaming me?what kind of human u are?

i seem like got alot of unhappiness thing happend this few day, and got no 1 that i can su ku,feel suffer.that kind of people name friend keep ignore, make fun of me, and i jz can act like they are transparent, how come i can share with them howi feel.and some how the one keep turn cold face to me,when i need, he will not be around, and if will,the only thing tat he will say is "dun think too much la"until i can predict what his response...

i not even wan to sprit single word from my mount now, is meaningless cz no 1 willing to hear and listen and understand and comfort me...i feel like i already become a ya ba,duno wat to talk, duno who to talk...i wan to protect myself, without expectation from other, and this make me become selfish...

i wan marriage!!!!!!!!!!!!!! don't wan to do thing by own l iao.find a person tat can take care of me,love me,understand me,got money,do not hurt me,good personality and characteristic,know how to protect me and ownself, ok looking, and marrige, so tat i no need to border so much of thing,simple and easy...cz i feel so so so so so so 'line'

my school is @#$% >-*

buses need wait, lunch dinner need wait, use cicit need wait, wifi need wait...i know the world is make to wait, but, buses wait, and not enough space to sit even to stand or even to go inside; lunch dinner wait, but not enough,is not tasty is not delicious at all, and is not for normal ppl eat, i am very easy contented,like tat also feel suck! see, how suck was the condition is?cict har?in malaysia book record,slow and yet cannot loading of the page,not enough pc, wait here and ther and yet cant get 1; wifi?altot wan make whole campus like a wireless broadband place, pls la,update abit, spent more abit,make more quality la,cannot access u lauch for wat? some more charge hundred something for student to use the suck facilities, all the blood sucker!
i been rather pay money for all the good facilities,rather than u give it free but cannot use at all.wat for?wasting every1's spirit and money only...SUCK !!!

cry like the baby sky

a fren said she like to cry,use to cry, but duno why now stop crying d, so she feel san fu...
another fren keep crying, until duno wat she cry for, so she wan stop crying,cz feel san fu...

act me either, long time not cry d.lastime i cry because kek sim, swear not to cry after 20s time, but now duno n time liao because of the stupig idiot,haih,so silly,act man not longer sked when a women cry,because they are weird.so girl, stop crying for a man,is not worthy,yes,not worthy,he will not appreciate,and yet will hurt you again,indirectly,again and again...

wind blow so fierce,so sked...but dun be expected,on a guy,jz be fair to ownself,no body worth an "i love you" more den own.but i will also accept if u wan to tell me,haha

sigh...i really duno myself either, so grey and blue now,jz like the weather, haha...i feel like wan eat sushi now,long time no eat a GOOD sushi d

to all of you,wish everything will come true,may god bless you...

green sunday

sunday, a happy and lazy and creppy day
wake up and plan to havng lunch, rainning, so so big...2nd time accident bang with a good van.Lucky just some injury of the car, but think deeply if abit slowly in the path, if taking motorbike,i think i m really shit that time,and he will also more sui siao then now...now the car went to hospital, but my heart still pik pok pik pok jumpy jumpy

~...miss...~

Thinking the time if i am alone, i just discover i got a lot of free time leave for my own, for my self, for own space, if without anyone else besides me around...around...around....i miss when i am cheers, i miss when i being protect, i miss when i being concern by other, i miss being hug, i miss...
i think i should never put so many time on other, i think i should put more concern into my self, make me cheer always, happy always, joy always, without any worries. Last night i have alot of dream, very smash, very pieces and pieces, very blur and untidy, very don's know what to do, who to call, where to run, so it make me brave and face every thing by myself, concern other, protect other, by using my own hand...
i am so BLUE today, if there are 50% of my room full of water, i think i am in the place of 0.05% down on the bottom. know who appear in my mind now?

strunk and white's element of style

recently i feel so miss direction, so tui fei and tuo luo...are my life enthusiasm jz toward drama?..yesterday i eat bakchang, my dear darling say my bakchang got open stall so he buy me...i saw some ants in my room, they also like miss direction, walk here and there like don't know where wan to go and what want to do...just like me...sigh...
can someone tell me what related between strunk and white's element of style link with electronic and communication?...argh,kek sim r...what's wrong with me?i feel so alone,may be i need friend, i feel so long time no see him,but than jz couple day before, what happend to me?!?
look like i need find something new in my life, activities, friend, game, anything may be...jia you lpq, life is full of colour and energy, just depend how you decorate them...GO GO GO!!!

