Is Lunch Time !

aiyo, this week is my busy busy busy week leh~~ hu..hu.. career fair need resume, multimedia assignment need analysis, ethic report some more...and someone birthday coming soon...this is what call " free free don't want do, compound until like mountain" lo.. -.-''!!

And i just notice that thesis going to meet the "dead" line d, but i still unmanaged to finish it. Haha, but i sure i will be able to finish it "on time", phew~must be confident a bit ma, if not how to continue live on my life wo...

A lot of friend ar, people ar, asked me where i will work after graduate, or what job i will be taken...how to answer them leh...i not yet find a job, again, i think i need to push myself abit into this (yala, i know i abit lazy, duo luo angel is like that 1 ma...forgive me lo, ok? ^^)

Actually i kinda who will make a decision that will shock everyone around me (sometime it surprise myself, too) ... So, maybe i will work in Singapore, or maybe in Malaysia, or MAY BE i will launch my own business ( but for sure, after i do a bit survey on it la). Small small obstacle = motivator ma... hehehe ( but i more prefer one month resting and travel, hehe, lazy blue fish)

Yippy! today is tuesday d, tomorrow will have chance eat nice nice food, although nice food is the change from money, but leissure time abit is the must to boost up more positive energy ma! haha.

Now is the time for lunch, remember eat bao bao n drink water o lgc, blue fish also want to have lunch d, so feng fu, Yummy Yummy!

Saw an accident

That was crippy. Yesterday on the way back home saw an accident. There was a car drop into a big drain, and the driver cannot be survive. It took all those fire engine and police and pull car tracker an hour to get the car out from the drain.

They said the driver had dead can now in the black police car (2nd picture. Friend said that is call "corpse car")beside me cover with black plastic.Well, i think may be the road slipery after heavy rain, and the driver drive fast without taking a break to turn into the junction so accidentally crash into the big and deep drain.
~:+: Life of a human sometime is very short that even who else cannot predict what will happened in the next second . . . buckle seat belt and drive safe, i am sure you don't wish to get hurt as well as hurt the one you love right? :+:~

is it this is the only purpose of their life?

To two person that not important to me:

i discover a really unmature stuff in this U

1. In this world got people that do not respect other. How to say leh, for example keep alert on other people funny stuff, and make fun of it. The purpose: just for the person no face. whenever have such people, they sure set up a fire around them. ( i guess this is the main purpose of their life huh?!?)

2. No wonder la government want to include moral in education. Because until now, they still not understand the real meaning of "respectation"..sigh *-* i guess they are not big enough. just like when get a survey form, simply fill it and make a pattern, draw or write something on it, just like kindergarten when fill a survey. Haih...(this call " body grow but mind is empty lo" ...)

But bluefish here really hope this kind of people realize what they do is really hurting other people indirectly lo. When you make fun of people personal life matter, you think is fun, and happy to laugh, but you are challenging your so call "friendship" ...

Mo-Cha Mo-Cha

This is Mo-Cha, i also don't know why i named it Mo-Cha. But it can talk, can move around, can sing. Haha, if he can help me finish all the jobs before i wake up, no matter how expensive a battery, i also will try my best to keep it alive :D But this is the story that only a kid below than 3 years old will believe.

Yesterday chat about something regarding take a 2 years time travel around before working, but realistic usually cost us a lot of money to realize it.( cruel reality). That why people said to realize a dream, cost you a lot of time and money and energy and all those small small stuffs. I no have money, but i do have plenty of time.hehe .(I think this is sufficient to make half of my dream come true ;p ) Cheers up guys and gals! stay alive everyone, don't get bury under your stress ya!

Is a Sad Sad Week

find a purpose in life so big, it will challenge every capacity to be at your best.
~David O Mckay

Well, my dream is marriage to a "rich-&-love-Me" Man, hehe, this dream is B I G and motivate enough,haha~

This week is kinda sad sad week for me, although just Wednesday, still got 2 more day to go. Multimedia who give me so low low low mark, i definitely will object this to get the best for my 3.75. Business strategy as well, abit shock when lOOk at the number, OMG!

Well, i guess this will be a new motivation for me to stop duo-luo+ing in this month.

Today i meet a weird, can't said weird la, but duno how to describe. Is like this, i ask a favor from him, but i though i a manner to treat a meal as return. But how know he said, "after i finish what u ask, treat u a dinner ya!" wah~ so ASADI.

My X roomate now sitting at the back of me, like burry her head deep into the monitor d, couldn't doubt her heart, she is the traditional hardworking type among us. i guess, she now sure trying her best to practise how to become ah huat's future business assistance+wife.Kakaka~who know?

Hehe, tell u a funny story ya, is my past msn with goffy:

Bluefish : wana eat McD later?

Goffy: U wan call delivery?
Bluefish: ya, u wan?yesterday u wan eat ma..
Goffy: Hmm...today don't eat McD...
Bluefish: WHY? today McD not fresh?

(i think Goffy mean "today don't feel like want to have McD as dinner"...)

Lazy People

i hate people that no jiao dai, especially those who keep change the decision.

i still can understand who take a long time before making a decision, but those simply make n within a minute or second changed it without hesitation n think of the consequences, so LAME lo!

Please la, dun simply say say, especially when what u said will directly influence other..Look down on those people who like this, LAME

i coming back d

Today is 23th february. The damn fsksm website cannot upload my assignment, *sigh, i should do it more earlier...

Yesterday i meet my lgc, v go to in stock, although some advise me not to buy so much since grad soon, but i did just buy what i need ma. Lucky the Malay girl see you smart only hide your lost soya bean n tuna, haha.

thursday he come n pass me the equestrian note, and suggested buy me a lunch. Y suddenly i feel like he treat me so nice lately? so warm...

i just realize that the time before graduate is so pack and not enough...for me to entertain. well, at least can join 5 man dinner in taman U, the food was nice, consider not bad la...

tuesday, i hope my babe laptop will be recover soon, i know you are sick, that y i send you to a doctor. You know ou are important and meant so much to me right? hope to see you soon o...

Well, finally i m here again, wish me good luck this year, just like what lgc said when valentine day while i m bai ti kong, popi me soon soon li li o...^^

i wish you all stay healthy and wealthy, happy and pretty

i think may be i do too less good stuff, until my laptop get bao ying. may be i should smile everyday, god only know i m what kinda person are.

i wish you, my laptop. can get well very soon, so that we can continue co-operate, out coming masterpiece in my life.

i wish you, my family, have a wonderful mouse year, stay healthy and harmony is the matter.

i wish you, my lgc, get well very soon, so that u can enjoy all the food and candy during Chinese new year, with that only you will have healthy and wealthy time with me, protect me.

lastly, i wish you, my self, stay healthy and happier day after day, be independent and dependent in the suitable time, be strong and tough girl.

god, please give the strength for everyone who can save my laptop, i will become more hardworking, reduce duo luo, to thanks you. Happy Chinese new year to you too.

money is more solid and tangible compare to M A N

week 5: Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.~Joshua J Marine

Recently i discover that money can bring me greatest secure compare to man. i admit that money is the best, but cannot buy anything. G said money is not the greatest 1, i agree r. she said if she marry to a rich man, will make her loss heart in fighting in career. Marry to a rich man, why will lost own fighting heart leh? your own fighting heart cannot simply loss whatever decision that you have made. Appreciate it, and protect it fully.

i think now ah huat can give her sense of belonging. that is why she never think of the level of money and security stuff. sometime i think she cannot live without ah huat, cz all the attitude and life style that show is she is a small women, that could not take care own, n will get panic easily if facing trouble.

