Lazy People

i hate people that no jiao dai, especially those who keep change the decision.

i still can understand who take a long time before making a decision, but those simply make n within a minute or second changed it without hesitation n think of the consequences, so LAME lo!

Please la, dun simply say say, especially when what u said will directly influence other..Look down on those people who like this, LAME

i coming back d

Today is 23th february. The damn fsksm website cannot upload my assignment, *sigh, i should do it more earlier...

Yesterday i meet my lgc, v go to in stock, although some advise me not to buy so much since grad soon, but i did just buy what i need ma. Lucky the Malay girl see you smart only hide your lost soya bean n tuna, haha.

thursday he come n pass me the equestrian note, and suggested buy me a lunch. Y suddenly i feel like he treat me so nice lately? so warm...

i just realize that the time before graduate is so pack and not enough...for me to entertain. well, at least can join 5 man dinner in taman U, the food was nice, consider not bad la...

tuesday, i hope my babe laptop will be recover soon, i know you are sick, that y i send you to a doctor. You know ou are important and meant so much to me right? hope to see you soon o...

Well, finally i m here again, wish me good luck this year, just like what lgc said when valentine day while i m bai ti kong, popi me soon soon li li o...^^

i wish you all stay healthy and wealthy, happy and pretty

i think may be i do too less good stuff, until my laptop get bao ying. may be i should smile everyday, god only know i m what kinda person are.

i wish you, my laptop. can get well very soon, so that we can continue co-operate, out coming masterpiece in my life.

i wish you, my family, have a wonderful mouse year, stay healthy and harmony is the matter.

i wish you, my lgc, get well very soon, so that u can enjoy all the food and candy during Chinese new year, with that only you will have healthy and wealthy time with me, protect me.

lastly, i wish you, my self, stay healthy and happier day after day, be independent and dependent in the suitable time, be strong and tough girl.

god, please give the strength for everyone who can save my laptop, i will become more hardworking, reduce duo luo, to thanks you. Happy Chinese new year to you too.

money is more solid and tangible compare to M A N

week 5: Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.~Joshua J Marine

Recently i discover that money can bring me greatest secure compare to man. i admit that money is the best, but cannot buy anything. G said money is not the greatest 1, i agree r. she said if she marry to a rich man, will make her loss heart in fighting in career. Marry to a rich man, why will lost own fighting heart leh? your own fighting heart cannot simply loss whatever decision that you have made. Appreciate it, and protect it fully.

i think now ah huat can give her sense of belonging. that is why she never think of the level of money and security stuff. sometime i think she cannot live without ah huat, cz all the attitude and life style that show is she is a small women, that could not take care own, n will get panic easily if facing trouble.

Well, different ppl have different wants and needs. is easy to talk, i know. But how hard to live a simple life? why those adult and big and old ppl always think so complicatedly? (well, i still young, i just 18 wat ^^)

i like simple; i am simple; i admire simple; i think simple, is simple!

no horse riding

today i feel so bad, supposing now i riding horse. c&g mistaken, not register my name, so now i online in my home. haih...nvm la, horse run no where.Before graduation i will come back...

very sleepy now, the sky very hot, sound very gray, my body very no heart no soul, sound very blue, gray plus blue will become gray blue. Just like how i feel right now. Chi Cham o....~~~

week no.4

chapter 2: if life gives us rocks, it's our choice whether to build a bridge or a wall.

new week start, is time paying some seriousness toward my job. yesterday spent rm55 for gastric treatment, don't know worth or not. but i kinda feeling happy when see him a bit bit gan jiong, haha.

come on 918, is time for you to contribute some thing really useful for ur time spent liao, go go go.

wish u recover really soon so that can eat a lot a lot spicy and sour food ya.~~

F U T U R E

January, chapter one: Make each chapter of your life a great one.
As they said, life is like a book, everyday has a new page; with new adventures to tell, lessons to learn and tales of good deeds to remember.-unknown

Today i having a blue mood. cause having a deep attack by gastric.i know he is busy, so asking help from other, cause i know that if he know, he also and might not going to help me. Finally i can settle by my own, it shows that i m stepping a step forward without him. i feel GOOD, but at the other side feel sad. cause he couldn't & never make any of my "asking for help" if i not asking him face to face.

