"i wonder why god want to make me lost u in the middle of ppl sea, mayb he wan me to learn how much u mean for me."
recenly, i have been thinking deeply on my future, but it show me of no where...once close my eye, nothing appear except black and blur vision, nothing, but just an unclear path way, leading to no where, i wonder...
well, instead spending time wondering, why not use it properly, girls, wake up~He told me that life is not keep stuborn on a lost thing, how memorial and meaningful to me; but appreciate now.See, he always said something so logical, so not sentimental and feelingless word. who doesnt understand now is everything? the thing lost is lost, so make the life or thing now better, improve it. sometime make me so tiredsome, working so hard alone, you can see he just standing there looking elsewhere afford for nothing.
His life like around on his own; my life like moon, around on him. hate myself being like this. i want myself back!!! self centre Pang wen shan
i use to be self centre, before starting with him. but now seem like everything is related to him. simply dun like this kind of feeling. stop acting like a moon. try be the sun, light the future for everyone, make everyone around you,especailly the earch, turn and round because of you.
Monday, October 29, 2007
Sunday, October 28, 2007
what is your strength?
today is kinda tired day for me, entre the second day of degree plus plus " how to make yourself employe"...well, as in the mock interview, d interviewer said i am good enough and able to get a job among them, hahaha, i thin this is the first happy thng for me today...
Well, fren kinda more can rely on den a boy friend...but cannot complain muc la, how said he also go own thing to busy...but, unable to comfort is one of the weakneses i think.Just now i kx, what is the goodness of 4c? haih..me kind of very lauzy girl friend, need to know his strength from other mouth...
may b the weaknesses is the surface thing, so we tend to complaint it much. Rather den the goodness itself, because it kinda so inside thing, ha
But i now cannot see the future, career and other, seem like so blur and so so not clear
Well, fren kinda more can rely on den a boy friend...but cannot complain muc la, how said he also go own thing to busy...but, unable to comfort is one of the weakneses i think.Just now i kx, what is the goodness of 4c? haih..me kind of very lauzy girl friend, need to know his strength from other mouth...
may b the weaknesses is the surface thing, so we tend to complaint it much. Rather den the goodness itself, because it kinda so inside thing, ha
But i now cannot see the future, career and other, seem like so blur and so so not clear
Friday, October 26, 2007
white dot and a paper
well...another the day of today...ya ya ya...just finish chapter two, just need some editing will do,but i not so satisfy with it. change? sorry, no energy d.
last last night listen, got a story telling.
a teacher showing the student a piece of white paper, with a dot of black ink in the middle.she ask:"what that you all can see?"...the students answer:" a black dot."...the teacher said:" didn't you all see a big white paper?"
After ward, the teacher hand out a piece of black paper, now, with the white dot in the middle.She ask again:"hat did you all can see?"...the student answer again:"a white dot."....
haha, u sure not understand what my story is all about leh..kindly is for simple with abit clever person only will catch my point...
Just like our life, is very simple. White dot mean happy, mean joy, mean cheers.when you are in hapiness, your eye just will look at the thing that make you happy.So, is easy for us. If we not simply stubborn on a black point, then we will feel the happiness, focusing on a tiny white dot in the middle, ignoring a piece of black paper.
i think i need to just focusing on " deeply in me got a small tiny2 part will miss you also", rather in remembering "altot i duno why u not hapi with me"(but kinda hard ma, why i can forgive a do false ppl without getting a sorry?...haih,,,do wrong duno own do wrong, that is the point)
last last night listen, got a story telling.
a teacher showing the student a piece of white paper, with a dot of black ink in the middle.she ask:"what that you all can see?"...the students answer:" a black dot."...the teacher said:" didn't you all see a big white paper?"
After ward, the teacher hand out a piece of black paper, now, with the white dot in the middle.She ask again:"hat did you all can see?"...the student answer again:"a white dot."....
haha, u sure not understand what my story is all about leh..kindly is for simple with abit clever person only will catch my point...
Just like our life, is very simple. White dot mean happy, mean joy, mean cheers.when you are in hapiness, your eye just will look at the thing that make you happy.So, is easy for us. If we not simply stubborn on a black point, then we will feel the happiness, focusing on a tiny white dot in the middle, ignoring a piece of black paper.
i think i need to just focusing on " deeply in me got a small tiny2 part will miss you also", rather in remembering "altot i duno why u not hapi with me"(but kinda hard ma, why i can forgive a do false ppl without getting a sorry?...haih,,,do wrong duno own do wrong, that is the point)
Monday, October 22, 2007
chanc+es??
1) coming back from raya break...ha, this morning lec show our previos assignment in class, he pick some that he think is good, got mine inside i think, but alot of grammer mistake i did. ha, cause i did it in a hurry...but yet it consider good, so i think i will do quiet good enough if i had better preparation, just like usual, i always has the ability to make thing better, haha...
wana share something, regard what i had read. it said "last time, had so many people but little chance; but now, each person offer to alot of oppurtunity, just they cannot see it and feel it, and make it just fly away like tat" and another person, if i not mistaken is Helen Keller, said something similar like this " Door of hapiness always open, but we usually took alot of time looking at the sad one that had close, and not discover that another new hapiness door had open, just beside"...
hmm...this make me feel that i had miss alot of chances, sound just like me, i took times to suit myself to the situation, that actually that can self-heal in a short time, ha, i such a waste time person, ho?
well, actually i am now kinda wasting time, for my life, i mean actually i can use it much more better in preparation on my thesis, assign, life planning and all that kinda "future plan"...but sometime just feel so moodless and blue and lazy and duolou and meanless to do so...ha, i really waste time person nia.
2) wish u good luck ya lgc in ur presentation, i hope u can do it very well, so that reward a cold yogurt for u to build muscle as what u said, haha.( act yogurt can build muscle 1 meh?)
but since ur hand pain, dun drink too much icy drink. cz i found out that icy drink make muscle ache more, take longer time to recover. and once over do, hand muscle will tare off, den will hurt, take longer more time to heal. not conveniece enough my talking? search on net urself ya...heee heee
wana share something, regard what i had read. it said "last time, had so many people but little chance; but now, each person offer to alot of oppurtunity, just they cannot see it and feel it, and make it just fly away like tat" and another person, if i not mistaken is Helen Keller, said something similar like this " Door of hapiness always open, but we usually took alot of time looking at the sad one that had close, and not discover that another new hapiness door had open, just beside"...
hmm...this make me feel that i had miss alot of chances, sound just like me, i took times to suit myself to the situation, that actually that can self-heal in a short time, ha, i such a waste time person, ho?
well, actually i am now kinda wasting time, for my life, i mean actually i can use it much more better in preparation on my thesis, assign, life planning and all that kinda "future plan"...but sometime just feel so moodless and blue and lazy and duolou and meanless to do so...ha, i really waste time person nia.
2) wish u good luck ya lgc in ur presentation, i hope u can do it very well, so that reward a cold yogurt for u to build muscle as what u said, haha.( act yogurt can build muscle 1 meh?)
but since ur hand pain, dun drink too much icy drink. cz i found out that icy drink make muscle ache more, take longer time to recover. and once over do, hand muscle will tare off, den will hurt, take longer more time to heal. not conveniece enough my talking? search on net urself ya...heee heee
Thursday, October 04, 2007
shall i rest? 0.o
Yesterdat spending 2 hour typing for my thesis, the results was i nearly fight 2 page for that...sound proud of myself but actually wasting of time...but i manage to feel something like, i m back or i finally can blurly find my track of the day...haha
and i discover something meaningfull and not pointless words, that actually make myself proud:
Besides, a friend so down cause all the thing not happend acording to plan...everyone not like that to happend. Since we like to wonder of " if one day xxx will happend?", wondering for tomorrow is never end, so why not use the time doing something that usefull or at least can make own feel better, rather than wasting time wondering? Future cannot predict, because it is too much uncertainty.
I use to plan my time and life, but discover that everytime suffer disappointed when thing not happend acording to what i plan. i told myself i am expecting too much.So now, i not like to plan, even planning for me, is just a roughly plan. A simple and not detail plan can make me feel better in dealing with uncertainty if the thing not happend like what i plan. So, i choose to become flexible and linear, like teacher said when in school, plastic ruler is flexible, can bend the shape when you need...
And i recover that i become more and more selfish, and centralize. i use to be a good and nice and helpfull person, offer anything they want, without caring is tat hurting me or not? But i discover that this is a world full of alot of mankind. be a nice person, doesn't mean that people will appreciate.instead, they trying to misunderstand all the thing in negetive way.backstap me.what are their brain make from??so instead, i becom more selfish person, and centralize, and self defent. To protect myself to be harm from other. I can do thing own, you do yours. as long as u do in your area, just don't over area until my space. so i will let you alone, and just live me alone.
and i discover something meaningfull and not pointless words, that actually make myself proud:
Morning is God Way of Saying:
One more time, Live Life.
Make a Different,
Touch One heart.
Encourange One Mind,
Inspire One Soul.
But Night is LPQ Way of Saying:
Dark is Coming,
Doesn't let life stop.
Is time to have a GOOD REST,
So can fight for better morning!
Ha Ha Ha!!!
Besides, a friend so down cause all the thing not happend acording to plan...everyone not like that to happend. Since we like to wonder of " if one day xxx will happend?", wondering for tomorrow is never end, so why not use the time doing something that usefull or at least can make own feel better, rather than wasting time wondering? Future cannot predict, because it is too much uncertainty.
I use to plan my time and life, but discover that everytime suffer disappointed when thing not happend acording to what i plan. i told myself i am expecting too much.So now, i not like to plan, even planning for me, is just a roughly plan. A simple and not detail plan can make me feel better in dealing with uncertainty if the thing not happend like what i plan. So, i choose to become flexible and linear, like teacher said when in school, plastic ruler is flexible, can bend the shape when you need...
And i recover that i become more and more selfish, and centralize. i use to be a good and nice and helpfull person, offer anything they want, without caring is tat hurting me or not? But i discover that this is a world full of alot of mankind. be a nice person, doesn't mean that people will appreciate.instead, they trying to misunderstand all the thing in negetive way.backstap me.what are their brain make from??so instead, i becom more selfish person, and centralize, and self defent. To protect myself to be harm from other. I can do thing own, you do yours. as long as u do in your area, just don't over area until my space. so i will let you alone, and just live me alone.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
utm vote meh today? yalo ho...
today vote??!!??? yalo ho, i forget d.but not mind la, not care also, i m not tat kind so hardworking no class also go fak to tick on a piece of paper, haha.
yesterday i totally get 3 gift, so unexpected, i calling them "gift fall from the sky, raya, fake care"
1st, gift from the sky is i get a model of mercedes benz call "CLK-Klasse Coupe", i not so sure about how much it cost, but lgc said it cost not less. why is from sky? because i not expect to get it although, ha, until cm said i can go n claim, lucky...
2nd, i get a pretty decorative ketupat from the buka puasa dinner with cm and lec, fatti get for me cz i too short d,haha, so, i m a chinese, i somemore get raya gift ( i consider raya gift), nice nice...
3rd, while i busying and finally have the mood to fight for my thesis, cm call said to have celebrateion, i feel like so @#$%^*, make me walk double line, why is fake care? because they will celebrate as somekind of normal event of ourselve each month, but thanks them too, i must learn to appreciate, althogh just a fake care.haha
although i still not start doing my thesis yet, but i very gao liao today...i wash cloth instead of diarhoea,haha. but along the way back to room from the washing room, i m thiking something...when he in LI, am i already start working? if so, if he is far along from me and we not going to see each other for months...did it mean a long distance relationship??? nah, nex year stuff, nex year only start worry...
i create a new slogan for myself today " blue fish, be a caring and strong, instead a burden person ; be a hard working, instead hard 2 work person", wah...like what da bao said, although sometime or everytime i said pointless thing, but i still can voice out very deep and meaningful thing, haha.
yesterday i totally get 3 gift, so unexpected, i calling them "gift fall from the sky, raya, fake care"
1st, gift from the sky is i get a model of mercedes benz call "CLK-Klasse Coupe", i not so sure about how much it cost, but lgc said it cost not less. why is from sky? because i not expect to get it although, ha, until cm said i can go n claim, lucky...
2nd, i get a pretty decorative ketupat from the buka puasa dinner with cm and lec, fatti get for me cz i too short d,haha, so, i m a chinese, i somemore get raya gift ( i consider raya gift), nice nice...
3rd, while i busying and finally have the mood to fight for my thesis, cm call said to have celebrateion, i feel like so @#$%^*, make me walk double line, why is fake care? because they will celebrate as somekind of normal event of ourselve each month, but thanks them too, i must learn to appreciate, althogh just a fake care.haha
although i still not start doing my thesis yet, but i very gao liao today...i wash cloth instead of diarhoea,haha. but along the way back to room from the washing room, i m thiking something...when he in LI, am i already start working? if so, if he is far along from me and we not going to see each other for months...did it mean a long distance relationship??? nah, nex year stuff, nex year only start worry...
i create a new slogan for myself today " blue fish, be a caring and strong, instead a burden person ; be a hard working, instead hard 2 work person", wah...like what da bao said, although sometime or everytime i said pointless thing, but i still can voice out very deep and meaningful thing, haha.