Well, different ppl have different wants and needs. is easy to talk, i know. But how hard to live a simple life? why those adult and big and old ppl always think so complicatedly? (well, i still young, i just 18 wat ^^)

i like simple; i am simple; i admire simple; i think simple, is simple!

no horse riding

today i feel so bad, supposing now i riding horse. c&g mistaken, not register my name, so now i online in my home. haih...nvm la, horse run no where.Before graduation i will come back...

very sleepy now, the sky very hot, sound very gray, my body very no heart no soul, sound very blue, gray plus blue will become gray blue. Just like how i feel right now. Chi Cham o....~~~

week no.4

chapter 2: if life gives us rocks, it's our choice whether to build a bridge or a wall.

new week start, is time paying some seriousness toward my job. yesterday spent rm55 for gastric treatment, don't know worth or not. but i kinda feeling happy when see him a bit bit gan jiong, haha.

come on 918, is time for you to contribute some thing really useful for ur time spent liao, go go go.

wish u recover really soon so that can eat a lot a lot spicy and sour food ya.~~

F U T U R E

January, chapter one: Make each chapter of your life a great one.
As they said, life is like a book, everyday has a new page; with new adventures to tell, lessons to learn and tales of good deeds to remember.-unknown

Today i having a blue mood. cause having a deep attack by gastric.i know he is busy, so asking help from other, cause i know that if he know, he also and might not going to help me. Finally i can settle by my own, it shows that i m stepping a step forward without him. i feel GOOD, but at the other side feel sad. cause he couldn't & never make any of my "asking for help" if i not asking him face to face.

Is it my life going to change? ya i think so, n great big hopefully can.i do not ask for a safe job after grad. i wan to play. thinking of making a 'working holiday' VISA, i know government offering such thing. maybe go uk, Korea, London, Australia, for around 2,3 years. half play half work...if i wish, can come back Malaysia, selling my experiences for a better job offer.if i can get a permanent job with that company, even can stay longer at other country. hmm, i wan him to be part of this, i mean together go oversea live and work n play for fews years. i wan him to be part of my future, cause now i start thinking of 'future', i can see future, after 3 months from now.

but kinda hard for him to think of his future. cz he now still cannot c his future. same as me, still cannot c our future. how to ask? if he can consider i will be lot happy d, cause one never been to that situation, he will never understand what situation u r facing of. i wish to have a good surprise. i hardly get surprise.

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This week diary said " Be a life long or short, its completeness depends on what it was lived for", by David Starr Jordan...

almost a period i m not swim in friendster liao, friend all wondering where m i, some start to suspect me at oversea or marriage liao, and yelling " wei, can u come out from where u r n say hello so that v know u still alive!"...haha, so, i upload some photo for u all la, to prove " yeah, i still alive o"

Well, at least i also let myself know i still alive, haha. thanks for asking ya pals.

hehe, new year 08 liao, so as cny coming soon. i wan to become healthy wealthy pretty clever obedient, haha.

p/s: ka chuak, where r u hiding?

don't like to talk

Recently don't like to talk, so maybe this make me more love to type. utm cannot use msn, some use meebo to run msn, some use msn's webmessenger. for me, i use ebuddy. she said, what to do, we cannot live without msn. haha, v just cannot live a day without talk or without msn.

but i so proud of myself, for a long time not use key board, i still can type very fast and well, haha. i think that is one of my skill that can include in my resume later on, i msn well, or i type very truly well, hehe...

where a person go if pass away?

p/s: to my room ka chauk, hope u stay hanging there for the whole sem until i moving out...thanks!

couple hour will be year 2008 d. New year new start new semester going to start and end very soon. Long time not type not use to it, my finger abit not listening, haha.

I wish to have a sweet year 2008, that will not bully me alot. ask for a job that will offering me a pay that can afford me to buy a car and a house as well, have a healthy and wealthy life as well as my family's'. of course some extra pocket money to forward my education in oversea, maybe Australia, haha. not greedy ma, i just ask so less nia.

well, wish u all have a wonderful and sweet memory of 2008, love ya.

HOLI DAY LO, supposin9 so, but the damm activities in between consume my 2 weeks times, well, i guess some sacrifying to that will have some return, cause, everything will be a favor of return, god said, haha...hmm...mb i can loose few kg, that is my return.

new year wan come liao...this make me think of my new shirt, shoe, assesories, beg and all that, haha, especially when ppl said :" wah, u become more pretty d"...i like those wordm really...

1:57pm i supposingly should be studying for tommorow exam, but y i still not have so much ehtusiasm in doing so? actually revise couple of time, just not remember the thing, not so clear how the questions will be ask, which area will be touch, really really mcc..

coming satuday he will be going back to home town, i guess will he relaxing, i will be busying about that so call "once a year a benefit camp"...haha, act i m not so kinda looking forward, just iwsh time can fly really fast, this is because i still cannot see what is that really beneficial and worth to me, kaka

by the way, he remind me i ald 21 years old, and this remind me i should be more mature and independently in facing every daily duty as well as obstracle. haha, should i ?

anywhere, is really the time for studying d, until tonight 12am, i just left sharp10 hr, minus 2 hour for resting and slacking, 2 hours for drama seriesing, i just lelf 6hours. divided into 4 topics, equally divided, each topic one and half hours. hmm...sound like still having enough time, so, hurry up, study pang pang!

p/s: deciding put "gold" for this post, recently i like gold so much =p

slacker

haha, finally can online d, k9 change a new pengetua, the old one whole family fly to newzealand, cz x pengetua wan follow her phd.wah...so nice as a government servant, universtity mz be paid for that...

yesterday have a chance shopping, although saw a lot of thing that have the intention to purchase, but finally not to do so, because until the last second, still lack of something, i thin is the heart to buy, no heart no soul, lec always reject our project with that kind of excuse.

left one exam to go, after that the damm p2345c consume my two month holiday time return for just somekind of "memory+experience", nothing else...haih, and the damm pengetua also dun allowe us to stay in own college, see, yes so nice to become a government servent but actually no use at all....

Just like previous paper customer relationship exam, it had mention that in the references book, one a company wan to further bond the relationship with it potential and so call loyalty customer, they actually going through 4 step namely : awareness, expansion/eploration, commitment and dissolution.

Haha, the author scared us, his reader, having problem in undertanding, he imediate make an example by using people relationship, to represent the customer relationship with net user. he said, to bond a relationship with customer, first u need to catch their attention, just like when u like someone, u wan to attract his or her attention. after that, when a emothion is success to bond, that further to expansion stage, in this stage, firm need to do affort in make customer purchase, just like the stage of human, name "dating"...well, commitment he do mean with marriage, haha and dissolution stage he represent with divorce?

And just like the tv program interviewer said, if a man's settle down age is 60s, what for the wife wait until her husband so old? everryman did have the intention to look for a affair especially age 38 and above, den only will return to the wife, pay her with loyalty at the age of 60, let the pity wife put alot of attention to kids. sound rediculous. if so, the husband can go for an affair,so do the wife, den both meet in home age 60. if the children in future mature enough in yound age to understand their parents' situation, why not?

but i think that is just a kind of future human relationship phenomena, just like wat c said, "for man, he need marriage, cz wife is that person to bring out for people see, and the affair partner is for own enjoyment, when he tired of playing, he will come back. den the time he play, i sure will go play also" haha...from my point of view, marriage just formalize both relationship with each other. if the husband can pay the total loyalty, so do the wife, if not, meet at home at age 60 ya, haha

moon?sun?earth?me?him?

"i wonder why god want to make me lost u in the middle of ppl sea, mayb he wan me to learn how much u mean for me."

recenly, i have been thinking deeply on my future, but it show me of no where...once close my eye, nothing appear except black and blur vision, nothing, but just an unclear path way, leading to no where, i wonder...

well, instead spending time wondering, why not use it properly, girls, wake up~He told me that life is not keep stuborn on a lost thing, how memorial and meaningful to me; but appreciate now.See, he always said something so logical, so not sentimental and feelingless word. who doesnt understand now is everything? the thing lost is lost, so make the life or thing now better, improve it. sometime make me so tiredsome, working so hard alone, you can see he just standing there looking elsewhere afford for nothing.