Is it my life going to change? ya i think so, n great big hopefully can.i do not ask for a safe job after grad. i wan to play. thinking of making a 'working holiday' VISA, i know government offering such thing. maybe go uk, Korea, London, Australia, for around 2,3 years. half play half work...if i wish, can come back Malaysia, selling my experiences for a better job offer.if i can get a permanent job with that company, even can stay longer at other country. hmm, i wan him to be part of this, i mean together go oversea live and work n play for fews years. i wan him to be part of my future, cause now i start thinking of 'future', i can see future, after 3 months from now.

but kinda hard for him to think of his future. cz he now still cannot c his future. same as me, still cannot c our future. how to ask? if he can consider i will be lot happy d, cause one never been to that situation, he will never understand what situation u r facing of. i wish to have a good surprise. i hardly get surprise.

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This week diary said " Be a life long or short, its completeness depends on what it was lived for", by David Starr Jordan...

almost a period i m not swim in friendster liao, friend all wondering where m i, some start to suspect me at oversea or marriage liao, and yelling " wei, can u come out from where u r n say hello so that v know u still alive!"...haha, so, i upload some photo for u all la, to prove " yeah, i still alive o"

Well, at least i also let myself know i still alive, haha. thanks for asking ya pals.

hehe, new year 08 liao, so as cny coming soon. i wan to become healthy wealthy pretty clever obedient, haha.

p/s: ka chuak, where r u hiding?

don't like to talk

Recently don't like to talk, so maybe this make me more love to type. utm cannot use msn, some use meebo to run msn, some use msn's webmessenger. for me, i use ebuddy. she said, what to do, we cannot live without msn. haha, v just cannot live a day without talk or without msn.

but i so proud of myself, for a long time not use key board, i still can type very fast and well, haha. i think that is one of my skill that can include in my resume later on, i msn well, or i type very truly well, hehe...

where a person go if pass away?

p/s: to my room ka chauk, hope u stay hanging there for the whole sem until i moving out...thanks!

couple hour will be year 2008 d. New year new start new semester going to start and end very soon. Long time not type not use to it, my finger abit not listening, haha.

I wish to have a sweet year 2008, that will not bully me alot. ask for a job that will offering me a pay that can afford me to buy a car and a house as well, have a healthy and wealthy life as well as my family's'. of course some extra pocket money to forward my education in oversea, maybe Australia, haha. not greedy ma, i just ask so less nia.

well, wish u all have a wonderful and sweet memory of 2008, love ya.

HOLI DAY LO, supposin9 so, but the damm activities in between consume my 2 weeks times, well, i guess some sacrifying to that will have some return, cause, everything will be a favor of return, god said, haha...hmm...mb i can loose few kg, that is my return.

new year wan come liao...this make me think of my new shirt, shoe, assesories, beg and all that, haha, especially when ppl said :" wah, u become more pretty d"...i like those wordm really...

1:57pm i supposingly should be studying for tommorow exam, but y i still not have so much ehtusiasm in doing so? actually revise couple of time, just not remember the thing, not so clear how the questions will be ask, which area will be touch, really really mcc..

coming satuday he will be going back to home town, i guess will he relaxing, i will be busying about that so call "once a year a benefit camp"...haha, act i m not so kinda looking forward, just iwsh time can fly really fast, this is because i still cannot see what is that really beneficial and worth to me, kaka

by the way, he remind me i ald 21 years old, and this remind me i should be more mature and independently in facing every daily duty as well as obstracle. haha, should i ?