Trust and believe

wat a day...jz to attend 1hour class.like bee bumble around ear,cannot listen clear,cannot remember well..."did trust same as believe?"...he said believe is giving whole your heart, but trust is not...well,i do not know...feeling abit adnormal,is it my life is jz about movie?iz tat is all?...so funny...what my life is?...what my life was?...huan zu life is more colorful comepare blue fish...cannot,mz live more colorful den him,so he will envy...girl like to know d love 1 being suffer because of she,she will happy...sound weird right?...but is not...becuase when she know there are someone who willing to suffer for her,she feel xinfu and sweet in heart...haha...every girl is same la...when fall in love trap...guy?...hmm...odd and strange and logic mechanic brain thinking...can anyone tell me what is "strunk and white's elements of style relevant to electronic marketing and communication?"...teh say cheong ar teh say cheong...i m very boring n tuo luo...pull me up from the water to outside air...

Today i am very happy, feel abit relief, course my lec finally come and visit me d,haha...act is not my lec la, is other course lec, he say i m pass leh...hopefully la
so,i m here to thanks especially to my Pek Pek, he help me alot when the lec interview my" supervisor", and my dad, he very sked to meet my lec, hehe, but he an pai me to "work" here for him,and paiseh to my mum oso, she not dare to eat when hear my lec wan come,haha...
Well, hope he not come and visit me again la, since he got ask me do my internship until when...and thanks again to my pek pek,cz lec ask him i got ponteng o not, he say no la.haha, but the reality i like holiday everyday, acompany my family almost 2 month liao...hehe...
phew~lpq free abit d,hehe

Happy Bak Chang Day

Today is "bak chang" day...i eat alot of bak chang...and since alot people forget why we eat bakchang, so i m here to share a real history of china,the history of bakchang...

Bak chang is use to remember china dinasti "da chen" name " Qu Yuan"..."Qu Yuan" is a very clever and helpful "da chen",always give the "china king" briliant idea to rule the kingdom....DA DA DA DA...day by day,the castle added more briliant and bad person, there is a person,very very very bad,tat china king use to trust him very very very muc compare to Qu Yuan...So,day by day, the China King begin to forget Qu Yuan, and always listen to this bad da chen's idea...This bad da chen wan to "xian hai" the china king,to steal away his kingdom, so, he make alot of delicios food, that add alot of sugar, make it sweet sweet. ya la, as we know, eat more sweet can cause us lazy ma...so this china king become lazy to rule his kingdom...Qu Yuan very sad...he tell the china king " you cannot eat sweet,must eat abit of salt everyday"...but this lazy china king refuse, he say to Qu Yuan, that Qu Yuan is bad guy, want to steal his kingdom..of course,is the bad da chen's idea...Qu Yuan very sad, the king he use to pay for his whole life royalty is misunderstanding him,so sad so sad...The king not understand him,he feel very sad and sorry to the people,bacause cannot wake stupid king up from the control of the bad da chen...so he jumpy into the river commit suicide...so,he die...the china people is very angry the lauzy and stupid king, they also feel sad cause lost a clever and loyalty da chen...so they make "bak chang",throw into the river,hope the fish dun eat Qu Yuan body...and the guy take the dragon boat, row row row on the river,hope can "lau" and get Qu Yuan body...

So,this story pas pas pas so many year, and become to day's " bak chang day" and during this "bak chang"festival, got dragon boat competition held in Penang, also include international competition invite Thailand, Singapore, Indonesia, German, so on so on...see,Qu Yuan so "wei da"...we must proud of him...

wat a b o r i n g day..

wakeup 10.05am feel s u c k!!!
streamxy damn s l o w forget my c i m b password+id can't reload my t m net
he say his ama n a g g i n g now eating c h i c k e n rice miss my 1 9 3 4 r so muc
feeling abit " t h i n g not go s m o o t h "
ama is making bak chang d...hehehe...but lpq prefer 113 bakchang, if +delivery feel more nicer.kakaka.yesterday get result.old ppl not understand is noting about 4.00.all stupid idiot.blzw duno wan to do wat today.me either.F day seem like nothing day for family.culture not same,thinking not same,everything not same.hard to communicate sometime."yi qie jing zai bu yan zhong" la...madam yeoh calling lunch d,sound like must taking this order...anywhere.if u today got dota,u shud check ur mail d,u mail got alot alot alot msg i think.cz mine also same, dam lot from peltac.haha...blzw mb shud come out an idea for the sae program lo,leader teh??well,sound like slzw oso mus come out idea about the logo and the slogan lao..#@~!&%^* &%$ wat a lauzzzzzy day....if jb now,sure run out watch muvie enjoy spending aircond eat nice2 and sleep sweet beside some1,hehe...gogogolpq...cheers...