Thursday, September 27, 2007
gofi help me buy eno leh
today was a really true sick day for me, wake up at 8am, feel so headache and gastric. finally i decide to sit up on bed, and walk like a dead body to grab 2 panadol and gastric madicine, and msg fren i not going to class, and continue my sleeping...while, intercept i got diarrhoea, 1st time feel so watery....=S...then, i am here, good moring...erm, is almost 11.48AM???so late d...
like usuall, i turn on my darling, and start to swim in the net, got 1 fellow send me this thing :
(爱上一个人的7个预兆)
1.当你正在忙时，却把手机开著，等著她/他的短信..你已经爱上她/他了
2.如果你喜欢和她/他两个人单独漫步..你已经爱上她/他了
3.当你和她/他在一起时，你会假装不注意他，但是当她离/他开你的视线时，你会急著寻找她/他...你已经爱上她了
4.当她/他受伤或生病时，你会很关心她，替她/他著急..你已经爱上他了
5.当她/他和别人要好时，你会感到吃不知其味...你已经爱上她了
6.当你看到她/他那甜美的笑时，你的嘴角会扬起一丝得意的笑..你已经爱上她/他了
7.当你看到这篇文章时，心里想到some one
well, i not sure about that. but i preety like to do such 7 thing. if the theory is true, he also will do such thing, haha
like usuall, i turn on my darling, and start to swim in the net, got 1 fellow send me this thing :
(爱上一个人的7个预兆)
1.当你正在忙时，却把手机开著，等著她/他的短信..你已经爱上她/他了
2.如果你喜欢和她/他两个人单独漫步..你已经爱上她/他了
3.当你和她/他在一起时，你会假装不注意他，但是当她离/他开你的视线时，你会急著寻找她/他...你已经爱上她了
4.当她/他受伤或生病时，你会很关心她，替她/他著急..你已经爱上他了
5.当她/他和别人要好时，你会感到吃不知其味...你已经爱上她了
6.当你看到她/他那甜美的笑时，你的嘴角会扬起一丝得意的笑..你已经爱上她/他了
7.当你看到这篇文章时，心里想到some one
well, i not sure about that. but i preety like to do such 7 thing. if the theory is true, he also will do such thing, haha
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
wah...today really a " shit " day for me, cause i shit a lot, after eating my medicine, haha.Until now stomuch still abit pain, duno is sub food matter, or the medicine.
Recently i realize that, lgc make lot changes, duno change because of me or other thing, but he seem like change d. become more lgc, and not like a la lak zai tat i name "dota man".so i decide not to complaint too much...and this time, instead of complaint, i comit.haha.
well, this make me believe in him more, from all the thing he done and had said to me, haha. Thanks for helping me mostly when i need. i ald 21th d, people said rm10*2 not enough liao.so i learn how to become more understanding and tolerance. this make me learn somehting that, instead of expecting more and more, why not i appreciate what and all the thing he make sacrify for me, maybe sound not enough for me, but perhaps sound most and already reach his limitation leh?
And got people said to me b4, a man seem to fullfill all his girl demand, i mean respect her decision, bring her go wherever, eat whatever.that is because he cant spare more time to by her side, so he just can make it better in fullfillng wat the girl want. hmm...i will learn how to tolerance and understanding more and more and think from ur side more and more la. thanks for being side wif me ya, until now. love u n miss u
Recently i realize that, lgc make lot changes, duno change because of me or other thing, but he seem like change d. become more lgc, and not like a la lak zai tat i name "dota man".so i decide not to complaint too much...and this time, instead of complaint, i comit.haha.
well, this make me believe in him more, from all the thing he done and had said to me, haha. Thanks for helping me mostly when i need. i ald 21th d, people said rm10*2 not enough liao.so i learn how to become more understanding and tolerance. this make me learn somehting that, instead of expecting more and more, why not i appreciate what and all the thing he make sacrify for me, maybe sound not enough for me, but perhaps sound most and already reach his limitation leh?
And got people said to me b4, a man seem to fullfill all his girl demand, i mean respect her decision, bring her go wherever, eat whatever.that is because he cant spare more time to by her side, so he just can make it better in fullfillng wat the girl want. hmm...i will learn how to tolerance and understanding more and more and think from ur side more and more la. thanks for being side wif me ya, until now. love u n miss u
Monday, September 24, 2007
hihi, another 12 minit is my chinese birthday d, and acording to chinese calender, i m 22th years old, consider big girl d.
during my english birthday, i tot he will be the 1st and the last to wish me birthday, but he is not the 1st, and also the last.Well, i think today either, he not yet wish me happy mid autumn, and happy birthday also, sad...well, u is only my nearest, who can listen to me whenever whatever i wan to voice out, not him, not friend.
Small white already leave me two days d, but i still feel abit upset and not familiar with gone of rm60, acording to what kim heng said. both of them mean lot for me,not just rm60.
some time i just not tat like him, cause his mouth very " no keep". everytime he must said someting very bad to hear, and do something weird, sometime will hurt people heart in addition. But he is not aware of that. i think tat is why until now he still not having a gf. i know guys always said " nah, i dunwan a gf"...but it sound like a excuse for me. i don't know other, but for him, i think maybe is his bad attitude toward people around him. honestly, i not have a good impression toward him.
I am a very simple girl, i dun simply dun like anything or anyone, if u do ur business, i do mine, dun over limit, leave me alone i might said. but for him, he make me feel abit not like feeling toward his personality and attitude and also impression, for sure he got do somehting that indirectly influence my view toward him..advice, if you wan to have a gf, u must change ur attitude, and think before talk/speak.
haih...finally...zhong qiu jie kuai le to me...i mean it, and finally i grow bigger. tomorrow onward i must not do something really childish d...happy birthday pws
during my english birthday, i tot he will be the 1st and the last to wish me birthday, but he is not the 1st, and also the last.Well, i think today either, he not yet wish me happy mid autumn, and happy birthday also, sad...well, u is only my nearest, who can listen to me whenever whatever i wan to voice out, not him, not friend.
Small white already leave me two days d, but i still feel abit upset and not familiar with gone of rm60, acording to what kim heng said. both of them mean lot for me,not just rm60.
some time i just not tat like him, cause his mouth very " no keep". everytime he must said someting very bad to hear, and do something weird, sometime will hurt people heart in addition. But he is not aware of that. i think tat is why until now he still not having a gf. i know guys always said " nah, i dunwan a gf"...but it sound like a excuse for me. i don't know other, but for him, i think maybe is his bad attitude toward people around him. honestly, i not have a good impression toward him.
I am a very simple girl, i dun simply dun like anything or anyone, if u do ur business, i do mine, dun over limit, leave me alone i might said. but for him, he make me feel abit not like feeling toward his personality and attitude and also impression, for sure he got do somehting that indirectly influence my view toward him..advice, if you wan to have a gf, u must change ur attitude, and think before talk/speak.
haih...finally...zhong qiu jie kuai le to me...i mean it, and finally i grow bigger. tomorrow onward i must not do something really childish d...happy birthday pws
24 september 2007
So long d, but seem like i still can be familiar with the feeling when he is not so keen in returning a msg. he sure got nothing to say to me, he duno wan to type wat, so straight not replying message. that is why i hate to msn with him.
now, i even got a " whatever" feeling. carol said u will said watever to a person when got no more special feeling toward that person. even hate or love, nothing. now seem like i ald become, watever la, u wan to reply or not reply, u wish i can become independent, so fan zen i is not tat kind cannot survive without you, so y i car so much u can reply or not?
well, think logically, if a person care, he will reply. but invest phsycology...mean u meaningless, and waste of his time...
me still can live without anyone caring, he is selfish, why i cannot? i also a selfish. since i cant force myself not replying a msg, so i just block...no message no reply...easy for my life
So long d, but seem like i still can be familiar with the feeling when he is not so keen in returning a msg. he sure got nothing to say to me, he duno wan to type wat, so straight not replying message. that is why i hate to msn with him.
now, i even got a " whatever" feeling. carol said u will said watever to a person when got no more special feeling toward that person. even hate or love, nothing. now seem like i ald become, watever la, u wan to reply or not reply, u wish i can become independent, so fan zen i is not tat kind cannot survive without you, so y i car so much u can reply or not?
well, think logically, if a person care, he will reply. but invest phsycology...mean u meaningless, and waste of his time...
me still can live without anyone caring, he is selfish, why i cannot? i also a selfish. since i cant force myself not replying a msg, so i just block...no message no reply...easy for my life
Saturday, September 15, 2007
i hate him right now 0803062158
since milo die today, i also no have mood to do thing, he also i think. So i started to swim in web, again, i download and watch garfield 2 through xiaoli.cc, and some funny comedy regarding jacky wu through youtube, but it doesn't help me much in reducing my pain of losing milo...while swiming to a blogspot, sported a person's blog, and from his funny blog write, i get to know something...
1. he always "girl girl girl"
2. he have good persuasive skill...experience and learn to persuave girl
3. he know how to cook(this i know ald,ha)
4. he is helpless, or some other mean wasn't helpfull
5. know what he do every single second, never lose himself in middle
6. Mispronounsiation from cook "dessert" to cook "lizard"
while, i agree with statement 1, from the ever the 1st time i meet him, i mindset myself that(cz this is true):
1. don't believe in this guy talking
2. Got a good look faceman, he not have a small heart in doing thing
3. who expert in all skill, but is lauzy in love skill
but, since i am silly, i believe in everything i had stated, but yet still stick with him, HAHA
1. he always "girl girl girl"
2. he have good persuasive skill...experience and learn to persuave girl
3. he know how to cook(this i know ald,ha)
4. he is helpless, or some other mean wasn't helpfull
5. know what he do every single second, never lose himself in middle
6. Mispronounsiation from cook "dessert" to cook "lizard"
while, i agree with statement 1, from the ever the 1st time i meet him, i mindset myself that(cz this is true):
1. don't believe in this guy talking
2. Got a good look faceman, he not have a small heart in doing thing
3. who expert in all skill, but is lauzy in love skill
but, since i am silly, i believe in everything i had stated, but yet still stick with him, HAHA
milo had left me
This morning, i wake up because of a call, told me that milo cant move aldready? i so shock, the name sound so familiar...i can tmake my self going back sleep, milo...milo...milo....y?is it he sick i never notice?is it our fault cz bathing him, and make him gan mao and die?if so, i so guilty, keep make die inocient life, laplase like that, milo like tat, evan ...., so sad, i no have the qualification to take care fo small animal, how to take care my own, and people beside me, people around me? milo...i will miss your brown hair, miss your naughtyness and activeness, miss your expore spirit...you know that i love you and care of you why you wan to go, think back just 2 week after i bring you home...with money...now money fly, milo fly, and mood also fly away with you liao...
Friday, September 07, 2007
life very busy, living in it feel so cannot breath. sometime just need to face alot of people, but they are not understand in you. Sometime there are people who like to order around, stated clear that is out of her/his business, but still wan to control everything, everyone have own job description, doesn't mean that you cannot give idea of thing, but mean once you give the authority to other people, you just need to trust them, if they are wrong, u give idea, if not just follow them.
you are who?if want every thing to do like the way you want, the person you need is a person who do the job as what you order to, what in your mind. but that one is not me.
you are who?if want every thing to do like the way you want, the person you need is a person who do the job as what you order to, what in your mind. but that one is not me.
Thursday, August 30, 2007
usm
Just finish my report, sit totally more than 2 hour jz to type it out, really cant understand where is the point I doing such thing until finger pain of typing…
Today I saw USM bus in UTM, basically I should feel ‘got home’ when say plat start with P, but the 1st thing flash in my mind, was another thing.
USM make me think of a girl, that I still feel sorry to her until now… That is why I ask u what u feels if u saw the bus? I wonder she still contact you, this make me think that if one day the situation happened to me, do you still will remember me?still will contact me?or still will think of me? Think of her if she contact u, I will abit not hapi.
i wonder how are we if one day long distant, I not like tat kind of relationship. I wonder why ppl can survive one week not contact each other. But I just know I cant tahan tat kind of feeling…
iz giv wat she wan is being nice to her? But someone said that guys prefer accompany her, but if cant make it, give what she wan is the only way.but sometime is not can or cannot, is wan to not.
Tat day watch something, make me know something, guys keep wan a gf that can understanding him, but act guy is very easy to understand, but jz duno y sometime thing is not hard to understand, but hard to make understanding…
but now i learn to think hapi thing rather remember not hapi thing...but still hard to forget all the thing that have done...i think i m evil and guilty
Today I saw USM bus in UTM, basically I should feel ‘got home’ when say plat start with P, but the 1st thing flash in my mind, was another thing.
USM make me think of a girl, that I still feel sorry to her until now… That is why I ask u what u feels if u saw the bus? I wonder she still contact you, this make me think that if one day the situation happened to me, do you still will remember me?still will contact me?or still will think of me? Think of her if she contact u, I will abit not hapi.
i wonder how are we if one day long distant, I not like tat kind of relationship. I wonder why ppl can survive one week not contact each other. But I just know I cant tahan tat kind of feeling…
iz giv wat she wan is being nice to her? But someone said that guys prefer accompany her, but if cant make it, give what she wan is the only way.but sometime is not can or cannot, is wan to not.