anywhere, is really the time for studying d, until tonight 12am, i just left sharp10 hr, minus 2 hour for resting and slacking, 2 hours for drama seriesing, i just lelf 6hours. divided into 4 topics, equally divided, each topic one and half hours. hmm...sound like still having enough time, so, hurry up, study pang pang!

p/s: deciding put "gold" for this post, recently i like gold so much =p

slacker

haha, finally can online d, k9 change a new pengetua, the old one whole family fly to newzealand, cz x pengetua wan follow her phd.wah...so nice as a government servant, universtity mz be paid for that...

yesterday have a chance shopping, although saw a lot of thing that have the intention to purchase, but finally not to do so, because until the last second, still lack of something, i thin is the heart to buy, no heart no soul, lec always reject our project with that kind of excuse.

left one exam to go, after that the damm p2345c consume my two month holiday time return for just somekind of "memory+experience", nothing else...haih, and the damm pengetua also dun allowe us to stay in own college, see, yes so nice to become a government servent but actually no use at all....

Just like previous paper customer relationship exam, it had mention that in the references book, one a company wan to further bond the relationship with it potential and so call loyalty customer, they actually going through 4 step namely : awareness, expansion/eploration, commitment and dissolution.

Haha, the author scared us, his reader, having problem in undertanding, he imediate make an example by using people relationship, to represent the customer relationship with net user. he said, to bond a relationship with customer, first u need to catch their attention, just like when u like someone, u wan to attract his or her attention. after that, when a emothion is success to bond, that further to expansion stage, in this stage, firm need to do affort in make customer purchase, just like the stage of human, name "dating"...well, commitment he do mean with marriage, haha and dissolution stage he represent with divorce?

And just like the tv program interviewer said, if a man's settle down age is 60s, what for the wife wait until her husband so old? everryman did have the intention to look for a affair especially age 38 and above, den only will return to the wife, pay her with loyalty at the age of 60, let the pity wife put alot of attention to kids. sound rediculous. if so, the husband can go for an affair,so do the wife, den both meet in home age 60. if the children in future mature enough in yound age to understand their parents' situation, why not?

but i think that is just a kind of future human relationship phenomena, just like wat c said, "for man, he need marriage, cz wife is that person to bring out for people see, and the affair partner is for own enjoyment, when he tired of playing, he will come back. den the time he play, i sure will go play also" haha...from my point of view, marriage just formalize both relationship with each other. if the husband can pay the total loyalty, so do the wife, if not, meet at home at age 60 ya, haha

moon?sun?earth?me?him?

"i wonder why god want to make me lost u in the middle of ppl sea, mayb he wan me to learn how much u mean for me."

recenly, i have been thinking deeply on my future, but it show me of no where...once close my eye, nothing appear except black and blur vision, nothing, but just an unclear path way, leading to no where, i wonder...

well, instead spending time wondering, why not use it properly, girls, wake up~He told me that life is not keep stuborn on a lost thing, how memorial and meaningful to me; but appreciate now.See, he always said something so logical, so not sentimental and feelingless word. who doesnt understand now is everything? the thing lost is lost, so make the life or thing now better, improve it. sometime make me so tiredsome, working so hard alone, you can see he just standing there looking elsewhere afford for nothing.

His life like around on his own; my life like moon, around on him. hate myself being like this. i want myself back!!! self centre Pang wen shan

i use to be self centre, before starting with him. but now seem like everything is related to him. simply dun like this kind of feeling. stop acting like a moon. try be the sun, light the future for everyone, make everyone around you,especailly the earch, turn and round because of you.

what is your strength?

today is kinda tired day for me, entre the second day of degree plus plus " how to make yourself employe"...well, as in the mock interview, d interviewer said i am good enough and able to get a job among them, hahaha, i thin this is the first happy thng for me today...

