...lIfE Isn't smOOth As yOU thInk...

Life?wat is that?it not happend,wat u think not happend,wat u xpect not happend,wat you wan never happend,wat you hope never happend,wat you wish never don't know when can realise...
sometime you make me duno wat to do,sometime you really treat me so nice,treat me so warm,treat me so sweet,make me wan yi lai i n you...but sometime yuo really treat me so wierd,mayb jz myself sensitive,mayb i look myself inside you more important den you are,the caring manner can change to careless,ignorent,coldness,even not paying attention when we are spenting time together...
i feel like you not longer appreciate what i have done for you,mayb i do many so many thing until you already ba for all the thing i do for you...you not longer hug me in your arm,you not longer care me how i feel what i feel when i need you to be by myside,you not longer apreciate with my understanding and xpecting more n more,sometime i really wish that time would not fly so fast,perhaps i m more happy when the time we use to be together,before...y i have such feeling...
sometime really sad when think about this,it make my tear come down when i write this,i really hope that you can read this(but i think you don't know,cz you still sleep like pig),may b,perhaps you don't know,mayb i shoud send to your mail...

today is my birthday,yesterday lgc bring me go buffey o,eat till v 2 stomuch big big,hehe.(tat stupid idiot eat till like having a baby liao.)
chung ling also celebrate with me,but seem like me more xpert compare to them,they cant manage to play me,hahaha,but abit diappoited lo,lgc cnt with me...duno monday he got come n find me not?
to day 1030 cm gona celebrate,gofi tell me not hav present,but got a big surprise,really surprise leh,c my own lgc taking a birthday cake 4 me,really wan hug him n kiss him tat movement...i tough will hav a bday hug,duno he such a bit idiot la,haha,stand still still duno what to do like a puppet...lgc r,u rmb o not?lpc got tell u,i m with you all the time,so u can come n find me,whenever wherever whatever happen and you are,next time anyting happend don't jz do noting stand still2 k?
actually lpc really seriously happy to c u just now,if ltr can hear from you sure be wonderful,look forward to your bday surprise?lpc make it bigger like a boom,k?i know you like a surprise,me too like a surprise,but surprise that arange by you own n by other is not same ma,rite?n different surprise happend different timing ma,k?
ltr tmb sleep early ya,do you love me.yala,i sure wan ask every day la,cannot meh?u rmb drink lot water k?bbgal love u many many much,u shold know tat v3ry clear,rite?

hmm...yesterday so tired,but still manage to listen the thing he wan share with me,hehe,lucky be can be with him share the thing he wan to say 1st minute 1thinking 1person,that is me..hehe
but,the boss tell him i m d one who make him success and cause him down..huh,haih..duno,m i so super meh??i jz one of the element of his life lo...don't woprry,i m not going to stop wat ever u are going to do,as long as you happy,as long as you still remember you have me!...c,i m so ez contented person nia,so no demand...LOVE,is true,is not all about romantic,gain and lose,is aboutacptance of all that is,has been,will be,and not will be...peace is seeing a sunset and knowing who to thank and appreciate..cause the happiest people don't have the best in the world,but they just make the best with all the thing they best,so they have the best!...
i know,start from 0 is far far more than 'hard'...considerate and understanding can be the main to support...sometime i wonder i have this both or nt?did i?sometime i think i m farly not enough understanding for him...just tell if there are some place to add on,dun let me alone mong seng seng at there,k?

love u.

time 7:41pm weather:mizing him
make sense if keep give lot time 4 u 2 do all the thing that 4 yourown good?after sacrify yourself to fullfill his dream?like him love him want him need him,so gotta let him go?(hmm...auther of book say 1,hm...not deny it)

wah...so many homework o...i can predict wat lgc wana tell me if i complain this with him.."who tell you don't want to do?"...or..."do now la,don't waste time anymore"...or...

if i tired,can i lie in your hug?

now time 7:29pm,jz finish read couple page my book...hehe,jz now wan do my fm homework 1,sorry o(lgc tell me mz do alot hmwrk la,cz i eat a lot magi jz now...)^-^
now eye stop at d crystal u bid 4 me....stupidear use rm6 2 bid it 4 me,after i say pretty he ask me like it not=)...)thanks ya,use left 2nd finger touch it,feel very cold,hehe,cz i put it lot water,from the paip..=p
RealPlayer:track6 7:32pm...room very queit,ur hm go out d,leave ur pity lpc alone here,got fan sound,got keyboard sound,got justin song...same time,i miss you so m u c h m u c h . . .
"Do you love me?" "why you love me?" i use to ask you,i also don't know y,gal always do silly thing,jz like me,hope to get a certain answer,from a very clear yet blur question..."you say leh..."you use to answer me like that...
wat is love?you feel not secure when not hear from him.wat is love?you feel uncomfordtable when you don't know where are him.wat is love?smell lonely when can feel him.wat is love?i know wat is love...some sort like wana die,when time is without you...