His life like around on his own; my life like moon, around on him. hate myself being like this. i want myself back!!! self centre Pang wen shan

i use to be self centre, before starting with him. but now seem like everything is related to him. simply dun like this kind of feeling. stop acting like a moon. try be the sun, light the future for everyone, make everyone around you,especailly the earch, turn and round because of you.

what is your strength?

today is kinda tired day for me, entre the second day of degree plus plus " how to make yourself employe"...well, as in the mock interview, d interviewer said i am good enough and able to get a job among them, hahaha, i thin this is the first happy thng for me today...

Well, fren kinda more can rely on den a boy friend...but cannot complain muc la, how said he also go own thing to busy...but, unable to comfort is one of the weakneses i think.Just now i kx, what is the goodness of 4c? haih..me kind of very lauzy girl friend, need to know his strength from other mouth...

may b the weaknesses is the surface thing, so we tend to complaint it much. Rather den the goodness itself, because it kinda so inside thing, ha

But i now cannot see the future, career and other, seem like so blur and so so not clear

white dot and a paper

well...another the day of today...ya ya ya...just finish chapter two, just need some editing will do,but i not so satisfy with it. change? sorry, no energy d.

last last night listen, got a story telling.

a teacher showing the student a piece of white paper, with a dot of black ink in the middle.she ask:"what that you all can see?"...the students answer:" a black dot."...the teacher said:" didn't you all see a big white paper?"

After ward, the teacher hand out a piece of black paper, now, with the white dot in the middle.She ask again:"hat did you all can see?"...the student answer again:"a white dot."....

haha, u sure not understand what my story is all about leh..kindly is for simple with abit clever person only will catch my point...

Just like our life, is very simple. White dot mean happy, mean joy, mean cheers.when you are in hapiness, your eye just will look at the thing that make you happy.So, is easy for us. If we not simply stubborn on a black point, then we will feel the happiness, focusing on a tiny white dot in the middle, ignoring a piece of black paper.

i think i need to just focusing on " deeply in me got a small tiny2 part will miss you also", rather in remembering "altot i duno why u not hapi with me"(but kinda hard ma, why i can forgive a do false ppl without getting a sorry?...haih,,,do wrong duno own do wrong, that is the point)

chanc+es??

1) coming back from raya break...ha, this morning lec show our previos assignment in class, he pick some that he think is good, got mine inside i think, but alot of grammer mistake i did. ha, cause i did it in a hurry...but yet it consider good, so i think i will do quiet good enough if i had better preparation, just like usual, i always has the ability to make thing better, haha...

wana share something, regard what i had read. it said "last time, had so many people but little chance; but now, each person offer to alot of oppurtunity, just they cannot see it and feel it, and make it just fly away like tat" and another person, if i not mistaken is Helen Keller, said something similar like this " Door of hapiness always open, but we usually took alot of time looking at the sad one that had close, and not discover that another new hapiness door had open, just beside"...

hmm...this make me feel that i had miss alot of chances, sound just like me, i took times to suit myself to the situation, that actually that can self-heal in a short time, ha, i such a waste time person, ho?

well, actually i am now kinda wasting time, for my life, i mean actually i can use it much more better in preparation on my thesis, assign, life planning and all that kinda "future plan"...but sometime just feel so moodless and blue and lazy and duolou and meanless to do so...ha, i really waste time person nia.

2) wish u good luck ya lgc in ur presentation, i hope u can do it very well, so that reward a cold yogurt for u to build muscle as what u said, haha.( act yogurt can build muscle 1 meh?)

but since ur hand pain, dun drink too much icy drink. cz i found out that icy drink make muscle ache more, take longer time to recover. and once over do, hand muscle will tare off, den will hurt, take longer more time to heal. not conveniece enough my talking? search on net urself ya...heee heee

shall i rest? 0.o

Yesterdat spending 2 hour typing for my thesis, the results was i nearly fight 2 page for that...sound proud of myself but actually wasting of time...but i manage to feel something like, i m back or i finally can blurly find my track of the day...haha

and i discover something meaningfull and not pointless words, that actually make myself proud:

Morning is God Way of Saying:

One more time, Live Life.

Make a Different,

Touch One heart.

Encourange One Mind,

Inspire One Soul.

But Night is LPQ Way of Saying:

Dark is Coming,

Doesn't let life stop.

Is time to have a GOOD REST,

So can fight for better morning!

Ha Ha Ha!!!

Besides, a friend so down cause all the thing not happend acording to plan...everyone not like that to happend. Since we like to wonder of " if one day xxx will happend?", wondering for tomorrow is never end, so why not use the time doing something that usefull or at least can make own feel better, rather than wasting time wondering? Future cannot predict, because it is too much uncertainty.

I use to plan my time and life, but discover that everytime suffer disappointed when thing not happend acording to what i plan. i told myself i am expecting too much.So now, i not like to plan, even planning for me, is just a roughly plan. A simple and not detail plan can make me feel better in dealing with uncertainty if the thing not happend like what i plan. So, i choose to become flexible and linear, like teacher said when in school, plastic ruler is flexible, can bend the shape when you need...

And i recover that i become more and more selfish, and centralize. i use to be a good and nice and helpfull person, offer anything they want, without caring is tat hurting me or not? But i discover that this is a world full of alot of mankind. be a nice person, doesn't mean that people will appreciate.instead, they trying to misunderstand all the thing in negetive way.backstap me.what are their brain make from??so instead, i becom more selfish person, and centralize, and self defent. To protect myself to be harm from other. I can do thing own, you do yours. as long as u do in your area, just don't over area until my space. so i will let you alone, and just live me alone.

utm vote meh today? yalo ho...

today vote??!!??? yalo ho, i forget d.but not mind la, not care also, i m not tat kind so hardworking no class also go fak to tick on a piece of paper, haha.

yesterday i totally get 3 gift, so unexpected, i calling them "gift fall from the sky, raya, fake care"

1st, gift from the sky is i get a model of mercedes benz call "CLK-Klasse Coupe", i not so sure about how much it cost, but lgc said it cost not less. why is from sky? because i not expect to get it although, ha, until cm said i can go n claim, lucky...

2nd, i get a pretty decorative ketupat from the buka puasa dinner with cm and lec, fatti get for me cz i too short d,haha, so, i m a chinese, i somemore get raya gift ( i consider raya gift), nice nice...

3rd, while i busying and finally have the mood to fight for my thesis, cm call said to have celebrateion, i feel like so @#$%^*, make me walk double line, why is fake care? because they will celebrate as somekind of normal event of ourselve each month, but thanks them too, i must learn to appreciate, althogh just a fake care.haha

although i still not start doing my thesis yet, but i very gao liao today...i wash cloth instead of diarhoea,haha. but along the way back to room from the washing room, i m thiking something...when he in LI, am i already start working? if so, if he is far along from me and we not going to see each other for months...did it mean a long distance relationship??? nah, nex year stuff, nex year only start worry...

i create a new slogan for myself today " blue fish, be a caring and strong, instead a burden person ; be a hard working, instead hard 2 work person", wah...like what da bao said, although sometime or everytime i said pointless thing, but i still can voice out very deep and meaningful thing, haha.

gofi help me buy eno leh

today was a really true sick day for me, wake up at 8am, feel so headache and gastric. finally i decide to sit up on bed, and walk like a dead body to grab 2 panadol and gastric madicine, and msg fren i not going to class, and continue my sleeping...while, intercept i got diarrhoea, 1st time feel so watery....=S...then, i am here, good moring...erm, is almost 11.48AM???so late d...
like usuall, i turn on my darling, and start to swim in the net, got 1 fellow send me this thing :