Tat day watch something, make me know something, guys keep wan a gf that can understanding him, but act guy is very easy to understand, but jz duno y sometime thing is not hard to understand, but hard to make understanding…
but now i learn to think hapi thing rather remember not hapi thing...but still hard to forget all the thing that have done...i think i m evil and guilty
Wednesday, August 08, 2007
...Last night i have a lot of nightmare, i dream of "PSM" drop on my head, all my assignment paper become mushmaro and jumpy jumpy on my desk i can't wait to chew them up, and i break up with my dear darling liao...may be recently got too much pressure from my academic..yiks...i don't like assignment discussion report assignment discussion report and TEST, keep repeat and repeating...
just now surf to sakae sushi's web page, rm16.80++ weekday from 3pm-6pm, but i think got lunch and dinner buffet,people say suki not bad, some say tei sushi also...i think will much more better compare to sushi king...kakaka i think i need to depress liao, cause my brain started to stuck already...i need fresh air for my entire new idea for my project..y-e-a-r-k~~i still can feel my mouth so tasteless after recover from my sickness...steamboat,wakaka,so bad, timing is not good enough, i like food i want fun, i can't just every minute thinking about those paper work, that will make me crazy, break break break,just give me a break i will come back soon k...
maybe i need a new hair style, thinking want to cut it and make my hair curly but messy, look more trendly and pretty smart and yet cute and stubborn head..haha,just like my style...
i want go out and play, i can't live just facing all the paper and typing "formal" thing all day long...feel so stuck and suck!where is my buddy!!! hey buddy i need you, where are you???
today i invent a new theory, call " want simplify complicated stuff, but in the end will mess it into more complicated" the right ways is just open one eye and close one eye, remain all the thing as it normal(actually like this is ad normal, like kinda complicated relationship)...perhaps it will back to normal automatically,who knows?
just now surf to sakae sushi's web page, rm16.80++ weekday from 3pm-6pm, but i think got lunch and dinner buffet,people say suki not bad, some say tei sushi also...i think will much more better compare to sushi king...kakaka i think i need to depress liao, cause my brain started to stuck already...i need fresh air for my entire new idea for my project..y-e-a-r-k~~i still can feel my mouth so tasteless after recover from my sickness...steamboat,wakaka,so bad, timing is not good enough, i like food i want fun, i can't just every minute thinking about those paper work, that will make me crazy, break break break,just give me a break i will come back soon k...
maybe i need a new hair style, thinking want to cut it and make my hair curly but messy, look more trendly and pretty smart and yet cute and stubborn head..haha,just like my style...
i want go out and play, i can't live just facing all the paper and typing "formal" thing all day long...feel so stuck and suck!where is my buddy!!! hey buddy i need you, where are you???
today i invent a new theory, call " want simplify complicated stuff, but in the end will mess it into more complicated" the right ways is just open one eye and close one eye, remain all the thing as it normal(actually like this is ad normal, like kinda complicated relationship)...perhaps it will back to normal automatically,who knows?
a bonding trip eee-eark
i experience an ok, jz ok bonding trip this year, act is juz a boding trip, why d yong tau fu wan make it so serious? activities no pack enuf, tentatif not follow goood enough...bla bla bla...y she cant learn wat is fleaxible,is jus a relax trip, what she thinking?wan make it like a trainning camp?
"previouslu previously previosly"keep compare previously, but y not learn from pass and make all the accident keep renew and renew...so so not understand...
and after complaint this is a LUXURY trip, wat wat wat already 35 + hep sponshor bus and budget 300...den why u still eat over 10 chinken wing and yell not enuf?sumore tapao back all the rambutan? like san pa lao...sam pat!
without her will be more enjoyable...hahaha..everyone also say so, and tuk on her back...kakaka,so evil me!hehe
but can say ok la this trip,at least gain something and know some thing more clearly,but one thng for sure that act can be improve better...who knows ya!..
"previouslu previously previosly"keep compare previously, but y not learn from pass and make all the accident keep renew and renew...so so not understand...
and after complaint this is a LUXURY trip, wat wat wat already 35 + hep sponshor bus and budget 300...den why u still eat over 10 chinken wing and yell not enuf?sumore tapao back all the rambutan? like san pa lao...sam pat!
without her will be more enjoyable...hahaha..everyone also say so, and tuk on her back...kakaka,so evil me!hehe
but can say ok la this trip,at least gain something and know some thing more clearly,but one thng for sure that act can be improve better...who knows ya!..
Wednesday, August 01, 2007
i feel sad,and mad,and tl...some how people not understand me,keep 'wat' me...is not say i not help,is when i ask u keep quiet,ignore and pretend not listen,and now blaming me?what kind of human u are?
i seem like got alot of unhappiness thing happend this few day, and got no 1 that i can su ku,feel suffer.that kind of people name friend keep ignore, make fun of me, and i jz can act like they are transparent, how come i can share with them howi feel.and some how the one keep turn cold face to me,when i need, he will not be around, and if will,the only thing tat he will say is "dun think too much la"until i can predict what his response...
i not even wan to sprit single word from my mount now, is meaningless cz no 1 willing to hear and listen and understand and comfort me...i feel like i already become a ya ba,duno wat to talk, duno who to talk...i wan to protect myself, without expectation from other, and this make me become selfish...
i wan marriage!!!!!!!!!!!!!! don't wan to do thing by own l iao.find a person tat can take care of me,love me,understand me,got money,do not hurt me,good personality and characteristic,know how to protect me and ownself, ok looking, and marrige, so tat i no need to border so much of thing,simple and easy...cz i feel so so so so so so 'line'
i seem like got alot of unhappiness thing happend this few day, and got no 1 that i can su ku,feel suffer.that kind of people name friend keep ignore, make fun of me, and i jz can act like they are transparent, how come i can share with them howi feel.and some how the one keep turn cold face to me,when i need, he will not be around, and if will,the only thing tat he will say is "dun think too much la"until i can predict what his response...
i not even wan to sprit single word from my mount now, is meaningless cz no 1 willing to hear and listen and understand and comfort me...i feel like i already become a ya ba,duno wat to talk, duno who to talk...i wan to protect myself, without expectation from other, and this make me become selfish...
i wan marriage!!!!!!!!!!!!!! don't wan to do thing by own l iao.find a person tat can take care of me,love me,understand me,got money,do not hurt me,good personality and characteristic,know how to protect me and ownself, ok looking, and marrige, so tat i no need to border so much of thing,simple and easy...cz i feel so so so so so so 'line'
my school is @#$% >-*
buses need wait, lunch dinner need wait, use cicit need wait, wifi need wait...i know the world is make to wait, but, buses wait, and not enough space to sit even to stand or even to go inside; lunch dinner wait, but not enough,is not tasty is not delicious at all, and is not for normal ppl eat, i am very easy contented,like tat also feel suck! see, how suck was the condition is?cict har?in malaysia book record,slow and yet cannot loading of the page,not enough pc, wait here and ther and yet cant get 1; wifi?altot wan make whole campus like a wireless broadband place, pls la,update abit, spent more abit,make more quality la,cannot access u lauch for wat? some more charge hundred something for student to use the suck facilities, all the blood sucker!
i been rather pay money for all the good facilities,rather than u give it free but cannot use at all.wat for?wasting every1's spirit and money only...SUCK !!!
i been rather pay money for all the good facilities,rather than u give it free but cannot use at all.wat for?wasting every1's spirit and money only...SUCK !!!
Monday, July 30, 2007
cry like the baby sky
a fren said she like to cry,use to cry, but duno why now stop crying d, so she feel san fu...
another fren keep crying, until duno wat she cry for, so she wan stop crying,cz feel san fu...
act me either, long time not cry d.lastime i cry because kek sim, swear not to cry after 20s time, but now duno n time liao because of the stupig idiot,haih,so silly,act man not longer sked when a women cry,because they are weird.so girl, stop crying for a man,is not worthy,yes,not worthy,he will not appreciate,and yet will hurt you again,indirectly,again and again...
wind blow so fierce,so sked...but dun be expected,on a guy,jz be fair to ownself,no body worth an "i love you" more den own.but i will also accept if u wan to tell me,haha
sigh...i really duno myself either, so grey and blue now,jz like the weather, haha...i feel like wan eat sushi now,long time no eat a GOOD sushi d
to all of you,wish everything will come true,may god bless you...
another fren keep crying, until duno wat she cry for, so she wan stop crying,cz feel san fu...
act me either, long time not cry d.lastime i cry because kek sim, swear not to cry after 20s time, but now duno n time liao because of the stupig idiot,haih,so silly,act man not longer sked when a women cry,because they are weird.so girl, stop crying for a man,is not worthy,yes,not worthy,he will not appreciate,and yet will hurt you again,indirectly,again and again...
wind blow so fierce,so sked...but dun be expected,on a guy,jz be fair to ownself,no body worth an "i love you" more den own.but i will also accept if u wan to tell me,haha
sigh...i really duno myself either, so grey and blue now,jz like the weather, haha...i feel like wan eat sushi now,long time no eat a GOOD sushi d
to all of you,wish everything will come true,may god bless you...
Sunday, July 29, 2007
green sunday
sunday, a happy and lazy and creppy day
wake up and plan to havng lunch, rainning, so so big...2nd time accident bang with a good van.Lucky just some injury of the car, but think deeply if abit slowly in the path, if taking motorbike,i think i m really shit that time,and he will also more sui siao then now...now the car went to hospital, but my heart still pik pok pik pok jumpy jumpy
wake up and plan to havng lunch, rainning, so so big...2nd time accident bang with a good van.Lucky just some injury of the car, but think deeply if abit slowly in the path, if taking motorbike,i think i m really shit that time,and he will also more sui siao then now...now the car went to hospital, but my heart still pik pok pik pok jumpy jumpy
Friday, July 27, 2007
~...miss...~
Thinking the time if i am alone, i just discover i got a lot of free time leave for my own, for my self, for own space, if without anyone else besides me around...around...around....i miss when i am cheers, i miss when i being protect, i miss when i being concern by other, i miss being hug, i miss...
i think i should never put so many time on other, i think i should put more concern into my self, make me cheer always, happy always, joy always, without any worries. Last night i have alot of dream, very smash, very pieces and pieces, very blur and untidy, very don's know what to do, who to call, where to run, so it make me brave and face every thing by myself, concern other, protect other, by using my own hand...
i am so BLUE today, if there are 50% of my room full of water, i think i am in the place of 0.05% down on the bottom. know who appear in my mind now?
i think i should never put so many time on other, i think i should put more concern into my self, make me cheer always, happy always, joy always, without any worries. Last night i have alot of dream, very smash, very pieces and pieces, very blur and untidy, very don's know what to do, who to call, where to run, so it make me brave and face every thing by myself, concern other, protect other, by using my own hand...
i am so BLUE today, if there are 50% of my room full of water, i think i am in the place of 0.05% down on the bottom. know who appear in my mind now?
Thursday, July 26, 2007
strunk and white's element of style
recently i feel so miss direction, so tui fei and tuo luo...are my life enthusiasm jz toward drama?..yesterday i eat bakchang, my dear darling say my bakchang got open stall so he buy me...i saw some ants in my room, they also like miss direction, walk here and there like don't know where wan to go and what want to do...just like me...sigh...
can someone tell me what related between strunk and white's element of style link with electronic and communication?...argh,kek sim r...what's wrong with me?i feel so alone,may be i need friend, i feel so long time no see him,but than jz couple day before, what happend to me?!?
look like i need find something new in my life, activities, friend, game, anything may be...jia you lpq, life is full of colour and energy, just depend how you decorate them...GO GO GO!!!
can someone tell me what related between strunk and white's element of style link with electronic and communication?...argh,kek sim r...what's wrong with me?i feel so alone,may be i need friend, i feel so long time no see him,but than jz couple day before, what happend to me?!?
look like i need find something new in my life, activities, friend, game, anything may be...jia you lpq, life is full of colour and energy, just depend how you decorate them...GO GO GO!!!
Tuesday, July 24, 2007
Trust and believe
wat a day...jz to attend 1hour class.like bee bumble around ear,cannot listen clear,cannot remember well..."did trust same as believe?"...he said believe is giving whole your heart, but trust is not...well,i do not know...feeling abit adnormal,is it my life is jz about movie?iz tat is all?...so funny...what my life is?...what my life was?...huan zu life is more colorful comepare blue fish...cannot,mz live more colorful den him,so he will envy...girl like to know d love 1 being suffer because of she,she will happy...sound weird right?...but is not...becuase when she know there are someone who willing to suffer for her,she feel xinfu and sweet in heart...haha...every girl is same la...when fall in love trap...guy?...hmm...odd and strange and logic mechanic brain thinking...can anyone tell me what is "strunk and white's elements of style relevant to electronic marketing and communication?"...teh say cheong ar teh say cheong...i m very boring n tuo luo...pull me up from the water to outside air...
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
Today i am very happy, feel abit relief, course my lec finally come and visit me d,haha...act is not my lec la, is other course lec, he say i m pass leh...hopefully la
so,i m here to thanks especially to my Pek Pek, he help me alot when the lec interview my" supervisor", and my dad, he very sked to meet my lec, hehe, but he an pai me to "work" here for him,and paiseh to my mum oso, she not dare to eat when hear my lec wan come,haha...
Well, hope he not come and visit me again la, since he got ask me do my internship until when...and thanks again to my pek pek,cz lec ask him i got ponteng o not, he say no la.haha, but the reality i like holiday everyday, acompany my family almost 2 month liao...hehe...
phew~lpq free abit d,hehe
so,i m here to thanks especially to my Pek Pek, he help me alot when the lec interview my" supervisor", and my dad, he very sked to meet my lec, hehe, but he an pai me to "work" here for him,and paiseh to my mum oso, she not dare to eat when hear my lec wan come,haha...