try not so stupid,about everything he use to told me,friend always advise me.But i use to believe blindly everyword he use to say or write.Friend say this is slowly suicide,when wan to save the life,bo body will help me,include myself...haha,this line,i totally believe.
today is another new week,i started to ask him something,after he bzing weekend,sked he said me add mafan at his bz time.although he givind answer,but kind of not my type.anywhere,like usual,i accept wat he say.
today is another new week,two huankat customer come and go,empty hand.
"he today sure walk and stand whole day,again" this morning wake up i told myself.it do happend,i am happy for my correct guessing,so i reward myself with an internet afternun...
he not like me to guess.but he dun understand,i always guessing and predicting,because i am sked.and he not like me to sked,and yet cannot stop and help me stop guessing.cause everytime he just will answer me in cold manner"dun think too muc la.."14alphebet wan me to stop thinking,kind of hard leh tsc.but nvm,i not blame him,cz he dunno wat the punca making me guess guess guess(i think that y he not like me watch guess,hahhaa)
i not like to go find him,becuase"cz ur lgc no transport ma".altough i like to do so.it make me kind of not fair.
while,i think i am kind of unbalance.and maybe not a good lover.but i am sure although he is "experienceS",but suck den me,haha.and he always make dumb.feel like i am walking and he is slowing cing around dunno wan to do wat,and i m stand far infront him,yelling at him,and he smile at me,waving hand.i duno wat he think,he duno wat i think.This is wat make me thinking,this is wat causing u always tell me"dun think too muc la"
and i am always telling u something that not"surface",tat is not"good from outside but inside empty".but he always make fool when i tell him,say me stupid.
and yet,hehe,i am "stupid".that y i now i m lgc' lpc

stop acting like this.let me tell you wat is goiong on,the time v spent togther is meaningless.u keep wan more space for yor own,more space with your friend,more this more that,hope me understand,hope me do this hope me do that,u spent ur time playing game,doing gym,study,planning acivities,planning your xtra time.y not you try n understanding me that y i need more time from you,is not you keep want me understanding that u wan more private time form me.ifevery weekend is happend like this,is meaningless,time spent 2gether meaningless mean staying together is meaningless at that point.did you understand.if thing keep like this,i not wish to come n see you forcing yourself spenting those time for me that is meaningless.i more prefer previously that every weekend that got meaning to memory,unlike now,u make me feel that we staying together is meaningless.

Don't know since when i stop coming this web page,but now coming again.i guess only if i m really happy so i will forget all the unhappy...but now,mab thing not happend as my inspiration,that y i m here...
now i feel really tired and hopeless and energyless and breathless...i m not mean to add ur burden,is really not...i though u know y i actin gso,but u don't...i feel i being treaten,i feel so dangerous,and so unsecure,untrustable to you,you are the causes of make me unsecureable.me now duo't know still want to continue or not,i feel this relationship so fragile,so cant being test...
i know if i let go,you will not do anytghing,even say nothing to rescue it...
mayb i just not tough enuf to let go.or mb just wif one of your word can make a change,but i know,you even wan to do just a single minimum try to grab my loose hand...
if can,i just donwan it to be happend...

i really hate you right now.
you always do thing without understanding my condition. And you keep expecting me to do this and that, but you never fullfill the expectation to me...
the thing happend today is not just today only...example,you don't like me show yuo that kind stupid face, same as me, i don't wish to see any stupid gong2 face in you, how you feel, what in you mind, you can just tell me, you never think of sharing, everything keeping just in you?is that a thing a sucessman do meh?
2nd, you keep telling me that must understanding in you, must encourange and support you. but y don't you do thing using you time effeectively and wisely, if got something not understand, find out find the fastest way la,keep wasting time. Game is not the thing you do when you got time.
After you seperate half of you in another sector, you keep ignoring me! d0 thing never consider about my feeling, truly.
3rd, is not i baudering you in doing all the thing you want.But you keep ignore me, keep careless in me! since when you have change until like that? the time you give me already reduce and reduce and yet reducing...and me already try very hard not to care bout the time that you can give to me, but can you plz don't waste any time that can spent with me?
sometime i really feel that what i do you really not care at all, not appreciate the sacrify i had make for...i really doubt about the thing you say, that sentence about " i really love you very much, much more than you can feel"...what else that i can feel?

long time not drop here d...almost a year d this board acompany...suppose you know more about...understand...more...
today is 06 oktober 2006 8:26pm,time fly so fast...sad,happy sour,sweet,everything...almost try all in a semester...don't know why,he make her feel so uncertain,unpredictable...mayb stick too much d she think,but she still cant manage to get use when he is not around...time pass,he want and more understanding from her,she think this is reasonable,silently support him,however thing like getting more worst and blur,how to say,he seldomly get to know welll what actually she need,she want,she care...is she change?or he?is it being stable?or not?getting good?or bad?
honestly say,she think too much?or just make every thing simple,understanding make her suffer,and yet he is not understanding enough toward her understanding to him.......
it is not all about giving and receiving,sacrify and getting back...is all about considerating and understanding...
big man hope small lady nonstop to support,care him...small lady hope she nonstop in sayanging and sweetlove living happy ever after...the way of communicating is a problem,she hope he can help her,help himself,help this relationship.and yet he don't know how to help,accidentally make thing worst...

i don't wish everything getting bad and bad...