(爱上一个人的7个预兆)　　
1.当你正在忙时，却把手机开著，等著她/他的短信..你已经爱上她/他了　　
2.如果你喜欢和她/他两个人单独漫步..你已经爱上她/他了　　
3.当你和她/他在一起时，你会假装不注意他，但是当她离/他开你的视线时，你会急著寻找她/他...你已经爱上她了　　
4.当她/他受伤或生病时，你会很关心她，替她/他著急..你已经爱上他了　　
5.当她/他和别人要好时，你会感到吃不知其味...你已经爱上她了　　
6.当你看到她/他那甜美的笑时，你的嘴角会扬起一丝得意的笑..你已经爱上她/他了
7.当你看到这篇文章时，心里想到some one

well, i not sure about that. but i preety like to do such 7 thing. if the theory is true, he also will do such thing, haha

wah...today really a " shit " day for me, cause i shit a lot, after eating my medicine, haha.Until now stomuch still abit pain, duno is sub food matter, or the medicine.
Recently i realize that, lgc make lot changes, duno change because of me or other thing, but he seem like change d. become more lgc, and not like a la lak zai tat i name "dota man".so i decide not to complaint too much...and this time, instead of complaint, i comit.haha.
well, this make me believe in him more, from all the thing he done and had said to me, haha. Thanks for helping me mostly when i need. i ald 21th d, people said rm10*2 not enough liao.so i learn how to become more understanding and tolerance. this make me learn somehting that, instead of expecting more and more, why not i appreciate what and all the thing he make sacrify for me, maybe sound not enough for me, but perhaps sound most and already reach his limitation leh?
And got people said to me b4, a man seem to fullfill all his girl demand, i mean respect her decision, bring her go wherever, eat whatever.that is because he cant spare more time to by her side, so he just can make it better in fullfillng wat the girl want. hmm...i will learn how to tolerance and understanding more and more and think from ur side more and more la. thanks for being side wif me ya, until now. love u n miss u

hihi, another 12 minit is my chinese birthday d, and acording to chinese calender, i m 22th years old, consider big girl d.
during my english birthday, i tot he will be the 1st and the last to wish me birthday, but he is not the 1st, and also the last.Well, i think today either, he not yet wish me happy mid autumn, and happy birthday also, sad...well, u is only my nearest, who can listen to me whenever whatever i wan to voice out, not him, not friend.
Small white already leave me two days d, but i still feel abit upset and not familiar with gone of rm60, acording to what kim heng said. both of them mean lot for me,not just rm60.
some time i just not tat like him, cause his mouth very " no keep". everytime he must said someting very bad to hear, and do something weird, sometime will hurt people heart in addition. But he is not aware of that. i think tat is why until now he still not having a gf. i know guys always said " nah, i dunwan a gf"...but it sound like a excuse for me. i don't know other, but for him, i think maybe is his bad attitude toward people around him. honestly, i not have a good impression toward him.
I am a very simple girl, i dun simply dun like anything or anyone, if u do ur business, i do mine, dun over limit, leave me alone i might said. but for him, he make me feel abit not like feeling toward his personality and attitude and also impression, for sure he got do somehting that indirectly influence my view toward him..advice, if you wan to have a gf, u must change ur attitude, and think before talk/speak.
haih...finally...zhong qiu jie kuai le to me...i mean it, and finally i grow bigger. tomorrow onward i must not do something really childish d...happy birthday pws

24 september 2007

So long d, but seem like i still can be familiar with the feeling when he is not so keen in returning a msg. he sure got nothing to say to me, he duno wan to type wat, so straight not replying message. that is why i hate to msn with him.
now, i even got a " whatever" feeling. carol said u will said watever to a person when got no more special feeling toward that person. even hate or love, nothing. now seem like i ald become, watever la, u wan to reply or not reply, u wish i can become independent, so fan zen i is not tat kind cannot survive without you, so y i car so much u can reply or not?
well, think logically, if a person care, he will reply. but invest phsycology...mean u meaningless, and waste of his time...
me still can live without anyone caring, he is selfish, why i cannot? i also a selfish. since i cant force myself not replying a msg, so i just block...no message no reply...easy for my life

i hate him right now 0803062158

since milo die today, i also no have mood to do thing, he also i think. So i started to swim in web, again, i download and watch garfield 2 through xiaoli.cc, and some funny comedy regarding jacky wu through youtube, but it doesn't help me much in reducing my pain of losing milo...while swiming to a blogspot, sported a person's blog, and from his funny blog write, i get to know something...

1. he always "girl girl girl"
2. he have good persuasive skill...experience and learn to persuave girl
3. he know how to cook(this i know ald,ha)
4. he is helpless, or some other mean wasn't helpfull
5. know what he do every single second, never lose himself in middle
6. Mispronounsiation from cook "dessert" to cook "lizard"



while, i agree with statement 1, from the ever the 1st time i meet him, i mindset myself that(cz this is true):
1. don't believe in this guy talking
2. Got a good look faceman, he not have a small heart in doing thing
3. who expert in all skill, but is lauzy in love skill
but, since i am silly, i believe in everything i had stated, but yet still stick with him, HAHA

milo had left me

This morning, i wake up because of a call, told me that milo cant move aldready? i so shock, the name sound so familiar...i can tmake my self going back sleep, milo...milo...milo....y?is it he sick i never notice?is it our fault cz bathing him, and make him gan mao and die?if so, i so guilty, keep make die inocient life, laplase like that, milo like tat, evan ...., so sad, i no have the qualification to take care fo small animal, how to take care my own, and people beside me, people around me? milo...i will miss your brown hair, miss your naughtyness and activeness, miss your expore spirit...you know that i love you and care of you why you wan to go, think back just 2 week after i bring you home...with money...now money fly, milo fly, and mood also fly away with you liao...

sometime i just cannot understand, the are a man kind of creature, if people not follow what they want, they will not happy. they tot they are god of everything, wan to control everything. if like tat, why not everything just do it by own, why u need other people sumore?

life very busy, living in it feel so cannot breath. sometime just need to face alot of people, but they are not understand in you. Sometime there are people who like to order around, stated clear that is out of her/his business, but still wan to control everything, everyone have own job description, doesn't mean that you cannot give idea of thing, but mean once you give the authority to other people, you just need to trust them, if they are wrong, u give idea, if not just follow them.
you are who?if want every thing to do like the way you want, the person you need is a person who do the job as what you order to, what in your mind. but that one is not me.

usm

Just finish my report, sit totally more than 2 hour jz to type it out, really cant understand where is the point I doing such thing until finger pain of typing…
Today I saw USM bus in UTM, basically I should feel ‘got home’ when say plat start with P, but the 1st thing flash in my mind, was another thing.
USM make me think of a girl, that I still feel sorry to her until now… That is why I ask u what u feels if u saw the bus? I wonder she still contact you, this make me think that if one day the situation happened to me, do you still will remember me?still will contact me?or still will think of me? Think of her if she contact u, I will abit not hapi.
i wonder how are we if one day long distant, I not like tat kind of relationship. I wonder why ppl can survive one week not contact each other. But I just know I cant tahan tat kind of feeling…
iz giv wat she wan is being nice to her? But someone said that guys prefer accompany her, but if cant make it, give what she wan is the only way.but sometime is not can or cannot, is wan to not.
Tat day watch something, make me know something, guys keep wan a gf that can understanding him, but act guy is very easy to understand, but jz duno y sometime thing is not hard to understand, but hard to make understanding…
but now i learn to think hapi thing rather remember not hapi thing...but still hard to forget all the thing that have done...i think i m evil and guilty

...Last night i have a lot of nightmare, i dream of "PSM" drop on my head, all my assignment paper become mushmaro and jumpy jumpy on my desk i can't wait to chew them up, and i break up with my dear darling liao...may be recently got too much pressure from my academic..yiks...i don't like assignment discussion report assignment discussion report and TEST, keep repeat and repeating...