Well, hope he not come and visit me again la, since he got ask me do my internship until when...and thanks again to my pek pek,cz lec ask him i got ponteng o not, he say no la.haha, but the reality i like holiday everyday, acompany my family almost 2 month liao...hehe...
phew~lpq free abit d,hehe
Tuesday, June 19, 2007
Happy Bak Chang Day
Today is "bak chang" day...i eat alot of bak chang...and since alot people forget why we eat bakchang, so i m here to share a real history of china,the history of bakchang...
Bak chang is use to remember china dinasti "da chen" name " Qu Yuan"..."Qu Yuan" is a very clever and helpful "da chen",always give the "china king" briliant idea to rule the kingdom....DA DA DA DA...day by day,the castle added more briliant and bad person, there is a person,very very very bad,tat china king use to trust him very very very muc compare to Qu Yuan...So,day by day, the China King begin to forget Qu Yuan, and always listen to this bad da chen's idea...This bad da chen wan to "xian hai" the china king,to steal away his kingdom, so, he make alot of delicios food, that add alot of sugar, make it sweet sweet. ya la, as we know, eat more sweet can cause us lazy ma...so this china king become lazy to rule his kingdom...Qu Yuan very sad...he tell the china king " you cannot eat sweet,must eat abit of salt everyday"...but this lazy china king refuse, he say to Qu Yuan, that Qu Yuan is bad guy, want to steal his kingdom..of course,is the bad da chen's idea...Qu Yuan very sad, the king he use to pay for his whole life royalty is misunderstanding him,so sad so sad...The king not understand him,he feel very sad and sorry to the people,bacause cannot wake stupid king up from the control of the bad da chen...so he jumpy into the river commit suicide...so,he die...the china people is very angry the lauzy and stupid king, they also feel sad cause lost a clever and loyalty da chen...so they make "bak chang",throw into the river,hope the fish dun eat Qu Yuan body...and the guy take the dragon boat, row row row on the river,hope can "lau" and get Qu Yuan body...
So,this story pas pas pas so many year, and become to day's " bak chang day" and during this "bak chang"festival, got dragon boat competition held in Penang, also include international competition invite Thailand, Singapore, Indonesia, German, so on so on...see,Qu Yuan so "wei da"...we must proud of him...
Bak chang is use to remember china dinasti "da chen" name " Qu Yuan"..."Qu Yuan" is a very clever and helpful "da chen",always give the "china king" briliant idea to rule the kingdom....DA DA DA DA...day by day,the castle added more briliant and bad person, there is a person,very very very bad,tat china king use to trust him very very very muc compare to Qu Yuan...So,day by day, the China King begin to forget Qu Yuan, and always listen to this bad da chen's idea...This bad da chen wan to "xian hai" the china king,to steal away his kingdom, so, he make alot of delicios food, that add alot of sugar, make it sweet sweet. ya la, as we know, eat more sweet can cause us lazy ma...so this china king become lazy to rule his kingdom...Qu Yuan very sad...he tell the china king " you cannot eat sweet,must eat abit of salt everyday"...but this lazy china king refuse, he say to Qu Yuan, that Qu Yuan is bad guy, want to steal his kingdom..of course,is the bad da chen's idea...Qu Yuan very sad, the king he use to pay for his whole life royalty is misunderstanding him,so sad so sad...The king not understand him,he feel very sad and sorry to the people,bacause cannot wake stupid king up from the control of the bad da chen...so he jumpy into the river commit suicide...so,he die...the china people is very angry the lauzy and stupid king, they also feel sad cause lost a clever and loyalty da chen...so they make "bak chang",throw into the river,hope the fish dun eat Qu Yuan body...and the guy take the dragon boat, row row row on the river,hope can "lau" and get Qu Yuan body...
So,this story pas pas pas so many year, and become to day's " bak chang day" and during this "bak chang"festival, got dragon boat competition held in Penang, also include international competition invite Thailand, Singapore, Indonesia, German, so on so on...see,Qu Yuan so "wei da"...we must proud of him...
Sunday, June 17, 2007
wat a b o r i n g day..
wakeup 10.05am feel s u c k!!!
streamxy damn s l o w forget my c i m b password+id can't reload my t m net
he say his ama n a g g i n g now eating c h i c k e n rice miss my 1 9 3 4 r so muc
feeling abit " t h i n g not go s m o o t h "
ama is making bak chang d...hehehe...but lpq prefer 113 bakchang, if +delivery feel more nicer.kakaka.yesterday get result.old ppl not understand is noting about 4.00.all stupid idiot.blzw duno wan to do wat today.me either.F day seem like nothing day for family.culture not same,thinking not same,everything not same.hard to communicate sometime."yi qie jing zai bu yan zhong" la...madam yeoh calling lunch d,sound like must taking this order...anywhere.if u today got dota,u shud check ur mail d,u mail got alot alot alot msg i think.cz mine also same, dam lot from peltac.haha...blzw mb shud come out an idea for the sae program lo,leader teh??well,sound like slzw oso mus come out idea about the logo and the slogan lao..#@~!&%^* &%$ wat a lauzzzzzy day....if jb now,sure run out watch muvie enjoy spending aircond eat nice2 and sleep sweet beside some1,hehe...gogogolpq...cheers...
streamxy damn s l o w forget my c i m b password+id can't reload my t m net
he say his ama n a g g i n g now eating c h i c k e n rice miss my 1 9 3 4 r so muc
feeling abit " t h i n g not go s m o o t h "
ama is making bak chang d...hehehe...but lpq prefer 113 bakchang, if +delivery feel more nicer.kakaka.yesterday get result.old ppl not understand is noting about 4.00.all stupid idiot.blzw duno wan to do wat today.me either.F day seem like nothing day for family.culture not same,thinking not same,everything not same.hard to communicate sometime."yi qie jing zai bu yan zhong" la...madam yeoh calling lunch d,sound like must taking this order...anywhere.if u today got dota,u shud check ur mail d,u mail got alot alot alot msg i think.cz mine also same, dam lot from peltac.haha...blzw mb shud come out an idea for the sae program lo,leader teh??well,sound like slzw oso mus come out idea about the logo and the slogan lao..#@~!&%^* &%$ wat a lauzzzzzy day....if jb now,sure run out watch muvie enjoy spending aircond eat nice2 and sleep sweet beside some1,hehe...gogogolpq...cheers...
Monday, June 11, 2007
try not so stupid,about everything he use to told me,friend always advise me.But i use to believe blindly everyword he use to say or write.Friend say this is slowly suicide,when wan to save the life,bo body will help me,include myself...haha,this line,i totally believe.
today is another new week,i started to ask him something,after he bzing weekend,sked he said me add mafan at his bz time.although he givind answer,but kind of not my type.anywhere,like usual,i accept wat he say.
today is another new week,two huankat customer come and go,empty hand.
"he today sure walk and stand whole day,again" this morning wake up i told myself.it do happend,i am happy for my correct guessing,so i reward myself with an internet afternun...
he not like me to guess.but he dun understand,i always guessing and predicting,because i am sked.and he not like me to sked,and yet cannot stop and help me stop guessing.cause everytime he just will answer me in cold manner"dun think too muc la.."14alphebet wan me to stop thinking,kind of hard leh tsc.but nvm,i not blame him,cz he dunno wat the punca making me guess guess guess(i think that y he not like me watch guess,hahhaa)
i not like to go find him,becuase"cz ur lgc no transport ma".altough i like to do so.it make me kind of not fair.
while,i think i am kind of unbalance.and maybe not a good lover.but i am sure although he is "experienceS",but suck den me,haha.and he always make dumb.feel like i am walking and he is slowing cing around dunno wan to do wat,and i m stand far infront him,yelling at him,and he smile at me,waving hand.i duno wat he think,he duno wat i think.This is wat make me thinking,this is wat causing u always tell me"dun think too muc la"
and i am always telling u something that not"surface",tat is not"good from outside but inside empty".but he always make fool when i tell him,say me stupid.
and yet,hehe,i am "stupid".that y i now i m lgc' lpc
today is another new week,i started to ask him something,after he bzing weekend,sked he said me add mafan at his bz time.although he givind answer,but kind of not my type.anywhere,like usual,i accept wat he say.
today is another new week,two huankat customer come and go,empty hand.
"he today sure walk and stand whole day,again" this morning wake up i told myself.it do happend,i am happy for my correct guessing,so i reward myself with an internet afternun...
he not like me to guess.but he dun understand,i always guessing and predicting,because i am sked.and he not like me to sked,and yet cannot stop and help me stop guessing.cause everytime he just will answer me in cold manner"dun think too muc la.."14alphebet wan me to stop thinking,kind of hard leh tsc.but nvm,i not blame him,cz he dunno wat the punca making me guess guess guess(i think that y he not like me watch guess,hahhaa)
i not like to go find him,becuase"cz ur lgc no transport ma".altough i like to do so.it make me kind of not fair.
while,i think i am kind of unbalance.and maybe not a good lover.but i am sure although he is "experienceS",but suck den me,haha.and he always make dumb.feel like i am walking and he is slowing cing around dunno wan to do wat,and i m stand far infront him,yelling at him,and he smile at me,waving hand.i duno wat he think,he duno wat i think.This is wat make me thinking,this is wat causing u always tell me"dun think too muc la"
and i am always telling u something that not"surface",tat is not"good from outside but inside empty".but he always make fool when i tell him,say me stupid.
and yet,hehe,i am "stupid".that y i now i m lgc' lpc
Sunday, March 25, 2007
stop acting like this.let me tell you wat is goiong on,the time v spent togther is meaningless.u keep wan more space for yor own,more space with your friend,more this more that,hope me understand,hope me do this hope me do that,u spent ur time playing game,doing gym,study,planning acivities,planning your xtra time.y not you try n understanding me that y i need more time from you,is not you keep want me understanding that u wan more private time form me.ifevery weekend is happend like this,is meaningless,time spent 2gether meaningless mean staying together is meaningless at that point.did you understand.if thing keep like this,i not wish to come n see you forcing yourself spenting those time for me that is meaningless.i more prefer previously that every weekend that got meaning to memory,unlike now,u make me feel that we staying together is meaningless.
Thursday, March 15, 2007
Don't know since when i stop coming this web page,but now coming again.i guess only if i m really happy so i will forget all the unhappy...but now,mab thing not happend as my inspiration,that y i m here...
now i feel really tired and hopeless and energyless and breathless...i m not mean to add ur burden,is really not...i though u know y i actin gso,but u don't...i feel i being treaten,i feel so dangerous,and so unsecure,untrustable to you,you are the causes of make me unsecureable.me now duo't know still want to continue or not,i feel this relationship so fragile,so cant being test...
i know if i let go,you will not do anytghing,even say nothing to rescue it...
mayb i just not tough enuf to let go.or mb just wif one of your word can make a change,but i know,you even wan to do just a single minimum try to grab my loose hand...
if can,i just donwan it to be happend...
now i feel really tired and hopeless and energyless and breathless...i m not mean to add ur burden,is really not...i though u know y i actin gso,but u don't...i feel i being treaten,i feel so dangerous,and so unsecure,untrustable to you,you are the causes of make me unsecureable.me now duo't know still want to continue or not,i feel this relationship so fragile,so cant being test...
i know if i let go,you will not do anytghing,even say nothing to rescue it...
mayb i just not tough enuf to let go.or mb just wif one of your word can make a change,but i know,you even wan to do just a single minimum try to grab my loose hand...
if can,i just donwan it to be happend...
Monday, October 23, 2006
i really hate you right now.
you always do thing without understanding my condition. And you keep expecting me to do this and that, but you never fullfill the expectation to me...
the thing happend today is not just today only...example,you don't like me show yuo that kind stupid face, same as me, i don't wish to see any stupid gong2 face in you, how you feel, what in you mind, you can just tell me, you never think of sharing, everything keeping just in you?is that a thing a sucessman do meh?
2nd, you keep telling me that must understanding in you, must encourange and support you. but y don't you do thing using you time effeectively and wisely, if got something not understand, find out find the fastest way la,keep wasting time. Game is not the thing you do when you got time.
After you seperate half of you in another sector, you keep ignoring me! d0 thing never consider about my feeling, truly.
3rd, is not i baudering you in doing all the thing you want.But you keep ignore me, keep careless in me! since when you have change until like that? the time you give me already reduce and reduce and yet reducing...and me already try very hard not to care bout the time that you can give to me, but can you plz don't waste any time that can spent with me?
sometime i really feel that what i do you really not care at all, not appreciate the sacrify i had make for...i really doubt about the thing you say, that sentence about " i really love you very much, much more than you can feel"...what else that i can feel?
you always do thing without understanding my condition. And you keep expecting me to do this and that, but you never fullfill the expectation to me...
the thing happend today is not just today only...example,you don't like me show yuo that kind stupid face, same as me, i don't wish to see any stupid gong2 face in you, how you feel, what in you mind, you can just tell me, you never think of sharing, everything keeping just in you?is that a thing a sucessman do meh?
2nd, you keep telling me that must understanding in you, must encourange and support you. but y don't you do thing using you time effeectively and wisely, if got something not understand, find out find the fastest way la,keep wasting time. Game is not the thing you do when you got time.
After you seperate half of you in another sector, you keep ignoring me! d0 thing never consider about my feeling, truly.
3rd, is not i baudering you in doing all the thing you want.But you keep ignore me, keep careless in me! since when you have change until like that? the time you give me already reduce and reduce and yet reducing...and me already try very hard not to care bout the time that you can give to me, but can you plz don't waste any time that can spent with me?
sometime i really feel that what i do you really not care at all, not appreciate the sacrify i had make for...i really doubt about the thing you say, that sentence about " i really love you very much, much more than you can feel"...what else that i can feel?