Well, fren kinda more can rely on den a boy friend...but cannot complain muc la, how said he also go own thing to busy...but, unable to comfort is one of the weakneses i think.Just now i kx, what is the goodness of 4c? haih..me kind of very lauzy girl friend, need to know his strength from other mouth...

may b the weaknesses is the surface thing, so we tend to complaint it much. Rather den the goodness itself, because it kinda so inside thing, ha

But i now cannot see the future, career and other, seem like so blur and so so not clear

white dot and a paper

well...another the day of today...ya ya ya...just finish chapter two, just need some editing will do,but i not so satisfy with it. change? sorry, no energy d.

last last night listen, got a story telling.

a teacher showing the student a piece of white paper, with a dot of black ink in the middle.she ask:"what that you all can see?"...the students answer:" a black dot."...the teacher said:" didn't you all see a big white paper?"

After ward, the teacher hand out a piece of black paper, now, with the white dot in the middle.She ask again:"hat did you all can see?"...the student answer again:"a white dot."....

haha, u sure not understand what my story is all about leh..kindly is for simple with abit clever person only will catch my point...

Just like our life, is very simple. White dot mean happy, mean joy, mean cheers.when you are in hapiness, your eye just will look at the thing that make you happy.So, is easy for us. If we not simply stubborn on a black point, then we will feel the happiness, focusing on a tiny white dot in the middle, ignoring a piece of black paper.

i think i need to just focusing on " deeply in me got a small tiny2 part will miss you also", rather in remembering "altot i duno why u not hapi with me"(but kinda hard ma, why i can forgive a do false ppl without getting a sorry?...haih,,,do wrong duno own do wrong, that is the point)

chanc+es??

1) coming back from raya break...ha, this morning lec show our previos assignment in class, he pick some that he think is good, got mine inside i think, but alot of grammer mistake i did. ha, cause i did it in a hurry...but yet it consider good, so i think i will do quiet good enough if i had better preparation, just like usual, i always has the ability to make thing better, haha...

wana share something, regard what i had read. it said "last time, had so many people but little chance; but now, each person offer to alot of oppurtunity, just they cannot see it and feel it, and make it just fly away like tat" and another person, if i not mistaken is Helen Keller, said something similar like this " Door of hapiness always open, but we usually took alot of time looking at the sad one that had close, and not discover that another new hapiness door had open, just beside"...

hmm...this make me feel that i had miss alot of chances, sound just like me, i took times to suit myself to the situation, that actually that can self-heal in a short time, ha, i such a waste time person, ho?

well, actually i am now kinda wasting time, for my life, i mean actually i can use it much more better in preparation on my thesis, assign, life planning and all that kinda "future plan"...but sometime just feel so moodless and blue and lazy and duolou and meanless to do so...ha, i really waste time person nia.

2) wish u good luck ya lgc in ur presentation, i hope u can do it very well, so that reward a cold yogurt for u to build muscle as what u said, haha.( act yogurt can build muscle 1 meh?)

but since ur hand pain, dun drink too much icy drink. cz i found out that icy drink make muscle ache more, take longer time to recover. and once over do, hand muscle will tare off, den will hurt, take longer more time to heal. not conveniece enough my talking? search on net urself ya...heee heee

shall i rest? 0.o

Yesterdat spending 2 hour typing for my thesis, the results was i nearly fight 2 page for that...sound proud of myself but actually wasting of time...but i manage to feel something like, i m back or i finally can blurly find my track of the day...haha

and i discover something meaningfull and not pointless words, that actually make myself proud:

Morning is God Way of Saying:

One more time, Live Life.

Make a Different,

Touch One heart.

Encourange One Mind,

Inspire One Soul.

But Night is LPQ Way of Saying:

Dark is Coming,

Doesn't let life stop.

Is time to have a GOOD REST,

So can fight for better morning!

Ha Ha Ha!!!

Besides, a friend so down cause all the thing not happend acording to plan...everyone not like that to happend. Since we like to wonder of " if one day xxx will happend?", wondering for tomorrow is never end, so why not use the time doing something that usefull or at least can make own feel better, rather than wasting time wondering? Future cannot predict, because it is too much uncertainty.