just now surf to sakae sushi's web page, rm16.80++ weekday from 3pm-6pm, but i think got lunch and dinner buffet,people say suki not bad, some say tei sushi also...i think will much more better compare to sushi king...kakaka i think i need to depress liao, cause my brain started to stuck already...i need fresh air for my entire new idea for my project..y-e-a-r-k~~i still can feel my mouth so tasteless after recover from my sickness...steamboat,wakaka,so bad, timing is not good enough, i like food i want fun, i can't just every minute thinking about those paper work, that will make me crazy, break break break,just give me a break i will come back soon k...

maybe i need a new hair style, thinking want to cut it and make my hair curly but messy, look more trendly and pretty smart and yet cute and stubborn head..haha,just like my style...

i want go out and play, i can't live just facing all the paper and typing "formal" thing all day long...feel so stuck and suck!where is my buddy!!! hey buddy i need you, where are you???

today i invent a new theory, call " want simplify complicated stuff, but in the end will mess it into more complicated" the right ways is just open one eye and close one eye, remain all the thing as it normal(actually like this is ad normal, like kinda complicated relationship)...perhaps it will back to normal automatically,who knows?

a bonding trip eee-eark

i experience an ok, jz ok bonding trip this year, act is juz a boding trip, why d yong tau fu wan make it so serious? activities no pack enuf, tentatif not follow goood enough...bla bla bla...y she cant learn wat is fleaxible,is jus a relax trip, what she thinking?wan make it like a trainning camp?
"previouslu previously previosly"keep compare previously, but y not learn from pass and make all the accident keep renew and renew...so so not understand...
and after complaint this is a LUXURY trip, wat wat wat already 35 + hep sponshor bus and budget 300...den why u still eat over 10 chinken wing and yell not enuf?sumore tapao back all the rambutan? like san pa lao...sam pat!
without her will be more enjoyable...hahaha..everyone also say so, and tuk on her back...kakaka,so evil me!hehe
but can say ok la this trip,at least gain something and know some thing more clearly,but one thng for sure that act can be improve better...who knows ya!..

i feel sad,and mad,and tl...some how people not understand me,keep 'wat' me...is not say i not help,is when i ask u keep quiet,ignore and pretend not listen,and now blaming me?what kind of human u are?

i seem like got alot of unhappiness thing happend this few day, and got no 1 that i can su ku,feel suffer.that kind of people name friend keep ignore, make fun of me, and i jz can act like they are transparent, how come i can share with them howi feel.and some how the one keep turn cold face to me,when i need, he will not be around, and if will,the only thing tat he will say is "dun think too much la"until i can predict what his response...

i not even wan to sprit single word from my mount now, is meaningless cz no 1 willing to hear and listen and understand and comfort me...i feel like i already become a ya ba,duno wat to talk, duno who to talk...i wan to protect myself, without expectation from other, and this make me become selfish...

i wan marriage!!!!!!!!!!!!!! don't wan to do thing by own l iao.find a person tat can take care of me,love me,understand me,got money,do not hurt me,good personality and characteristic,know how to protect me and ownself, ok looking, and marrige, so tat i no need to border so much of thing,simple and easy...cz i feel so so so so so so 'line'

my school is @#$% >-*

buses need wait, lunch dinner need wait, use cicit need wait, wifi need wait...i know the world is make to wait, but, buses wait, and not enough space to sit even to stand or even to go inside; lunch dinner wait, but not enough,is not tasty is not delicious at all, and is not for normal ppl eat, i am very easy contented,like tat also feel suck! see, how suck was the condition is?cict har?in malaysia book record,slow and yet cannot loading of the page,not enough pc, wait here and ther and yet cant get 1; wifi?altot wan make whole campus like a wireless broadband place, pls la,update abit, spent more abit,make more quality la,cannot access u lauch for wat? some more charge hundred something for student to use the suck facilities, all the blood sucker!
i been rather pay money for all the good facilities,rather than u give it free but cannot use at all.wat for?wasting every1's spirit and money only...SUCK !!!

cry like the baby sky

a fren said she like to cry,use to cry, but duno why now stop crying d, so she feel san fu...
another fren keep crying, until duno wat she cry for, so she wan stop crying,cz feel san fu...

act me either, long time not cry d.lastime i cry because kek sim, swear not to cry after 20s time, but now duno n time liao because of the stupig idiot,haih,so silly,act man not longer sked when a women cry,because they are weird.so girl, stop crying for a man,is not worthy,yes,not worthy,he will not appreciate,and yet will hurt you again,indirectly,again and again...

wind blow so fierce,so sked...but dun be expected,on a guy,jz be fair to ownself,no body worth an "i love you" more den own.but i will also accept if u wan to tell me,haha

sigh...i really duno myself either, so grey and blue now,jz like the weather, haha...i feel like wan eat sushi now,long time no eat a GOOD sushi d

to all of you,wish everything will come true,may god bless you...

green sunday

sunday, a happy and lazy and creppy day
wake up and plan to havng lunch, rainning, so so big...2nd time accident bang with a good van.Lucky just some injury of the car, but think deeply if abit slowly in the path, if taking motorbike,i think i m really shit that time,and he will also more sui siao then now...now the car went to hospital, but my heart still pik pok pik pok jumpy jumpy

~...miss...~

Thinking the time if i am alone, i just discover i got a lot of free time leave for my own, for my self, for own space, if without anyone else besides me around...around...around....i miss when i am cheers, i miss when i being protect, i miss when i being concern by other, i miss being hug, i miss...
i think i should never put so many time on other, i think i should put more concern into my self, make me cheer always, happy always, joy always, without any worries. Last night i have alot of dream, very smash, very pieces and pieces, very blur and untidy, very don's know what to do, who to call, where to run, so it make me brave and face every thing by myself, concern other, protect other, by using my own hand...
i am so BLUE today, if there are 50% of my room full of water, i think i am in the place of 0.05% down on the bottom. know who appear in my mind now?

strunk and white's element of style

recently i feel so miss direction, so tui fei and tuo luo...are my life enthusiasm jz toward drama?..yesterday i eat bakchang, my dear darling say my bakchang got open stall so he buy me...i saw some ants in my room, they also like miss direction, walk here and there like don't know where wan to go and what want to do...just like me...sigh...
can someone tell me what related between strunk and white's element of style link with electronic and communication?...argh,kek sim r...what's wrong with me?i feel so alone,may be i need friend, i feel so long time no see him,but than jz couple day before, what happend to me?!?
look like i need find something new in my life, activities, friend, game, anything may be...jia you lpq, life is full of colour and energy, just depend how you decorate them...GO GO GO!!!

Trust and believe

wat a day...jz to attend 1hour class.like bee bumble around ear,cannot listen clear,cannot remember well..."did trust same as believe?"...he said believe is giving whole your heart, but trust is not...well,i do not know...feeling abit adnormal,is it my life is jz about movie?iz tat is all?...so funny...what my life is?...what my life was?...huan zu life is more colorful comepare blue fish...cannot,mz live more colorful den him,so he will envy...girl like to know d love 1 being suffer because of she,she will happy...sound weird right?...but is not...becuase when she know there are someone who willing to suffer for her,she feel xinfu and sweet in heart...haha...every girl is same la...when fall in love trap...guy?...hmm...odd and strange and logic mechanic brain thinking...can anyone tell me what is "strunk and white's elements of style relevant to electronic marketing and communication?"...teh say cheong ar teh say cheong...i m very boring n tuo luo...pull me up from the water to outside air...