Friday, October 06, 2006
long time not drop here d...almost a year d this board acompany...suppose you know more about...understand...more...
today is 06 oktober 2006 8:26pm,time fly so fast...sad,happy sour,sweet,everything...almost try all in a semester...don't know why,he make her feel so uncertain,unpredictable...mayb stick too much d she think,but she still cant manage to get use when he is not around...time pass,he want and more understanding from her,she think this is reasonable,silently support him,however thing like getting more worst and blur,how to say,he seldomly get to know welll what actually she need,she want,she care...is she change?or he?is it being stable?or not?getting good?or bad?
honestly say,she think too much?or just make every thing simple,understanding make her suffer,and yet he is not understanding enough toward her understanding to him.......
it is not all about giving and receiving,sacrify and getting back...is all about considerating and understanding...
big man hope small lady nonstop to support,care him...small lady hope she nonstop in sayanging and sweetlove living happy ever after...the way of communicating is a problem,she hope he can help her,help himself,help this relationship.and yet he don't know how to help,accidentally make thing worst...
i don't wish everything getting bad and bad...
today is 06 oktober 2006 8:26pm,time fly so fast...sad,happy sour,sweet,everything...almost try all in a semester...don't know why,he make her feel so uncertain,unpredictable...mayb stick too much d she think,but she still cant manage to get use when he is not around...time pass,he want and more understanding from her,she think this is reasonable,silently support him,however thing like getting more worst and blur,how to say,he seldomly get to know welll what actually she need,she want,she care...is she change?or he?is it being stable?or not?getting good?or bad?
honestly say,she think too much?or just make every thing simple,understanding make her suffer,and yet he is not understanding enough toward her understanding to him.......
it is not all about giving and receiving,sacrify and getting back...is all about considerating and understanding...
big man hope small lady nonstop to support,care him...small lady hope she nonstop in sayanging and sweetlove living happy ever after...the way of communicating is a problem,she hope he can help her,help himself,help this relationship.and yet he don't know how to help,accidentally make thing worst...
i don't wish everything getting bad and bad...
Monday, September 25, 2006
...lIfE Isn't smOOth As yOU thInk...
Life?wat is that?it not happend,wat u think not happend,wat u xpect not happend,wat you wan never happend,wat you hope never happend,wat you wish never don't know when can realise...
sometime you make me duno wat to do,sometime you really treat me so nice,treat me so warm,treat me so sweet,make me wan yi lai i n you...but sometime yuo really treat me so wierd,mayb jz myself sensitive,mayb i look myself inside you more important den you are,the caring manner can change to careless,ignorent,coldness,even not paying attention when we are spenting time together...
i feel like you not longer appreciate what i have done for you,mayb i do many so many thing until you already ba for all the thing i do for you...you not longer hug me in your arm,you not longer care me how i feel what i feel when i need you to be by myside,you not longer apreciate with my understanding and xpecting more n more,sometime i really wish that time would not fly so fast,perhaps i m more happy when the time we use to be together,before...y i have such feeling...
sometime really sad when think about this,it make my tear come down when i write this,i really hope that you can read this(but i think you don't know,cz you still sleep like pig),may b,perhaps you don't know,mayb i shoud send to your mail...
sometime you make me duno wat to do,sometime you really treat me so nice,treat me so warm,treat me so sweet,make me wan yi lai i n you...but sometime yuo really treat me so wierd,mayb jz myself sensitive,mayb i look myself inside you more important den you are,the caring manner can change to careless,ignorent,coldness,even not paying attention when we are spenting time together...
i feel like you not longer appreciate what i have done for you,mayb i do many so many thing until you already ba for all the thing i do for you...you not longer hug me in your arm,you not longer care me how i feel what i feel when i need you to be by myside,you not longer apreciate with my understanding and xpecting more n more,sometime i really wish that time would not fly so fast,perhaps i m more happy when the time we use to be together,before...y i have such feeling...
sometime really sad when think about this,it make my tear come down when i write this,i really hope that you can read this(but i think you don't know,cz you still sleep like pig),may b,perhaps you don't know,mayb i shoud send to your mail...
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
today is my birthday,yesterday lgc bring me go buffey o,eat till v 2 stomuch big big,hehe.(tat stupid idiot eat till like having a baby liao.)
chung ling also celebrate with me,but seem like me more xpert compare to them,they cant manage to play me,hahaha,but abit diappoited lo,lgc cnt with me...duno monday he got come n find me not?
to day 1030 cm gona celebrate,gofi tell me not hav present,but got a big surprise,really surprise leh,c my own lgc taking a birthday cake 4 me,really wan hug him n kiss him tat movement...i tough will hav a bday hug,duno he such a bit idiot la,haha,stand still still duno what to do like a puppet...lgc r,u rmb o not?lpc got tell u,i m with you all the time,so u can come n find me,whenever wherever whatever happen and you are,next time anyting happend don't jz do noting stand still2 k?
actually lpc really seriously happy to c u just now,if ltr can hear from you sure be wonderful,look forward to your bday surprise?lpc make it bigger like a boom,k?i know you like a surprise,me too like a surprise,but surprise that arange by you own n by other is not same ma,rite?n different surprise happend different timing ma,k?
ltr tmb sleep early ya,do you love me.yala,i sure wan ask every day la,cannot meh?u rmb drink lot water k?bbgal love u many many much,u shold know tat v3ry clear,rite?
chung ling also celebrate with me,but seem like me more xpert compare to them,they cant manage to play me,hahaha,but abit diappoited lo,lgc cnt with me...duno monday he got come n find me not?
to day 1030 cm gona celebrate,gofi tell me not hav present,but got a big surprise,really surprise leh,c my own lgc taking a birthday cake 4 me,really wan hug him n kiss him tat movement...i tough will hav a bday hug,duno he such a bit idiot la,haha,stand still still duno what to do like a puppet...lgc r,u rmb o not?lpc got tell u,i m with you all the time,so u can come n find me,whenever wherever whatever happen and you are,next time anyting happend don't jz do noting stand still2 k?
actually lpc really seriously happy to c u just now,if ltr can hear from you sure be wonderful,look forward to your bday surprise?lpc make it bigger like a boom,k?i know you like a surprise,me too like a surprise,but surprise that arange by you own n by other is not same ma,rite?n different surprise happend different timing ma,k?
ltr tmb sleep early ya,do you love me.yala,i sure wan ask every day la,cannot meh?u rmb drink lot water k?bbgal love u many many much,u shold know tat v3ry clear,rite?
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
hmm...yesterday so tired,but still manage to listen the thing he wan share with me,hehe,lucky be can be with him share the thing he wan to say 1st minute 1thinking 1person,that is me..hehe
but,the boss tell him i m d one who make him success and cause him down..huh,haih..duno,m i so super meh??i jz one of the element of his life lo...don't woprry,i m not going to stop wat ever u are going to do,as long as you happy,as long as you still remember you have me!...c,i m so ez contented person nia,so no demand...LOVE,is true,is not all about romantic,gain and lose,is aboutacptance of all that is,has been,will be,and not will be...peace is seeing a sunset and knowing who to thank and appreciate..cause the happiest people don't have the best in the world,but they just make the best with all the thing they best,so they have the best!...
i know,start from 0 is far far more than 'hard'...considerate and understanding can be the main to support...sometime i wonder i have this both or nt?did i?sometime i think i m farly not enough understanding for him...just tell if there are some place to add on,dun let me alone mong seng seng at there,k?
love u.
but,the boss tell him i m d one who make him success and cause him down..huh,haih..duno,m i so super meh??i jz one of the element of his life lo...don't woprry,i m not going to stop wat ever u are going to do,as long as you happy,as long as you still remember you have me!...c,i m so ez contented person nia,so no demand...LOVE,is true,is not all about romantic,gain and lose,is aboutacptance of all that is,has been,will be,and not will be...peace is seeing a sunset and knowing who to thank and appreciate..cause the happiest people don't have the best in the world,but they just make the best with all the thing they best,so they have the best!...
i know,start from 0 is far far more than 'hard'...considerate and understanding can be the main to support...sometime i wonder i have this both or nt?did i?sometime i think i m farly not enough understanding for him...just tell if there are some place to add on,dun let me alone mong seng seng at there,k?
love u.
Monday, September 04, 2006
time 7:41pm weather:mizing him
make sense if keep give lot time 4 u 2 do all the thing that 4 yourown good?after sacrify yourself to fullfill his dream?like him love him want him need him,so gotta let him go?(hmm...auther of book say 1,hm...not deny it)
wah...so many homework o...i can predict wat lgc wana tell me if i complain this with him.."who tell you don't want to do?"...or..."do now la,don't waste time anymore"...or...
if i tired,can i lie in your hug?
make sense if keep give lot time 4 u 2 do all the thing that 4 yourown good?after sacrify yourself to fullfill his dream?like him love him want him need him,so gotta let him go?(hmm...auther of book say 1,hm...not deny it)
wah...so many homework o...i can predict wat lgc wana tell me if i complain this with him.."who tell you don't want to do?"...or..."do now la,don't waste time anymore"...or...
if i tired,can i lie in your hug?
now time 7:29pm,jz finish read couple page my book...hehe,jz now wan do my fm homework 1,sorry o(lgc tell me mz do alot hmwrk la,cz i eat a lot magi jz now...)^-^
now eye stop at d crystal u bid 4 me....stupidear use rm6 2 bid it 4 me,after i say pretty he ask me like it not=)...)thanks ya,use left 2nd finger touch it,feel very cold,hehe,cz i put it lot water,from the paip..=p
RealPlayer:track6 7:32pm...room very queit,ur hm go out d,leave ur pity lpc alone here,got fan sound,got keyboard sound,got justin song...same time,i miss you so m u c h m u c h . . .
"Do you love me?" "why you love me?" i use to ask you,i also don't know y,gal always do silly thing,jz like me,hope to get a certain answer,from a very clear yet blur question..."you say leh..."you use to answer me like that...
wat is love?you feel not secure when not hear from him.wat is love?you feel uncomfordtable when you don't know where are him.wat is love?smell lonely when can feel him.wat is love?i know wat is love...some sort like wana die,when time is without you...
now eye stop at d crystal u bid 4 me....stupidear use rm6 2 bid it 4 me,after i say pretty he ask me like it not=)...)thanks ya,use left 2nd finger touch it,feel very cold,hehe,cz i put it lot water,from the paip..=p
RealPlayer:track6 7:32pm...room very queit,ur hm go out d,leave ur pity lpc alone here,got fan sound,got keyboard sound,got justin song...same time,i miss you so m u c h m u c h . . .
"Do you love me?" "why you love me?" i use to ask you,i also don't know y,gal always do silly thing,jz like me,hope to get a certain answer,from a very clear yet blur question..."you say leh..."you use to answer me like that...
wat is love?you feel not secure when not hear from him.wat is love?you feel uncomfordtable when you don't know where are him.wat is love?smell lonely when can feel him.wat is love?i know wat is love...some sort like wana die,when time is without you...
Friday, September 01, 2006
^h a p p y n a t i o n a l d a y^
merdeka,1st time can so happy...lgc bring lpc tp c firework in danga bay,hehe,gofi need wait one day to back home,i fast fast tok can happy happy play go kai kai with my dear dear lo after test...after goin back change n eat,v finally reach there d...got a very good policewomen(lgc say 1 lo,hehe),ask 4 direction...we walk..chat...laugh...eat 'mang jiang kuih'...but 'chipmore'...play boat(yeah~lpc like sam pa lau,never play b4)...can c fire work later,on d lake,with d paradel boat,n of course with my lag(is lgc idea la,he say can c firework up there near near mz b fun 1..hehe)...so i take my 1st paradel boat,with my lgc...EH,got fish leh..WAH,d fish can fly leh,wah,n fly inside our boat...
finally,the firework...eh,wait a minute,y so small n so far..(lgc very disappointed le...)and then got a fire work at land site,wah firework nearer and nearer lpc...so happy,altot so small but me ald so happy d....
suddenly,we hear a huge sound,come from a very near,when v still playing with that fish flying into our boat jz...WOW..lgc,i cant believe it,is a firework,fall rite infront my eye,so sos ososososososoososo big,so huge,so round,more more more beautiful,coming up next,side...so so like huge mushroon in d sky,and become tiny tiny star(act is fire bug)fall down like a snow rain,so beautiful....and "PING PANG PING PANG",i watch till lying on my life jacket,lgc even sked me fall into d water,i like him so much when he holding me tide tide ^-^...but d fire snow become bigger when d fire work become bigger,n drop into the water(damn d person say at the other side,where got,no side,is up side!)...RUN,lgc,lpc very sked leh tiny2 fire fall into boat...
haha,finally finish d firework d...wah really amazing,d big mushroom fall rite infornt my eye,one den one time nearer and nearer....2day is d wonderful day,i m d most xinfu small lady in d world,i have my big man beside me,we do many thing together,n 4 d 1st time,,,,merdeka,i love you so much...
finally,the firework...eh,wait a minute,y so small n so far..(lgc very disappointed le...)and then got a fire work at land site,wah firework nearer and nearer lpc...so happy,altot so small but me ald so happy d....
suddenly,we hear a huge sound,come from a very near,when v still playing with that fish flying into our boat jz...WOW..lgc,i cant believe it,is a firework,fall rite infront my eye,so sos ososososososoososo big,so huge,so round,more more more beautiful,coming up next,side...so so like huge mushroon in d sky,and become tiny tiny star(act is fire bug)fall down like a snow rain,so beautiful....and "PING PANG PING PANG",i watch till lying on my life jacket,lgc even sked me fall into d water,i like him so much when he holding me tide tide ^-^...but d fire snow become bigger when d fire work become bigger,n drop into the water(damn d person say at the other side,where got,no side,is up side!)...RUN,lgc,lpc very sked leh tiny2 fire fall into boat...
haha,finally finish d firework d...wah really amazing,d big mushroom fall rite infornt my eye,one den one time nearer and nearer....2day is d wonderful day,i m d most xinfu small lady in d world,i have my big man beside me,we do many thing together,n 4 d 1st time,,,,merdeka,i love you so much...