I use to plan my time and life, but discover that everytime suffer disappointed when thing not happend acording to what i plan. i told myself i am expecting too much.So now, i not like to plan, even planning for me, is just a roughly plan. A simple and not detail plan can make me feel better in dealing with uncertainty if the thing not happend like what i plan. So, i choose to become flexible and linear, like teacher said when in school, plastic ruler is flexible, can bend the shape when you need...

And i recover that i become more and more selfish, and centralize. i use to be a good and nice and helpfull person, offer anything they want, without caring is tat hurting me or not? But i discover that this is a world full of alot of mankind. be a nice person, doesn't mean that people will appreciate.instead, they trying to misunderstand all the thing in negetive way.backstap me.what are their brain make from??so instead, i becom more selfish person, and centralize, and self defent. To protect myself to be harm from other. I can do thing own, you do yours. as long as u do in your area, just don't over area until my space. so i will let you alone, and just live me alone.

utm vote meh today? yalo ho...

today vote??!!??? yalo ho, i forget d.but not mind la, not care also, i m not tat kind so hardworking no class also go fak to tick on a piece of paper, haha.

yesterday i totally get 3 gift, so unexpected, i calling them "gift fall from the sky, raya, fake care"

1st, gift from the sky is i get a model of mercedes benz call "CLK-Klasse Coupe", i not so sure about how much it cost, but lgc said it cost not less. why is from sky? because i not expect to get it although, ha, until cm said i can go n claim, lucky...

2nd, i get a pretty decorative ketupat from the buka puasa dinner with cm and lec, fatti get for me cz i too short d,haha, so, i m a chinese, i somemore get raya gift ( i consider raya gift), nice nice...

3rd, while i busying and finally have the mood to fight for my thesis, cm call said to have celebrateion, i feel like so @#$%^*, make me walk double line, why is fake care? because they will celebrate as somekind of normal event of ourselve each month, but thanks them too, i must learn to appreciate, althogh just a fake care.haha

although i still not start doing my thesis yet, but i very gao liao today...i wash cloth instead of diarhoea,haha. but along the way back to room from the washing room, i m thiking something...when he in LI, am i already start working? if so, if he is far along from me and we not going to see each other for months...did it mean a long distance relationship??? nah, nex year stuff, nex year only start worry...

i create a new slogan for myself today " blue fish, be a caring and strong, instead a burden person ; be a hard working, instead hard 2 work person", wah...like what da bao said, although sometime or everytime i said pointless thing, but i still can voice out very deep and meaningful thing, haha.

gofi help me buy eno leh

today was a really true sick day for me, wake up at 8am, feel so headache and gastric. finally i decide to sit up on bed, and walk like a dead body to grab 2 panadol and gastric madicine, and msg fren i not going to class, and continue my sleeping...while, intercept i got diarrhoea, 1st time feel so watery....=S...then, i am here, good moring...erm, is almost 11.48AM???so late d...
like usuall, i turn on my darling, and start to swim in the net, got 1 fellow send me this thing :

(爱上一个人的7个预兆)　　
1.当你正在忙时，却把手机开著，等著她/他的短信..你已经爱上她/他了　　
2.如果你喜欢和她/他两个人单独漫步..你已经爱上她/他了　　
3.当你和她/他在一起时，你会假装不注意他，但是当她离/他开你的视线时，你会急著寻找她/他...你已经爱上她了　　
4.当她/他受伤或生病时，你会很关心她，替她/他著急..你已经爱上他了　　
5.当她/他和别人要好时，你会感到吃不知其味...你已经爱上她了　　
6.当你看到她/他那甜美的笑时，你的嘴角会扬起一丝得意的笑..你已经爱上她/他了
7.当你看到这篇文章时，心里想到some one

well, i not sure about that. but i preety like to do such 7 thing. if the theory is true, he also will do such thing, haha