Today i am very happy, feel abit relief, course my lec finally come and visit me d,haha...act is not my lec la, is other course lec, he say i m pass leh...hopefully la
so,i m here to thanks especially to my Pek Pek, he help me alot when the lec interview my" supervisor", and my dad, he very sked to meet my lec, hehe, but he an pai me to "work" here for him,and paiseh to my mum oso, she not dare to eat when hear my lec wan come,haha...
Well, hope he not come and visit me again la, since he got ask me do my internship until when...and thanks again to my pek pek,cz lec ask him i got ponteng o not, he say no la.haha, but the reality i like holiday everyday, acompany my family almost 2 month liao...hehe...
phew~lpq free abit d,hehe

Happy Bak Chang Day

Today is "bak chang" day...i eat alot of bak chang...and since alot people forget why we eat bakchang, so i m here to share a real history of china,the history of bakchang...

Bak chang is use to remember china dinasti "da chen" name " Qu Yuan"..."Qu Yuan" is a very clever and helpful "da chen",always give the "china king" briliant idea to rule the kingdom....DA DA DA DA...day by day,the castle added more briliant and bad person, there is a person,very very very bad,tat china king use to trust him very very very muc compare to Qu Yuan...So,day by day, the China King begin to forget Qu Yuan, and always listen to this bad da chen's idea...This bad da chen wan to "xian hai" the china king,to steal away his kingdom, so, he make alot of delicios food, that add alot of sugar, make it sweet sweet. ya la, as we know, eat more sweet can cause us lazy ma...so this china king become lazy to rule his kingdom...Qu Yuan very sad...he tell the china king " you cannot eat sweet,must eat abit of salt everyday"...but this lazy china king refuse, he say to Qu Yuan, that Qu Yuan is bad guy, want to steal his kingdom..of course,is the bad da chen's idea...Qu Yuan very sad, the king he use to pay for his whole life royalty is misunderstanding him,so sad so sad...The king not understand him,he feel very sad and sorry to the people,bacause cannot wake stupid king up from the control of the bad da chen...so he jumpy into the river commit suicide...so,he die...the china people is very angry the lauzy and stupid king, they also feel sad cause lost a clever and loyalty da chen...so they make "bak chang",throw into the river,hope the fish dun eat Qu Yuan body...and the guy take the dragon boat, row row row on the river,hope can "lau" and get Qu Yuan body...

So,this story pas pas pas so many year, and become to day's " bak chang day" and during this "bak chang"festival, got dragon boat competition held in Penang, also include international competition invite Thailand, Singapore, Indonesia, German, so on so on...see,Qu Yuan so "wei da"...we must proud of him...

wat a b o r i n g day..

wakeup 10.05am feel s u c k!!!
streamxy damn s l o w forget my c i m b password+id can't reload my t m net
he say his ama n a g g i n g now eating c h i c k e n rice miss my 1 9 3 4 r so muc
feeling abit " t h i n g not go s m o o t h "
ama is making bak chang d...hehehe...but lpq prefer 113 bakchang, if +delivery feel more nicer.kakaka.yesterday get result.old ppl not understand is noting about 4.00.all stupid idiot.blzw duno wan to do wat today.me either.F day seem like nothing day for family.culture not same,thinking not same,everything not same.hard to communicate sometime."yi qie jing zai bu yan zhong" la...madam yeoh calling lunch d,sound like must taking this order...anywhere.if u today got dota,u shud check ur mail d,u mail got alot alot alot msg i think.cz mine also same, dam lot from peltac.haha...blzw mb shud come out an idea for the sae program lo,leader teh??well,sound like slzw oso mus come out idea about the logo and the slogan lao..#@~!&%^* &%$ wat a lauzzzzzy day....if jb now,sure run out watch muvie enjoy spending aircond eat nice2 and sleep sweet beside some1,hehe...gogogolpq...cheers...

try not so stupid,about everything he use to told me,friend always advise me.But i use to believe blindly everyword he use to say or write.Friend say this is slowly suicide,when wan to save the life,bo body will help me,include myself...haha,this line,i totally believe.
today is another new week,i started to ask him something,after he bzing weekend,sked he said me add mafan at his bz time.although he givind answer,but kind of not my type.anywhere,like usual,i accept wat he say.
today is another new week,two huankat customer come and go,empty hand.
"he today sure walk and stand whole day,again" this morning wake up i told myself.it do happend,i am happy for my correct guessing,so i reward myself with an internet afternun...
he not like me to guess.but he dun understand,i always guessing and predicting,because i am sked.and he not like me to sked,and yet cannot stop and help me stop guessing.cause everytime he just will answer me in cold manner"dun think too muc la.."14alphebet wan me to stop thinking,kind of hard leh tsc.but nvm,i not blame him,cz he dunno wat the punca making me guess guess guess(i think that y he not like me watch guess,hahhaa)
i not like to go find him,becuase"cz ur lgc no transport ma".altough i like to do so.it make me kind of not fair.
while,i think i am kind of unbalance.and maybe not a good lover.but i am sure although he is "experienceS",but suck den me,haha.and he always make dumb.feel like i am walking and he is slowing cing around dunno wan to do wat,and i m stand far infront him,yelling at him,and he smile at me,waving hand.i duno wat he think,he duno wat i think.This is wat make me thinking,this is wat causing u always tell me"dun think too muc la"
and i am always telling u something that not"surface",tat is not"good from outside but inside empty".but he always make fool when i tell him,say me stupid.
and yet,hehe,i am "stupid".that y i now i m lgc' lpc

stop acting like this.let me tell you wat is goiong on,the time v spent togther is meaningless.u keep wan more space for yor own,more space with your friend,more this more that,hope me understand,hope me do this hope me do that,u spent ur time playing game,doing gym,study,planning acivities,planning your xtra time.y not you try n understanding me that y i need more time from you,is not you keep want me understanding that u wan more private time form me.ifevery weekend is happend like this,is meaningless,time spent 2gether meaningless mean staying together is meaningless at that point.did you understand.if thing keep like this,i not wish to come n see you forcing yourself spenting those time for me that is meaningless.i more prefer previously that every weekend that got meaning to memory,unlike now,u make me feel that we staying together is meaningless.

Don't know since when i stop coming this web page,but now coming again.i guess only if i m really happy so i will forget all the unhappy...but now,mab thing not happend as my inspiration,that y i m here...
now i feel really tired and hopeless and energyless and breathless...i m not mean to add ur burden,is really not...i though u know y i actin gso,but u don't...i feel i being treaten,i feel so dangerous,and so unsecure,untrustable to you,you are the causes of make me unsecureable.me now duo't know still want to continue or not,i feel this relationship so fragile,so cant being test...
i know if i let go,you will not do anytghing,even say nothing to rescue it...
mayb i just not tough enuf to let go.or mb just wif one of your word can make a change,but i know,you even wan to do just a single minimum try to grab my loose hand...
if can,i just donwan it to be happend...

i really hate you right now.
you always do thing without understanding my condition. And you keep expecting me to do this and that, but you never fullfill the expectation to me...
the thing happend today is not just today only...example,you don't like me show yuo that kind stupid face, same as me, i don't wish to see any stupid gong2 face in you, how you feel, what in you mind, you can just tell me, you never think of sharing, everything keeping just in you?is that a thing a sucessman do meh?
2nd, you keep telling me that must understanding in you, must encourange and support you. but y don't you do thing using you time effeectively and wisely, if got something not understand, find out find the fastest way la,keep wasting time. Game is not the thing you do when you got time.
After you seperate half of you in another sector, you keep ignoring me! d0 thing never consider about my feeling, truly.
3rd, is not i baudering you in doing all the thing you want.But you keep ignore me, keep careless in me! since when you have change until like that? the time you give me already reduce and reduce and yet reducing...and me already try very hard not to care bout the time that you can give to me, but can you plz don't waste any time that can spent with me?
sometime i really feel that what i do you really not care at all, not appreciate the sacrify i had make for...i really doubt about the thing you say, that sentence about " i really love you very much, much more than you can feel"...what else that i can feel?

long time not drop here d...almost a year d this board acompany...suppose you know more about...understand...more...
today is 06 oktober 2006 8:26pm,time fly so fast...sad,happy sour,sweet,everything...almost try all in a semester...don't know why,he make her feel so uncertain,unpredictable...mayb stick too much d she think,but she still cant manage to get use when he is not around...time pass,he want and more understanding from her,she think this is reasonable,silently support him,however thing like getting more worst and blur,how to say,he seldomly get to know welll what actually she need,she want,she care...is she change?or he?is it being stable?or not?getting good?or bad?
honestly say,she think too much?or just make every thing simple,understanding make her suffer,and yet he is not understanding enough toward her understanding to him.......
it is not all about giving and receiving,sacrify and getting back...is all about considerating and understanding...
big man hope small lady nonstop to support,care him...small lady hope she nonstop in sayanging and sweetlove living happy ever after...the way of communicating is a problem,she hope he can help her,help himself,help this relationship.and yet he don't know how to help,accidentally make thing worst...

i don't wish everything getting bad and bad...