Monday, August 14, 2006
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
T.T
i hope u r here now,i feel like wana cry out liao,i hope can hug u n cry,don't know why i can change like this,i m not not not not like to cry,but after bengkel i seem like cry alot alot alot...
recently don't know what going on,why so much thing like to happend together?is it all of them like to date together n pop out to bother me?someting is going on but i don't know what is going on,i hate such uncertain feeling,is so so so so so...don't know,i just want to be normal,everything just back to normal,really cant imagine what will happend next,very uncertain and unsecure and unpredictable and uncontroable,i just hope everything will be fine,just be fine....
why they keep say make it simple?everything will be ok..when it will be ok??when v will be ok??i don't want be not ok,i don't want like this,i hate myself for so many reason,maybe i am stupid,i just tiny normal fragile people,easily break and will not recover for long long long long long long long enough untill....why thing seem to be hard to commit,i know since already started and you should commit to it,that why till now i still the stuborn head little girl,i don't want to just give up for just a tiny ant thing...but why that feeling s almost make me cant breath and killing my soulllllllllllllllllllll
why they keep say make it simple?everything will be ok..when it will be ok??when v will be ok??i don't want be not ok,i don't want like this,i hate myself for so many reason,maybe i am stupid,i just tiny normal fragile people,easily break and will not recover for long long long long long long long enough untill....why thing seem to be hard to commit,i know since already started and you should commit to it,that why till now i still the stuborn head little girl,i don't want to just give up for just a tiny ant thing...but why that feeling s almost make me cant breath and killing my soulllllllllllllllllllll
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
.+: ^ b o r i n g ^ :+.
don't know why keeping playing in my mind,chating is some kinda waste of money...nah,no la,cz time is money ma..so without waitng em to finish all the conversation i tok ald take a leave,alone come to cict...got a person,4get who d tell me u life is full of aloness,so dun be so lonely,alone din mean you are lonely,so as lonely not so happen when you are alone...me kinda dunno time management person,haih,wat a loser...
friday clas cancel,n v din go watson 4 assignment d,waste time...cm all wan go shoping,sing-k,pc fair,n bla bla bla,,,but how come when i listen all d invitation feel so no mood to join em leh?is so not like me...perhaps mb nothing i need but just lgc...
weather so unpredicable,cold hot cold hot,you are,remember drink more water,dun b lazy take water n cook,eat when hungry,jacket when cold,your nose so sensitive,abit abit cold tok si si sok sok liao
friday clas cancel,n v din go watson 4 assignment d,waste time...cm all wan go shoping,sing-k,pc fair,n bla bla bla,,,but how come when i listen all d invitation feel so no mood to join em leh?is so not like me...perhaps mb nothing i need but just lgc...
weather so unpredicable,cold hot cold hot,you are,remember drink more water,dun b lazy take water n cook,eat when hungry,jacket when cold,your nose so sensitive,abit abit cold tok si si sok sok liao
Thursday, July 27, 2006
now my ph is 11.08 27.072006,d pc is wf03,and d computer keep showing notice that 'virus infected',jz now lgc msg sy his name in golden key list..sud think that lpc not that capable,not suit 4 him,,,hiah,,but,smart and stupid usually is perfect match,so dun care ya,as long as you love me...
now very cold,but very hot out there...
told you to drink many water,dun get hunger,if tired go and rest,if hot take a shower,if down complaning to lpc....but you are not drinking many water,lazy to bath,eat so less,where got nutrition o?and lgc mz remeber that lpc will always there for you,to share evthing happy and throw everything sad,cz i m not same like other or someone other else.
now very cold,but very hot out there...
told you to drink many water,dun get hunger,if tired go and rest,if hot take a shower,if down complaning to lpc....but you are not drinking many water,lazy to bath,eat so less,where got nutrition o?and lgc mz remeber that lpc will always there for you,to share evthing happy and throw everything sad,cz i m not same like other or someone other else.
Thursday, July 20, 2006
huh?!crious meh?But lgc stil vry luv u wo,o iz we ard reach a stable state?dun think too muc negative ting,lgc wil stay wif u 4ever n ever luv u til u die =)
sender:+0174168003 sent:5-july-2006 22:19:58
lpc,sorry2 make u feel tis way.lgc will try2 improve in future.but 1 is true,tat i really luv u vry muc,muc mor than u can feel
sender:+0174168003 sent:8-july-2006 02:46:48
lgc,i think you are not confident enough in you lo...lpc since where sound like not missing you?lpc miss you 4 more you can think even till get xiang shi bing tat DR teh cant cure also...but 1 thing 4 sure,when feeling not well,can see you already recover haf liao,is a true,where you get such ability to cure me without any medicine huh???are you a god??haha,no la,lgc is my angel...lpc very sell fish 1,i won share you with anyone,if can,i will wish to keep you in the pocket,wei,u tis big stupid really know how much i care,miss,n love you bo???you are the one who make me got xiang shi bing,you must responsible to it,or else, I WILL DEFINETELY BITE YOU TILL O CHE LASTING NOT ONLY 1 WEEK!!!!!
ho,sum1 comlain xinku o.Lgc nt stupig,jz tat u nt sy clear enuf.Sy d lo,i m urs,u cn do anythng to me ma =)lpc writin blog nw,mz b complainin lgc,iz?lgc is a mafan bf ez?Other ppl bf gt so mafan o nt le..eh,jz nw bfas u eat wat?Dun get urself hungry..Guai2,den lgc syg u d most bb
sender:+0174168003 sent:20-july-2006 11:06:43
lgc 1st tiem send me long long msg...so happy...dear,one thing is true that we still have long way to go,and i m not giving up,no matter what happen and how hard could it be...i know tat you wont let me go through all alone
sender:+0174168003 sent:5-july-2006 22:19:58
lpc,sorry2 make u feel tis way.lgc will try2 improve in future.but 1 is true,tat i really luv u vry muc,muc mor than u can feel
sender:+0174168003 sent:8-july-2006 02:46:48
lgc,i think you are not confident enough in you lo...lpc since where sound like not missing you?lpc miss you 4 more you can think even till get xiang shi bing tat DR teh cant cure also...but 1 thing 4 sure,when feeling not well,can see you already recover haf liao,is a true,where you get such ability to cure me without any medicine huh???are you a god??haha,no la,lgc is my angel...lpc very sell fish 1,i won share you with anyone,if can,i will wish to keep you in the pocket,wei,u tis big stupid really know how much i care,miss,n love you bo???you are the one who make me got xiang shi bing,you must responsible to it,or else, I WILL DEFINETELY BITE YOU TILL O CHE LASTING NOT ONLY 1 WEEK!!!!!
ho,sum1 comlain xinku o.Lgc nt stupig,jz tat u nt sy clear enuf.Sy d lo,i m urs,u cn do anythng to me ma =)lpc writin blog nw,mz b complainin lgc,iz?lgc is a mafan bf ez?Other ppl bf gt so mafan o nt le..eh,jz nw bfas u eat wat?Dun get urself hungry..Guai2,den lgc syg u d most bb
sender:+0174168003 sent:20-july-2006 11:06:43
lgc 1st tiem send me long long msg...so happy...dear,one thing is true that we still have long way to go,and i m not giving up,no matter what happen and how hard could it be...i know tat you wont let me go through all alone
lgc:
hihi,dint think m i here leh,,,all jz thinking i m ks wif cm,always say me ks with cm,u nt even c with ur own eye,,,i won do something wrong 2 u,y u will have tat kind of feeling...i know tat,is a kinda 'owning' feeling,i feel tat b4,but i able to make it in another way,a way to understanding you,don't ask me y u so bad but still love u,den y i m stupid you still want me?and even v r both cant live without each other???
haha,act compare to other,we are more lucky enough,we no need to wait for month to meet each other,or talk using a device,we just talk through air,haha,cz u r in front me ma...so,that y i am very appreciate that you are with me,when i need,almost,everytime when i need you,excpt few time,i m not blaming yuo,cause i know yuor hardness...
i also dunno i write wat,just wan write something...get to know you ald a big miracle,miracle not happening frequently,jz once in a blue moon,so u like a blue moon 4 me4...nah,act i can sacrify lot thing without asking any giving from you,you know???y you keep asking stupid question n hope to get answer from me le?and you ald know the answer..but y when i ask u dun wan to answer me leh??wei,is not fair you know????
and you got promise me long long time ago that you wont luan luan think thing liao y you still luan luan think thing leh???dun worry,lpc will stay away from those guy la...
hihi,dint think m i here leh,,,all jz thinking i m ks wif cm,always say me ks with cm,u nt even c with ur own eye,,,i won do something wrong 2 u,y u will have tat kind of feeling...i know tat,is a kinda 'owning' feeling,i feel tat b4,but i able to make it in another way,a way to understanding you,don't ask me y u so bad but still love u,den y i m stupid you still want me?and even v r both cant live without each other???
haha,act compare to other,we are more lucky enough,we no need to wait for month to meet each other,or talk using a device,we just talk through air,haha,cz u r in front me ma...so,that y i am very appreciate that you are with me,when i need,almost,everytime when i need you,excpt few time,i m not blaming yuo,cause i know yuor hardness...
i also dunno i write wat,just wan write something...get to know you ald a big miracle,miracle not happening frequently,jz once in a blue moon,so u like a blue moon 4 me4...nah,act i can sacrify lot thing without asking any giving from you,you know???y you keep asking stupid question n hope to get answer from me le?and you ald know the answer..but y when i ask u dun wan to answer me leh??wei,is not fair you know????
and you got promise me long long time ago that you wont luan luan think thing liao y you still luan luan think thing leh???dun worry,lpc will stay away from those guy la...
Thursday, July 13, 2006
Today saw something,and realise something,is a kind of word,knock on my stupid big head,like a sound of big "t-o-n-g"...and i wake up...
"MAY BE THERE ARE FRIENDS AROUND YOU,BUT WHEN YOU ARE IN TROUBLE,THE ONE WHO WILL STAND OUT AND HELP AND BY YOUR SIDE,USUALLY IS YOUR BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND"
p/s:^('w')^ sorry dear,i wouldn't say "tao yan ni" emotionlly d...because that words is hurt...
Tuesday, July 11, 2006
when a guy(girl)missing each other...
When a guy calls u,he wants to be with you
When a guy is quiet,He's listening to you...
When a guy is not arguing,He realizes he's wrong
When a guy says, "I'm fine," after a fewminutes,he means it
When a guy stares at you,he thinks you're the most beautiful thing intheworld
When you're laying your head on a guy's chest,he has the world
When a guy calls you everyday,he is in love
When a (good) guy say he loves you,he means it
When a guy says he can't live without you,he's with you till your done
When a guy says, "I miss you,"he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else
Girl Facts:
When a girl is quiet,millions of things are running through her mind.
When a girl is not arguing,she is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds,she is not at all fine.
When a girl stares at you,she is wondering why you are sowonderful.
When a girl lays on your chest,she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl calls you everyday,she is seeking for your attention.
When a girl wants to see you everyday,she wants to be pampered.
When a girl says, "I'll love you forever,"she means it.
When a girl says that she can't live without you,she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says, "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you morethan that
so,ah dear u kn0w o not now how much i miss you???n i do miss u alot
When a guy is quiet,He's listening to you...
When a guy is not arguing,He realizes he's wrong
When a guy says, "I'm fine," after a fewminutes,he means it
When a guy stares at you,he thinks you're the most beautiful thing intheworld
When you're laying your head on a guy's chest,he has the world
When a guy calls you everyday,he is in love
When a (good) guy say he loves you,he means it
When a guy says he can't live without you,he's with you till your done
When a guy says, "I miss you,"he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else
Girl Facts:
When a girl is quiet,millions of things are running through her mind.
When a girl is not arguing,she is thinking deeply.
When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,she is wondering how long you will be around.
When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds,she is not at all fine.
When a girl stares at you,she is wondering why you are sowonderful.
When a girl lays on your chest,she is wishing for you to be hers forever.
When a girl calls you everyday,she is seeking for your attention.
When a girl wants to see you everyday,she wants to be pampered.
When a girl says, "I'll love you forever,"she means it.
When a girl says that she can't live without you,she has made up her mind that you are her future.