^h a p p y n a t i o n a l d a y^

merdeka,1st time can so happy...lgc bring lpc tp c firework in danga bay,hehe,gofi need wait one day to back home,i fast fast tok can happy happy play go kai kai with my dear dear lo after test...after goin back change n eat,v finally reach there d...got a very good policewomen(lgc say 1 lo,hehe),ask 4 direction...we walk..chat...laugh...eat 'mang jiang kuih'...but 'chipmore'...play boat(yeah~lpc like sam pa lau,never play b4)...can c fire work later,on d lake,with d paradel boat,n of course with my lag(is lgc idea la,he say can c firework up there near near mz b fun 1..hehe)...so i take my 1st paradel boat,with my lgc...EH,got fish leh..WAH,d fish can fly leh,wah,n fly inside our boat...
finally,the firework...eh,wait a minute,y so small n so far..(lgc very disappointed le...)and then got a fire work at land site,wah firework nearer and nearer lpc...so happy,altot so small but me ald so happy d....
suddenly,we hear a huge sound,come from a very near,when v still playing with that fish flying into our boat jz...WOW..lgc,i cant believe it,is a firework,fall rite infront my eye,so sos ososososososoososo big,so huge,so round,more more more beautiful,coming up next,side...so so like huge mushroon in d sky,and become tiny tiny star(act is fire bug)fall down like a snow rain,so beautiful....and "PING PANG PING PANG",i watch till lying on my life jacket,lgc even sked me fall into d water,i like him so much when he holding me tide tide ^-^...but d fire snow become bigger when d fire work become bigger,n drop into the water(damn d person say at the other side,where got,no side,is up side!)...RUN,lgc,lpc very sked leh tiny2 fire fall into boat...
haha,finally finish d firework d...wah really amazing,d big mushroom fall rite infornt my eye,one den one time nearer and nearer....2day is d wonderful day,i m d most xinfu small lady in d world,i have my big man beside me,we do many thing together,n 4 d 1st time,,,,merdeka,i love you so much...

i dun care,i still wan send u lot lot lot miz bug,kacau u till big huat siao, oko nt??hehe,happy moving in o,sincerely from your beloved lpc....(c me so sleeping duty till late2 also miz u n wish u,got gan dong o nt?nvm,no need cry 1,hehe,jz give ^('w')^ bite FOC la,hehe)

T.T

i hope u r here now,i feel like wana cry out liao,i hope can hug u n cry,don't know why i can change like this,i m not not not not like to cry,but after bengkel i seem like cry alot alot alot...

recently don't know what going on,why so much thing like to happend together?is it all of them like to date together n pop out to bother me?someting is going on but i don't know what is going on,i hate such uncertain feeling,is so so so so so...don't know,i just want to be normal,everything just back to normal,really cant imagine what will happend next,very uncertain and unsecure and unpredictable and uncontroable,i just hope everything will be fine,just be fine....
why they keep say make it simple?everything will be ok..when it will be ok??when v will be ok??i don't want be not ok,i don't want like this,i hate myself for so many reason,maybe i am stupid,i just tiny normal fragile people,easily break and will not recover for long long long long long long long enough untill....why thing seem to be hard to commit,i know since already started and you should commit to it,that why till now i still the stuborn head little girl,i don't want to just give up for just a tiny ant thing...but why that feeling s almost make me cant breath and killing my soulllllllllllllllllllll

.+: ^ b o r i n g ^ :+.

don't know why keeping playing in my mind,chating is some kinda waste of money...nah,no la,cz time is money ma..so without waitng em to finish all the conversation i tok ald take a leave,alone come to cict...got a person,4get who d tell me u life is full of aloness,so dun be so lonely,alone din mean you are lonely,so as lonely not so happen when you are alone...me kinda dunno time management person,haih,wat a loser...
friday clas cancel,n v din go watson 4 assignment d,waste time...cm all wan go shoping,sing-k,pc fair,n bla bla bla,,,but how come when i listen all d invitation feel so no mood to join em leh?is so not like me...perhaps mb nothing i need but just lgc...