...lIfE Isn't smOOth As yOU thInk...

Life?wat is that?it not happend,wat u think not happend,wat u xpect not happend,wat you wan never happend,wat you hope never happend,wat you wish never don't know when can realise...
sometime you make me duno wat to do,sometime you really treat me so nice,treat me so warm,treat me so sweet,make me wan yi lai i n you...but sometime yuo really treat me so wierd,mayb jz myself sensitive,mayb i look myself inside you more important den you are,the caring manner can change to careless,ignorent,coldness,even not paying attention when we are spenting time together...
i feel like you not longer appreciate what i have done for you,mayb i do many so many thing until you already ba for all the thing i do for you...you not longer hug me in your arm,you not longer care me how i feel what i feel when i need you to be by myside,you not longer apreciate with my understanding and xpecting more n more,sometime i really wish that time would not fly so fast,perhaps i m more happy when the time we use to be together,before...y i have such feeling...
sometime really sad when think about this,it make my tear come down when i write this,i really hope that you can read this(but i think you don't know,cz you still sleep like pig),may b,perhaps you don't know,mayb i shoud send to your mail...

today is my birthday,yesterday lgc bring me go buffey o,eat till v 2 stomuch big big,hehe.(tat stupid idiot eat till like having a baby liao.)
chung ling also celebrate with me,but seem like me more xpert compare to them,they cant manage to play me,hahaha,but abit diappoited lo,lgc cnt with me...duno monday he got come n find me not?
to day 1030 cm gona celebrate,gofi tell me not hav present,but got a big surprise,really surprise leh,c my own lgc taking a birthday cake 4 me,really wan hug him n kiss him tat movement...i tough will hav a bday hug,duno he such a bit idiot la,haha,stand still still duno what to do like a puppet...lgc r,u rmb o not?lpc got tell u,i m with you all the time,so u can come n find me,whenever wherever whatever happen and you are,next time anyting happend don't jz do noting stand still2 k?
actually lpc really seriously happy to c u just now,if ltr can hear from you sure be wonderful,look forward to your bday surprise?lpc make it bigger like a boom,k?i know you like a surprise,me too like a surprise,but surprise that arange by you own n by other is not same ma,rite?n different surprise happend different timing ma,k?
ltr tmb sleep early ya,do you love me.yala,i sure wan ask every day la,cannot meh?u rmb drink lot water k?bbgal love u many many much,u shold know tat v3ry clear,rite?

hmm...yesterday so tired,but still manage to listen the thing he wan share with me,hehe,lucky be can be with him share the thing he wan to say 1st minute 1thinking 1person,that is me..hehe
but,the boss tell him i m d one who make him success and cause him down..huh,haih..duno,m i so super meh??i jz one of the element of his life lo...don't woprry,i m not going to stop wat ever u are going to do,as long as you happy,as long as you still remember you have me!...c,i m so ez contented person nia,so no demand...LOVE,is true,is not all about romantic,gain and lose,is aboutacptance of all that is,has been,will be,and not will be...peace is seeing a sunset and knowing who to thank and appreciate..cause the happiest people don't have the best in the world,but they just make the best with all the thing they best,so they have the best!...
i know,start from 0 is far far more than 'hard'...considerate and understanding can be the main to support...sometime i wonder i have this both or nt?did i?sometime i think i m farly not enough understanding for him...just tell if there are some place to add on,dun let me alone mong seng seng at there,k?

love u.

time 7:41pm weather:mizing him
make sense if keep give lot time 4 u 2 do all the thing that 4 yourown good?after sacrify yourself to fullfill his dream?like him love him want him need him,so gotta let him go?(hmm...auther of book say 1,hm...not deny it)

wah...so many homework o...i can predict wat lgc wana tell me if i complain this with him.."who tell you don't want to do?"...or..."do now la,don't waste time anymore"...or...

if i tired,can i lie in your hug?

now time 7:29pm,jz finish read couple page my book...hehe,jz now wan do my fm homework 1,sorry o(lgc tell me mz do alot hmwrk la,cz i eat a lot magi jz now...)^-^
now eye stop at d crystal u bid 4 me....stupidear use rm6 2 bid it 4 me,after i say pretty he ask me like it not=)...)thanks ya,use left 2nd finger touch it,feel very cold,hehe,cz i put it lot water,from the paip..=p
RealPlayer:track6 7:32pm...room very queit,ur hm go out d,leave ur pity lpc alone here,got fan sound,got keyboard sound,got justin song...same time,i miss you so m u c h m u c h . . .
"Do you love me?" "why you love me?" i use to ask you,i also don't know y,gal always do silly thing,jz like me,hope to get a certain answer,from a very clear yet blur question..."you say leh..."you use to answer me like that...
wat is love?you feel not secure when not hear from him.wat is love?you feel uncomfordtable when you don't know where are him.wat is love?smell lonely when can feel him.wat is love?i know wat is love...some sort like wana die,when time is without you...

^h a p p y n a t i o n a l d a y^

merdeka,1st time can so happy...lgc bring lpc tp c firework in danga bay,hehe,gofi need wait one day to back home,i fast fast tok can happy happy play go kai kai with my dear dear lo after test...after goin back change n eat,v finally reach there d...got a very good policewomen(lgc say 1 lo,hehe),ask 4 direction...we walk..chat...laugh...eat 'mang jiang kuih'...but 'chipmore'...play boat(yeah~lpc like sam pa lau,never play b4)...can c fire work later,on d lake,with d paradel boat,n of course with my lag(is lgc idea la,he say can c firework up there near near mz b fun 1..hehe)...so i take my 1st paradel boat,with my lgc...EH,got fish leh..WAH,d fish can fly leh,wah,n fly inside our boat...
finally,the firework...eh,wait a minute,y so small n so far..(lgc very disappointed le...)and then got a fire work at land site,wah firework nearer and nearer lpc...so happy,altot so small but me ald so happy d....
suddenly,we hear a huge sound,come from a very near,when v still playing with that fish flying into our boat jz...WOW..lgc,i cant believe it,is a firework,fall rite infront my eye,so sos ososososososoososo big,so huge,so round,more more more beautiful,coming up next,side...so so like huge mushroon in d sky,and become tiny tiny star(act is fire bug)fall down like a snow rain,so beautiful....and "PING PANG PING PANG",i watch till lying on my life jacket,lgc even sked me fall into d water,i like him so much when he holding me tide tide ^-^...but d fire snow become bigger when d fire work become bigger,n drop into the water(damn d person say at the other side,where got,no side,is up side!)...RUN,lgc,lpc very sked leh tiny2 fire fall into boat...
haha,finally finish d firework d...wah really amazing,d big mushroom fall rite infornt my eye,one den one time nearer and nearer....2day is d wonderful day,i m d most xinfu small lady in d world,i have my big man beside me,we do many thing together,n 4 d 1st time,,,,merdeka,i love you so much...