When a girl says, "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you morethan that
so,ah dear u kn0w o not now how much i miss you???n i do miss u alot
hmm....back scl d,abit not xi guan,dunno y...hmm,recently discover myself got xiang shi bin o,feel like dying soon soon soon...lgc now doing wat????rest in room...wawawa,,,later class dismiss o...so happy,wonder later lgc clas will dismiss o not,,hehe...jz now say a very funny articles,she post in my buletin,,kakaka
Wednesday, June 14, 2006
about a girl and a boy
long time ago,there was a girl,fall in love with a boy...1st time she feel so different from the past,cause she never feel so before,so deeply for a person...she like him so much,really like him very much...sometime the boy did not alert that he did something that hurt the girl,but the girl belive that it just some small error,may be causing big problem in future,but she very sure will not let bad thing happend,she hate blank promises,that why she seldom promise thing to the boy,scared she could not full fill it dream,but they do have some promises,that the girl belive she will make it come true,together with her love one...the girl like the boy so much,this make her think for future...about the successman and the small women behind...
they have alot of happy time together...sometime the girl emotional,she very upset,sorry...but the boy just accept it in silence...the girl know the boy was a really good guy...she feel so xinfu,appreiate,lucky,happy...time by time the love grow between them...
the girl want to tell the boy,she will do her best to care him,love him...just like the boy said,will protect the girl,care her,love her till ever...
they have alot of happy time together...sometime the girl emotional,she very upset,sorry...but the boy just accept it in silence...the girl know the boy was a really good guy...she feel so xinfu,appreiate,lucky,happy...time by time the love grow between them...
the girl want to tell the boy,she will do her best to care him,love him...just like the boy said,will protect the girl,care her,love her till ever...
Monday, June 12, 2006
"h.e.n. s.i.a.n ahhhhh......"today you jz tell me a couple of word nia:bath already?doing wat now?y miss me?2day i...full already?...tat is all...miss you ma miss you la,got y punya meh?????jz now mum call...den i got lot lot thing wana tell you 1,how know you zzz...nvm,tell you when you back la,hope u back earlier...but u tell me cm wana play game...k,fine lo,you know how unhappy i am also i won say "c.a.n.n.o.t." 1 la,i m not that bad either...then i tok think what is d next word you wana tell me...you probadly will ask me what i wana eat...bingo!u jz send me a msg ask me what i wana eat -_-..."dun buy the thing i dun wan...you eat wat i eat wat" take a look around me,know how i feel now? like usual,alone in room...lgc throw me alone in room,jz he now with cm,not lec...mb u ll think in room i also play game,with cm i also play game,den i play with cm more fun...but not in my mind in room you are with me but with cm you are not with me lo...k la...win all your cm la...IF NOT SLEEP FLOOR!!!
"mum wan me back earlier"
"mum wan me back earlier"
Saturday, June 10, 2006
really feng3 ci4...a lot of people say,when single,at night when cant fall asleep want find a person very hard...but as i said when couple also not have any different...at night when cant fall asleep still alone sitting in front of the computer don't know can do what...what will you feel when you can't sleep,playing game but i sleep like a pig???think liao also feel so sour,sometime i just need you to stay with me when i need you...but from the other side,where am i the time you need me?did i stay with you?did i understand how you feel?
i don't like being alone,ha,i think no one like feeling being alone...haha,you lose already,who said want acompany watch dvd liao baru play game?but can't tahan fall asleep?now sleep like a pig...let me alone so pity can't sleep...tomorrow wake up you play game what else can i do?...so ke xi,what a lose,,,actually we together can finish it by tonight,just left 29 and 30 nia,then you play your game i make my dream,sleep till tomorrow late late also no problem,fan zhen you not going school also,ha,so happy...but,if really happend now i am not going to type such thing here liao la.
life of being married...ya?.......still long way to learn...
i don't like being alone,ha,i think no one like feeling being alone...haha,you lose already,who said want acompany watch dvd liao baru play game?but can't tahan fall asleep?now sleep like a pig...let me alone so pity can't sleep...tomorrow wake up you play game what else can i do?...so ke xi,what a lose,,,actually we together can finish it by tonight,just left 29 and 30 nia,then you play your game i make my dream,sleep till tomorrow late late also no problem,fan zhen you not going school also,ha,so happy...but,if really happend now i am not going to type such thing here liao la.
life of being married...ya?.......still long way to learn...
Thursday, June 08, 2006
Wednesday, June 07, 2006
hehe,evtime when dream bt smthg not good lpc sure no mood ho...hahha,dun angry ya,tat mean tat need lgc 2 kai tao ma after huat siao,,,act no need 2 say long2 1,smtime jz a big hug ald more den enuf d...thanks o 4 willing 2 huat siao wif me..
haha,thanks 4 cleaning d bathroom leh,,,,,GREATful o 2 hav lgc...how d sushi tasted o,,,never give ur coment yet,,,jz say it is tasty is not enuf la dear,,,hmmm,next time dunwan make tatmuch liao...lpc cant eat tat much ho,tis mean tat lpc not fat lo...hahhahaha ^.^
act u r a good lgc,feel like i m not a good lpc...
ystdt listen so many thing,bt jern n etc...hmm....lpc don't know ur past,is not a big deal,at least i hav u for now n d coming day,everything n anything,no matter how hard d day,lpc oso will stick wif lgc 1...hahha,,,
got feel lucky n happy 2 hav me???i got feel so so so so so so so much lucky can know u,,,n more more more more more more more more more more happy 2 hav u as lgc...
haha,thanks 4 cleaning d bathroom leh,,,,,GREATful o 2 hav lgc...how d sushi tasted o,,,never give ur coment yet,,,jz say it is tasty is not enuf la dear,,,hmmm,next time dunwan make tatmuch liao...lpc cant eat tat much ho,tis mean tat lpc not fat lo...hahhahaha ^.^
act u r a good lgc,feel like i m not a good lpc...
ystdt listen so many thing,bt jern n etc...hmm....lpc don't know ur past,is not a big deal,at least i hav u for now n d coming day,everything n anything,no matter how hard d day,lpc oso will stick wif lgc 1...hahha,,,
got feel lucky n happy 2 hav me???i got feel so so so so so so so much lucky can know u,,,n more more more more more more more more more more happy 2 hav u as lgc...
Friday, June 02, 2006
blue fish don't like 2 cry,waste energy,water,after cry so hungry n wana find thing eat...bcz oof who r blue fish cry???reason mostly bcz big stupid fish doesnt alert tat ald did smthg that make blue fish feel like not being concern enough...wei,is time ur turn to keep ur own cloth inside d bag d...n rmb get well soon...evthing,foot o nose,,,^-^
Tuesday, May 30, 2006
just notice that time inside here wrong d,now is 1520,,,sky like wanna rain,hear d sound of ice cream car..hahha..just watch finish stephen chow's movie,wah,and remember back monkey god is d warrior i like d most,since when i was young enough,from d 1st time i watch d tape,tat time still no have vcd dvd...
end of may d,,so fast time fly,ah dear just back scl 1hr smtg,wei,did you notice tat when you sleep huh,got bite teeth,baby hear b4,sound horror ooo,got ppl bite teeth like wanna bite somethng,like screen in d muvie,vampire wanna come out bite ppl liao,scary nia...
when free can take off d fan lid ya???dunwan 2 remind back cos wan u rmb it urself..haha,but sound great hard ho,cz 5005 not kinda good remember silly stuff ppl 1,nvm la,lpc jz wait n c when...hahha...
end of may d,,so fast time fly,ah dear just back scl 1hr smtg,wei,did you notice tat when you sleep huh,got bite teeth,baby hear b4,sound horror ooo,got ppl bite teeth like wanna bite somethng,like screen in d muvie,vampire wanna come out bite ppl liao,scary nia...
when free can take off d fan lid ya???dunwan 2 remind back cos wan u rmb it urself..haha,but sound great hard ho,cz 5005 not kinda good remember silly stuff ppl 1,nvm la,lpc jz wait n c when...hahha...
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
'~'DN WRRY'~'
Don't worry,lpc can tc herself,n she won feel boring,mb sumtime,but she is a intelligent girl ma,,will find thing n do,so she cant feel boring,will energertic all d time,xcept sleepy time la,dun 4get lpc is a great sleeper,like pig liao...hahhaha,now HOLIDAY ma,relax relax abit,nex sem wana fight3 d...
like the time evdy wake up make breakfast sleep naruto game muvie mail wait lgc come back ask how d day...hahahah,hw bt bodyguard leh?like evdy wake up,back home 1st thng is meet tat lovely caring cute baba siao siao naugthy LPC ???kakaka...
jz nw play game,,,game over d,,,bt nvm la,sucess is loser's mummy ma...practice few time sure can win LGC d,sure,very sure,,,hahahahha
3.00pm,16/5,slzw miz blzw muc muc...^-^
like the time evdy wake up make breakfast sleep naruto game muvie mail wait lgc come back ask how d day...hahahah,hw bt bodyguard leh?like evdy wake up,back home 1st thng is meet tat lovely caring cute baba siao siao naugthy LPC ???kakaka...
jz nw play game,,,game over d,,,bt nvm la,sucess is loser's mummy ma...practice few time sure can win LGC d,sure,very sure,,,hahahahha
3.00pm,16/5,slzw miz blzw muc muc...^-^
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
housewife
2006,did people still remember the term 'housewife'...housewife...arr,sound like a maid,is a qualify maid,do this do that order this order that,,,in return,sometime get nothing...haih...now really feel like being a maid,do this do that but seem like people don't know how to appreciate all the sacrification...~.~
Tuesday, May 09, 2006
may ald lo...feel like autumn d...n make ppl so lz 2 do thing nia,no aim,no plan,jus fun of life...really need change liao...coming time wanna fight fight fight,is time 2 plan bout d future d...
stupig bodyguard sumtime really stupid,,,dunno is scold so many time n bcum like tat???hahha,dun worry,,,although stupid,but still qualify 2 b lpc bodyguard la...k???
haih...once ald stop,tat mean lazy 2 move ald...now really b pig d,,,dun care tat muc la,,,still got ppl willing 2 tc of lpc ma,kaka,rite???
lgc doing wat now???so sian o....dun 4get u still own me 4 thing ya!!!!WAHAHA...
stupig bodyguard sumtime really stupid,,,dunno is scold so many time n bcum like tat???hahha,dun worry,,,although stupid,but still qualify 2 b lpc bodyguard la...k???
haih...once ald stop,tat mean lazy 2 move ald...now really b pig d,,,dun care tat muc la,,,still got ppl willing 2 tc of lpc ma,kaka,rite???
lgc doing wat now???so sian o....dun 4get u still own me 4 thing ya!!!!WAHAHA...
Wednesday, April 05, 2006
body guard
i have a tai tao ha body guard...he don't know buy me breakfast,lunch o dinner,include supper...haha..but he know how 2 tc of me(iz?)kaka...wei,don't think i really super small lady ya,i m not tat strong as u can imagine,,,how know if one day i collapse leh???i didn't say u r not caring enough,i mean sometime u r little careless enough...don't worry,i m here not to complain anything...so body guard,u no need do any changes,un?what i mean is i m a ez contented person,keep on remember appreciating wat i have,i don't want to become anyone's burden...is unbreathable...body guard,u r d best know???i m so proud of u o...kakakka
Monday, March 20, 2006
:+:MAGIC TIME:+:
hiu...time really fly fast,without notice it,today is the 1st day of 3rd week lo...lgc,u doing wat now???lpc wish u all d best in ur 2 9 exam ya,ganbatte!!!! (^-^)
hate..y like tat o,ming ming i save in drafs ma y dun hav 1???hmm...later go back need to do it again...assignment r assingment...without u my life can say complete o incomplete leh..haih...
Just now friend told me a news,,haih,again discover life is full of many many many...hardnessive..sorry i cant help...mb i m d lucky person..I WILL APPRECIATE WHAT I HAVE,really....
wah,another wonderful time,wish i won wake up...y d time cant stop at d moment leh...altot like tat,so lucky to get know u o ^-^...is a miracle...lgc r,thanks 4 everything,anything,all d thing u give 2 lpc...hope tat v can get through all d thing,no matter is difficulthy o happiness...k?
dissapoited r...is a very hurt feeling leh...i dun wan give anyone hav such feeling bcz of me...can i?
hate..y like tat o,ming ming i save in drafs ma y dun hav 1???hmm...later go back need to do it again...assignment r assingment...without u my life can say complete o incomplete leh..haih...
Just now friend told me a news,,haih,again discover life is full of many many many...hardnessive..sorry i cant help...mb i m d lucky person..I WILL APPRECIATE WHAT I HAVE,really....
wah,another wonderful time,wish i won wake up...y d time cant stop at d moment leh...altot like tat,so lucky to get know u o ^-^...is a miracle...lgc r,thanks 4 everything,anything,all d thing u give 2 lpc...hope tat v can get through all d thing,no matter is difficulthy o happiness...k?
dissapoited r...is a very hurt feeling leh...i dun wan give anyone hav such feeling bcz of me...can i?