weather so unpredicable,cold hot cold hot,you are,remember drink more water,dun b lazy take water n cook,eat when hungry,jacket when cold,your nose so sensitive,abit abit cold tok si si sok sok liao

now my ph is 11.08 27.072006,d pc is wf03,and d computer keep showing notice that 'virus infected',jz now lgc msg sy his name in golden key list..sud think that lpc not that capable,not suit 4 him,,,hiah,,but,smart and stupid usually is perfect match,so dun care ya,as long as you love me...
now very cold,but very hot out there...
told you to drink many water,dun get hunger,if tired go and rest,if hot take a shower,if down complaning to lpc....but you are not drinking many water,lazy to bath,eat so less,where got nutrition o?and lgc mz remeber that lpc will always there for you,to share evthing happy and throw everything sad,cz i m not same like other or someone other else.

huh?!crious meh?But lgc stil vry luv u wo,o iz we ard reach a stable state?dun think too muc negative ting,lgc wil stay wif u 4ever n ever luv u til u die =)

sender:+0174168003 sent:5-july-2006 22:19:58

lpc,sorry2 make u feel tis way.lgc will try2 improve in future.but 1 is true,tat i really luv u vry muc,muc mor than u can feel

sender:+0174168003 sent:8-july-2006 02:46:48

lgc,i think you are not confident enough in you lo...lpc since where sound like not missing you?lpc miss you 4 more you can think even till get xiang shi bing tat DR teh cant cure also...but 1 thing 4 sure,when feeling not well,can see you already recover haf liao,is a true,where you get such ability to cure me without any medicine huh???are you a god??haha,no la,lgc is my angel...lpc very sell fish 1,i won share you with anyone,if can,i will wish to keep you in the pocket,wei,u tis big stupid really know how much i care,miss,n love you bo???you are the one who make me got xiang shi bing,you must responsible to it,or else, I WILL DEFINETELY BITE YOU TILL O CHE LASTING NOT ONLY 1 WEEK!!!!!

ho,sum1 comlain xinku o.Lgc nt stupig,jz tat u nt sy clear enuf.Sy d lo,i m urs,u cn do anythng to me ma =)lpc writin blog nw,mz b complainin lgc,iz?lgc is a mafan bf ez?Other ppl bf gt so mafan o nt le..eh,jz nw bfas u eat wat?Dun get urself hungry..Guai2,den lgc syg u d most bb

sender:+0174168003 sent:20-july-2006 11:06:43

lgc 1st tiem send me long long msg...so happy...dear,one thing is true that we still have long way to go,and i m not giving up,no matter what happen and how hard could it be...i know tat you wont let me go through all alone

lgc:
hihi,dint think m i here leh,,,all jz thinking i m ks wif cm,always say me ks with cm,u nt even c with ur own eye,,,i won do something wrong 2 u,y u will have tat kind of feeling...i know tat,is a kinda 'owning' feeling,i feel tat b4,but i able to make it in another way,a way to understanding you,don't ask me y u so bad but still love u,den y i m stupid you still want me?and even v r both cant live without each other???
haha,act compare to other,we are more lucky enough,we no need to wait for month to meet each other,or talk using a device,we just talk through air,haha,cz u r in front me ma...so,that y i am very appreciate that you are with me,when i need,almost,everytime when i need you,excpt few time,i m not blaming yuo,cause i know yuor hardness...
i also dunno i write wat,just wan write something...get to know you ald a big miracle,miracle not happening frequently,jz once in a blue moon,so u like a blue moon 4 me4...nah,act i can sacrify lot thing without asking any giving from you,you know???y you keep asking stupid question n hope to get answer from me le?and you ald know the answer..but y when i ask u dun wan to answer me leh??wei,is not fair you know????
and you got promise me long long time ago that you wont luan luan think thing liao y you still luan luan think thing leh???dun worry,lpc will stay away from those guy la...

Today saw something,and realise something,is a kind of word,knock on my stupid big head,like a sound of big "t-o-n-g"...and i wake up...