i dun care,i still wan send u lot lot lot miz bug,kacau u till big huat siao, oko nt??hehe,happy moving in o,sincerely from your beloved lpc....(c me so sleeping duty till late2 also miz u n wish u,got gan dong o nt?nvm,no need cry 1,hehe,jz give ^('w')^ bite FOC la,hehe)

T.T

i hope u r here now,i feel like wana cry out liao,i hope can hug u n cry,don't know why i can change like this,i m not not not not like to cry,but after bengkel i seem like cry alot alot alot...

recently don't know what going on,why so much thing like to happend together?is it all of them like to date together n pop out to bother me?someting is going on but i don't know what is going on,i hate such uncertain feeling,is so so so so so...don't know,i just want to be normal,everything just back to normal,really cant imagine what will happend next,very uncertain and unsecure and unpredictable and uncontroable,i just hope everything will be fine,just be fine....
why they keep say make it simple?everything will be ok..when it will be ok??when v will be ok??i don't want be not ok,i don't want like this,i hate myself for so many reason,maybe i am stupid,i just tiny normal fragile people,easily break and will not recover for long long long long long long long enough untill....why thing seem to be hard to commit,i know since already started and you should commit to it,that why till now i still the stuborn head little girl,i don't want to just give up for just a tiny ant thing...but why that feeling s almost make me cant breath and killing my soulllllllllllllllllllll

.+: ^ b o r i n g ^ :+.

don't know why keeping playing in my mind,chating is some kinda waste of money...nah,no la,cz time is money ma..so without waitng em to finish all the conversation i tok ald take a leave,alone come to cict...got a person,4get who d tell me u life is full of aloness,so dun be so lonely,alone din mean you are lonely,so as lonely not so happen when you are alone...me kinda dunno time management person,haih,wat a loser...
friday clas cancel,n v din go watson 4 assignment d,waste time...cm all wan go shoping,sing-k,pc fair,n bla bla bla,,,but how come when i listen all d invitation feel so no mood to join em leh?is so not like me...perhaps mb nothing i need but just lgc...

weather so unpredicable,cold hot cold hot,you are,remember drink more water,dun b lazy take water n cook,eat when hungry,jacket when cold,your nose so sensitive,abit abit cold tok si si sok sok liao

now my ph is 11.08 27.072006,d pc is wf03,and d computer keep showing notice that 'virus infected',jz now lgc msg sy his name in golden key list..sud think that lpc not that capable,not suit 4 him,,,hiah,,but,smart and stupid usually is perfect match,so dun care ya,as long as you love me...
now very cold,but very hot out there...
told you to drink many water,dun get hunger,if tired go and rest,if hot take a shower,if down complaning to lpc....but you are not drinking many water,lazy to bath,eat so less,where got nutrition o?and lgc mz remeber that lpc will always there for you,to share evthing happy and throw everything sad,cz i m not same like other or someone other else.

huh?!crious meh?But lgc stil vry luv u wo,o iz we ard reach a stable state?dun think too muc negative ting,lgc wil stay wif u 4ever n ever luv u til u die =)

sender:+0174168003 sent:5-july-2006 22:19:58

lpc,sorry2 make u feel tis way.lgc will try2 improve in future.but 1 is true,tat i really luv u vry muc,muc mor than u can feel

sender:+0174168003 sent:8-july-2006 02:46:48

lgc,i think you are not confident enough in you lo...lpc since where sound like not missing you?lpc miss you 4 more you can think even till get xiang shi bing tat DR teh cant cure also...but 1 thing 4 sure,when feeling not well,can see you already recover haf liao,is a true,where you get such ability to cure me without any medicine huh???are you a god??haha,no la,lgc is my angel...lpc very sell fish 1,i won share you with anyone,if can,i will wish to keep you in the pocket,wei,u tis big stupid really know how much i care,miss,n love you bo???you are the one who make me got xiang shi bing,you must responsible to it,or else, I WILL DEFINETELY BITE YOU TILL O CHE LASTING NOT ONLY 1 WEEK!!!!!

ho,sum1 comlain xinku o.Lgc nt stupig,jz tat u nt sy clear enuf.Sy d lo,i m urs,u cn do anythng to me ma =)lpc writin blog nw,mz b complainin lgc,iz?lgc is a mafan bf ez?Other ppl bf gt so mafan o nt le..eh,jz nw bfas u eat wat?Dun get urself hungry..Guai2,den lgc syg u d most bb

sender:+0174168003 sent:20-july-2006 11:06:43

lgc 1st tiem send me long long msg...so happy...dear,one thing is true that we still have long way to go,and i m not giving up,no matter what happen and how hard could it be...i know tat you wont let me go through all alone

lgc:
hihi,dint think m i here leh,,,all jz thinking i m ks wif cm,always say me ks with cm,u nt even c with ur own eye,,,i won do something wrong 2 u,y u will have tat kind of feeling...i know tat,is a kinda 'owning' feeling,i feel tat b4,but i able to make it in another way,a way to understanding you,don't ask me y u so bad but still love u,den y i m stupid you still want me?and even v r both cant live without each other???
haha,act compare to other,we are more lucky enough,we no need to wait for month to meet each other,or talk using a device,we just talk through air,haha,cz u r in front me ma...so,that y i am very appreciate that you are with me,when i need,almost,everytime when i need you,excpt few time,i m not blaming yuo,cause i know yuor hardness...
i also dunno i write wat,just wan write something...get to know you ald a big miracle,miracle not happening frequently,jz once in a blue moon,so u like a blue moon 4 me4...nah,act i can sacrify lot thing without asking any giving from you,you know???y you keep asking stupid question n hope to get answer from me le?and you ald know the answer..but y when i ask u dun wan to answer me leh??wei,is not fair you know????
and you got promise me long long time ago that you wont luan luan think thing liao y you still luan luan think thing leh???dun worry,lpc will stay away from those guy la...

Today saw something,and realise something,is a kind of word,knock on my stupid big head,like a sound of big "t-o-n-g"...and i wake up...

"MAY BE THERE ARE FRIENDS AROUND YOU,BUT WHEN YOU ARE IN TROUBLE,THE ONE WHO WILL STAND OUT AND HELP AND BY YOUR SIDE,USUALLY IS YOUR BOYFRIEND OR GIRLFRIEND"

p/s:^('w')^ sorry dear,i wouldn't say "tao yan ni" emotionlly d...because that words is hurt...

when a guy(girl)missing each other...

When a guy calls u,he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,He realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine," after a fewminutes,he means it

When a guy stares at you,he thinks you're the most beautiful thing intheworld

When you're laying your head on a guy's chest,he has the world

When a guy calls you everyday,he is in love

When a (good) guy say he loves you,he means it

When a guy says he can't live without you,he's with you till your done

When a guy says, "I miss you,"he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else

Girl Facts:
When a girl is quiet,millions of things are running through her mind.

When a girl is not arguing,she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine," after a few seconds,she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you,she is wondering why you are sowonderful.

When a girl lays on your chest,she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl calls you everyday,she is seeking for your attention.

When a girl wants to see you everyday,she wants to be pampered.

When a girl says, "I'll love you forever,"she means it.

When a girl says that she can't live without you,she has made up her mind that you are her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you," no one in this world can miss you morethan that

so,ah dear u kn0w o not now how much i miss you???n i do miss u alot

hmm....back scl d,abit not xi guan,dunno y...hmm,recently discover myself got xiang shi bin o,feel like dying soon soon soon...lgc now doing wat????rest in room...wawawa,,,later class dismiss o...so happy,wonder later lgc clas will dismiss o not,,hehe...jz now say a very funny articles,she post in my buletin,,kakaka