Thursday, March 16, 2006
whole class rushing assignment..life r..
cold cold ooo..look like all bzing in own grouup work...fun leh when c this picture..so coperative..jia you o 1SHF...
lgc msg me...make me think of his hug kaka....n d warm pizza...really ooo,how come u always appeare in my mind 1 o??steal all my brain space,,,make me more stupid...CZ NO PLACE PUT OTHER THING LIAO MA...
hehe...need fast fast do finish my thing o...br got time stick 2gether....no matter is M O L... all of u is my loving family..miz u all so much..remember tc o.especially my bro,u r,,,dun always make dad n mummy worry la,k?
hmmm...this lgc r...nvm la,lpc can use this time practise how 2 use her time when lgc bz...learn how 2 b a lpc..bcum ' cheng2 gong1 wei3 ren2 hou4 mian4 de nu3 ren',....yeah..haha..this is a big ambition oo...so lgc r,if wan lpc dream come true..u need 2 study good good o....lpc support u 100%....^-^
lgc msg me...make me think of his hug kaka....n d warm pizza...really ooo,how come u always appeare in my mind 1 o??steal all my brain space,,,make me more stupid...CZ NO PLACE PUT OTHER THING LIAO MA...
hehe...need fast fast do finish my thing o...br got time stick 2gether....no matter is M O L... all of u is my loving family..miz u all so much..remember tc o.especially my bro,u r,,,dun always make dad n mummy worry la,k?
hmmm...this lgc r...nvm la,lpc can use this time practise how 2 use her time when lgc bz...learn how 2 b a lpc..bcum ' cheng2 gong1 wei3 ren2 hou4 mian4 de nu3 ren',....yeah..haha..this is a big ambition oo...so lgc r,if wan lpc dream come true..u need 2 study good good o....lpc support u 100%....^-^
Monday, March 13, 2006
lgc birthday
shang yat fai lok o....now having class 2mr having test...
happy birthday once again,2 my stupig lgc...
kakaka...dun worry la,no 1 will bully u...
xcept me nia..haha...
happy birthday once again,2 my stupig lgc...
kakaka...dun worry la,no 1 will bully u...
xcept me nia..haha...
Monday, March 06, 2006
Thursday, March 02, 2006
lgc:
guess i m doing wat?of course wirting u email la,abo than?ntg la,jz i ald sit 2hr in front of this WA03,n sud think of u ma send u an email lo...
jz nw receive a msg,sum1 say he is mizing sum1 here...n d lec is boring...gambate ya...n wat ever happen..jz rmb there is sum1 always stand by mode,2 share wif all d happiness...n 4 u 2 throw all d unhappy stuff....tat is LPC la of course,abo u think wat?d tong sampah in ur block r??
k la,rmb take good care of urself o,dun let lpc worry...but tell u a secret...act i dun care u got take care ur self o not 1....all i know is take good care of my lgc,tak kira he is taking care of hisself o not.....haha...
lpc
guess i m doing wat?of course wirting u email la,abo than?ntg la,jz i ald sit 2hr in front of this WA03,n sud think of u ma send u an email lo...
jz nw receive a msg,sum1 say he is mizing sum1 here...n d lec is boring...gambate ya...n wat ever happen..jz rmb there is sum1 always stand by mode,2 share wif all d happiness...n 4 u 2 throw all d unhappy stuff....tat is LPC la of course,abo u think wat?d tong sampah in ur block r??
k la,rmb take good care of urself o,dun let lpc worry...but tell u a secret...act i dun care u got take care ur self o not 1....all i know is take good care of my lgc,tak kira he is taking care of hisself o not.....haha...
lpc
Sunday, February 19, 2006
i don't know,don't ask me
aiya...dunno la..feel like all d problem is under my control...but than all d stuff look so...so...so uncertain...hate uncertain feeling..feeling bad...this make me think tat all d thing once again not in my control;haih...dunno leh....everyone everthing seem be like tat...dunno wat will happen....until the last second...and make no chance to change..
Thursday, February 16, 2006
mind in mind
why i am so not understanding???huh??can anyone tell me??why i know that is a wrong way but still want to stick with that stuborn decision??can anyone of you tell me why??
hmm...May be this is what call stuborn...but i just don't want to regret one day some how...but is it wrong??what i m going to do??can everything just be like that and without any single changing???can it be??possible??
i don't know...just don't know what else can i do??
can i just go away??NO!!i wouldn't go away...is not fair...wheather...all...is not fair...but is hard to find a balancing between...know???
hmm...May be this is what call stuborn...but i just don't want to regret one day some how...but is it wrong??what i m going to do??can everything just be like that and without any single changing???can it be??possible??
i don't know...just don't know what else can i do??
can i just go away??NO!!i wouldn't go away...is not fair...wheather...all...is not fair...but is hard to find a balancing between...know???
Friday, February 10, 2006
sukidesuka?
tat day learn lot word when attend the class...sukidesuka???watasi sukidesu...(^-^)
sometime the uncertain feeling make us suck...bz is the excuse own given to own..uncertain waste lot time...(0.O)
sometime the uncertain feeling make us suck...bz is the excuse own given to own..uncertain waste lot time...(0.O)
Friday, January 20, 2006
i don't know and yet not understand
hmm...is hard to understand ones thinking...although thing suppose to happen like that but it happen not like what have expected...future..unpredictable...no direction,no idea what i m going to do,how i going to do which it...really cant understand...haih...how come i ll become such no goal person leh...where is my Aim go liao....haih...
Monday, January 09, 2006
new life
new life,just wanna try something new n meet something new and add something special to my memory...
just went back from doing something really meaningfull(haih...)with friend,got to know something different...
since this is my life,i hope my dream come true...although long time din come true liao...kinda of appreciator...gan en
lpq,new life new moto,,,gambate,without regret,dare to fail...GOGOGO
just went back from doing something really meaningfull(haih...)with friend,got to know something different...
since this is my life,i hope my dream come true...although long time din come true liao...kinda of appreciator...gan en
lpq,new life new moto,,,gambate,without regret,dare to fail...GOGOGO
Tuesday, December 27, 2005
christmas huh?
xmas was fun,got a chance go orchard c lot ppl celebrate it crazilly...really open my eye,wahaha...troughout all this week i get to learn different calture from different country(great huh!) >.<
do njoy lot but din njoy much,,,,(sigh) O_0 christmas...just a special day 4 me to do a special thing,i think,that all what i can 'see' about christmas
suddenly know that d world so small,got to know lot ppl going through a destination BUT still can meet all,,,BUT is great also still can meet some of them... ^.*
got special event happen leh this christmas....haha,but i m not d last to know but still late Q.o
really a 'silent night' for my 05 xmas ...haih....
do njoy lot but din njoy much,,,,(sigh) O_0 christmas...just a special day 4 me to do a special thing,i think,that all what i can 'see' about christmas
suddenly know that d world so small,got to know lot ppl going through a destination BUT still can meet all,,,BUT is great also still can meet some of them... ^.*
got special event happen leh this christmas....haha,but i m not d last to know but still late Q.o
really a 'silent night' for my 05 xmas ...haih....
Thursday, December 22, 2005
how to say life
jus went back dinner at 'sea out sky'...dunno is rich ppl food o wat ,,,not my taste act but luckily got eat some...haih..
what ever la,looking forward xmas at singapore..haha,wish me luck..
what ever la,looking forward xmas at singapore..haha,wish me luck..
Monday, December 19, 2005
Friday, December 16, 2005
What a small world
Now i jus realize that the world was so so so so small...wow...suddenly the people around you actually is xxx,waha,the feeling how said leh,strange and unbeliveable,how come how come how come the world was so so so small that we can still meet and got to know each other after so much thing happen leh..hehe
Tuesday, December 13, 2005
not same life experiencessssss
hehe,jus back from camp,can say not bad,wowo,giv a big hand 2 all d coME.T,yeah....n 4 all d attendent,happy 2 know u all,wat a wonderful thing added 2 my memory,wahaha
do learn lot thing,get closer,learn bad also,(haih..no wonder la..)
thinking about d problem voice out from some,seem like it ald happen seriously....yoyo,dun giv dad much preasure on ur own k,make it easy n fun,target is jus a step 4 us to omove forward k...keep in touch...encourage each other,improve it bettter....
tired...
do learn lot thing,get closer,learn bad also,(haih..no wonder la..)
thinking about d problem voice out from some,seem like it ald happen seriously....yoyo,dun giv dad much preasure on ur own k,make it easy n fun,target is jus a step 4 us to omove forward k...keep in touch...encourage each other,improve it bettter....
tired...
Sunday, December 11, 2005
enough
after meeting so many ppl...hav lot thing wanna say out but dunno wat..seem like find ald find 'me'after missing so much time...actually all d ppl v meet right,totally different with d 'look' outside n inside...haih..i aso dunno wanna say wat..
result out liao,din say unsatisfied but seem like need A LOT of improvement..but yet ,THANK GOD,i make it,although not enough good...
result out liao,din say unsatisfied but seem like need A LOT of improvement..but yet ,THANK GOD,i make it,although not enough good...
Friday, December 02, 2005
LPI
tat day undergoing an personality test for some activity preparation....and jus discover own weaknesses...haih....actually is not a big deal seen me myself already know wat is actually my own weaknesses are....the result(i mean d bad thing la)say me:
- day dreaming a lot
- idividualistic
- misunderstood by other
- always argue with other
wahaha...since tat is my weaknesses(i know it b4)...jus impress...wah...how real tat test was...here come the problem..DO I NEED TO CHANGE ALL MY WEAKNESSES??? since tat is my own characteristic....haih..dunno leh...
Thursday, December 01, 2005
stupig
sometime bcome stupid is a good thing i think...cause no need think tat much...jus bcome pig somehow,be a ssd bbd person is perfect,look.....life still go on watever happen,y not live happily leh...eating egg tart,eating tong sui will b perfectly xin fu incident leh....wahahahaha
Tuesday, November 22, 2005
detcailpmoc si ti
y sometime so simple think still need 2 think tat lot n make it complicated leh???really don't understand nia...if inside this world thing will come out easily without much consideration,how good it was?
Sunday, October 30, 2005
wat is?
A student ask a teacher, "what is love?" The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the padi field and choose the biggest padi and come back But the rule is: you can go throught them onlyonce and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi,but he wonders....maybe there is a bigger one later Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realise that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regreted. So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.
The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realise, you have already miss the person...."
"What is marriage then?" the student asked. The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go throught them only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.
The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have .
Back
The student went to the field, go thru first row, he saw one big padi,but he wonders....maybe there is a bigger one later Then he saw another bigger one... but may be there is a even bigger one waiting for him. Later, when he finished more than half of the padi field, he start to realise that the padi is not as big as the previous one he saw, he know he has missed the biggest one, and he regreted. So, he ended up went back to the teacher with empty hand.
The teacher told him, "...this is love... you keep looking for a better one, but when later you realise, you have already miss the person...."
"What is marriage then?" the student asked. The teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and come back. But the rule is: you can go throught them only once and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the corn field, this time he is careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when he reach the middle of the field, he has picked one medium corn that he feel satisfy, and come back to the teacher.
The teacher told him, "this time you bring back a corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you have .
Back
shi jian~~~time
Sometime really feel so helpless....if time can stop at d movement...sure better than now...at least i no need 2 worry so much..think so much...
But now...what can i do leh?suppose not like this,is like tat...haih...if no need consider tat much...no need 2 worry tat much...no need 2.....haih...really cant understand..
Just scared if evrything back 2 normal again...need 2 start overall again...o bcome worse...how leh???i think me also no hav much afford 2 do it,from all over again...no hav...
Really,jus if time can stop at d movement...me sure ll happy than now...at least more happy than NOW...
But now...what can i do leh?suppose not like this,is like tat...haih...if no need consider tat much...no need 2 worry tat much...no need 2.....haih...really cant understand..
Just scared if evrything back 2 normal again...need 2 start overall again...o bcome worse...how leh???i think me also no hav much afford 2 do it,from all over again...no hav...
Really,jus if time can stop at d movement...me sure ll happy than now...at least more happy than NOW...
Saturday, October 29, 2005
happy unhappy
me suppose 2 b a happy go lucky person...than how come i feel so helpless,cureless and so unhappy uncontented leh???? really cant understand myself....
Wednesday, October 19, 2005
haih..no cure
sometime really hate myself for being myself...y i hav such an attitude leh????really cant understand nia...
People say me is a happy person,will gain everything just with little afford...so i just need to appreciate...
Even so,why i think my life so grey???
is it myself over confident or what?sometime really feel just wanna run away from this..but i know this is kind of unresponsible attitude..and that y i still here...although i m half life ald.
People say me is a happy person,will gain everything just with little afford...so i just need to appreciate...
Even so,why i think my life so grey???
is it myself over confident or what?sometime really feel just wanna run away from this..but i know this is kind of unresponsible attitude..and that y i still here...although i m half life ald.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
haih
haih,y recently so many problem appeare...ok,assume that is not a problem but if v just leave like tat and not solve it,it will bcome a huge problem to us..or mayb u will say:'stupid,just solve it b4 it bcome bigger la....'ok,i know but some time it seem 2 more easier 2 talk compare 2 work.
i do hav lot time i do hav lot work,but u know that i hate myself 4 being myself..sometime life seem like allow u 2 do the thing,control the thing you want but sometime it seem like jealous with all our arrangement and just control all the thing..who said v can change the destiny?
wrong again?nvm,here still have other complain..y they all big enough to think but still cant think properly leh.i know k life is not that wonderful without any problem.how come such a person hav such an attitude leh??where go the logical thinking wor??
since 2 day is almost finish and here come another tomoro.And yet tomoro is never coming.i know u r going 2 say'hey girl,live life,ok,with no regret!' all i know is just 'APPRECIATE'
one's hapiness is not having much but worry less..
i will become better 2moro!!!!
i do hav lot time i do hav lot work,but u know that i hate myself 4 being myself..sometime life seem like allow u 2 do the thing,control the thing you want but sometime it seem like jealous with all our arrangement and just control all the thing..who said v can change the destiny?
wrong again?nvm,here still have other complain..y they all big enough to think but still cant think properly leh.i know k life is not that wonderful without any problem.how come such a person hav such an attitude leh??where go the logical thinking wor??
since 2 day is almost finish and here come another tomoro.And yet tomoro is never coming.i know u r going 2 say'hey girl,live life,ok,with no regret!' all i know is just 'APPRECIATE'
one's hapiness is not having much but worry less..
i will become better 2moro!!!!
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