"MAY BE THERE ARE FRIENDS AROUND YOU,BUT WHEN YOU ARE IN TROUBLE,THE ONE WHO WILL STAND OUT AND HELP AND BY YOUR SIDE,USUALLY IS YOUR BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND"

p/s:^('w')^ sorry dear,i wouldn't say "tao yan ni" emotionlly d...because that words is hurt...

when a guy(girl)missing each other...

When a guy calls u,he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine," after a fewminutes,he means it

When a guy stares at you,he thinks you're the most beautiful thing intheworld

When you're laying your head on a guy's chest,he has the world

When a guy calls you everyday,he is in love

When a (good) guy say he loves you,he means it

When a guy says he can't live without you,he's with you till your done

When a guy says, "I miss you,"he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else

Girl Facts:
When a girl is quiet,millions of things are running through her mind.

When a girl is not arguing,she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds,she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you,she is wondering why you are sowonderful.

When a girl lays on your chest,she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl calls you everyday,she is seeking for your attention.

When a girl wants to see you everyday,she wants to be pampered.

When a girl says, "I'll love you forever,"she means it.

When a girl says that she can't live without you,she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you morethan that

so,ah dear u kn0w o not now how much i miss you???n i do miss u alot

hmm....back scl d,abit not xi guan,dunno y...hmm,recently discover myself got xiang shi bin o,feel like dying soon soon soon...lgc now doing wat????rest in room...wawawa,,,later class dismiss o...so happy,wonder later lgc clas will dismiss o not,,hehe...jz now say a very funny articles,she post in my buletin,,kakaka

about a girl and a boy

long time ago,there was a girl,fall in love with a boy...1st time she feel so different from the past,cause she never feel so before,so deeply for a person...she like him so much,really like him very much...sometime the boy did not alert that he did something that hurt the girl,but the girl belive that it just some small error,may be causing big problem in future,but she very sure will not let bad thing happend,she hate blank promises,that why she seldom promise thing to the boy,scared she could not full fill it dream,but they do have some promises,that the girl belive she will make it come true,together with her love one...the girl like the boy so much,this make her think for future...about the successman and the small women behind...
they have alot of happy time together...sometime the girl emotional,she very upset,sorry...but the boy just accept it in silence...the girl know the boy was a really good guy...she feel so xinfu,appreiate,lucky,happy...time by time the love grow between them...
the girl want to tell the boy,she will do her best to care him,love him...just like the boy said,will protect the girl,care her,love her till ever...

"h.e.n. s.i.a.n ahhhhh......"today you jz tell me a couple of word nia:bath already?doing wat now?y miss me?2day i...full already?...tat is all...miss you ma miss you la,got y punya meh?????jz now mum call...den i got lot lot thing wana tell you 1,how know you zzz...nvm,tell you when you back la,hope u back earlier...but u tell me cm wana play game...k,fine lo,you know how unhappy i am also i won say "c.a.n.n.o.t." 1 la,i m not that bad either...then i tok think what is d next word you wana tell me...you probadly will ask me what i wana eat...bingo!u jz send me a msg ask me what i wana eat -_-..."dun buy the thing i dun wan...you eat wat i eat wat" take a look around me,know how i feel now? like usual,alone in room...lgc throw me alone in room,jz he now with cm,not lec...mb u ll think in room i also play game,with cm i also play game,den i play with cm more fun...but not in my mind in room you are with me but with cm you are not with me lo...k la...win all your cm la...IF NOT SLEEP FLOOR!!!

"mum wan me back earlier"

really feng3 ci4...a lot of people say,when single,at night when cant fall asleep want find a person very hard...but as i said when couple also not have any different...at night when cant fall asleep still alone sitting in front of the computer don't know can do what...what will you feel when you can't sleep,playing game but i sleep like a pig???think liao also feel so sour,sometime i just need you to stay with me when i need you...but from the other side,where am i the time you need me?did i stay with you?did i understand how you feel?
i don't like being alone,ha,i think no one like feeling being alone...haha,you lose already,who said want acompany watch dvd liao baru play game?but can't tahan fall asleep?now sleep like a pig...let me alone so pity can't sleep...tomorrow wake up you play game what else can i do?...so ke xi,what a lose,,,actually we together can finish it by tonight,just left 29 and 30 nia,then you play your game i make my dream,sleep till tomorrow late late also no problem,fan zhen you not going school also,ha,so happy...but,if really happend now i am not going to type such thing here liao la.
life of being married...ya?.......still long way to learn...

tuala oso 4get!really a big stupig d u!!!!wahahahah...